Chapter 4

Cleo

Protection protocol

When I got into a relationship with Angelo ; I didn’t go into it with eyes wide open .  The lessons that I had learned from being with him and the trials we went through, shot my eyes wide open . There has always been  a protection protocol that needed to be followed in cases where I was apart from Angelo. 

Daniel had made it clear to  me that I need to cover up with regards to bullet proof vests and carrying  things in my bag that could help me in case I find myself in a bit of trouble or life threatening situations. The self defense classes I had also been taking  secretly that he had organized also helped . I didn’t like keeping stuff from Angelo , but I did it because I knew that he would say no  to me.  He has always had a problem with me starting things without telling him, or when he finds out about  something that I am doing by my myself , he would get a bit moody because  I did something without telling him. He wants to know everything and to a certain extent control  everything . He hovers and it can feel suffocating at times.  

Me taking a break from him couldn’t have come at a better time . I missed the kids terribly and I also had to deal with the fact that he was keeping stuff from me . The funeral was nothing short of eventful and it was raining on top of everything else that was going on . When I walked out on Angelo I didn’t know which direction to take. I was hurting and reeling at the fact that he had a son who he accidentally killed and built  something to remember him by at the Massa acre . With our tow babies that we lost  he built nothing .  I just   didn’t know what to feel. I just felt betrayed . 

I was running when I heard a car driving by the distance , it wasn’t until I got hit with a bullet  and I was lying on the floor that I  realized that I was being attacked . It hurt at first and it felt like being punched hard  in the chest , I wouldn’t be surprised if I woke up with a bruise .

I was slowly coming around and  as soon as I opened my eyes I knew that I was back in the Luca estate .

I lifted up my hand to look at the time and it was well after ten in the evening. I must have been knocked out cold because I wasn’t wearing what I wore to the funeral I was dressed in a jogger set . A turquoise  colored set .  As soon as I tried to drag myself up  my ankle was on fire and it felt as if I was being poked by lots of needles  that were hot . I hissed in pain and I  woke up the guy who was  sitting on my bedside in a comfy chair .

“ Cleo?”

“Blue?”

“ Yes . How are you feeling.”

“ I am in pain but Its nothing I cannot manage .”

“ I have never been so scared of losing you.”

“ You have already lost me by doing what you did .” 

I couldn’t hold back the tears and I started crying .

“ Let me prove to you that I can be a better man.”

I swatted the tears from my face and  shook my head. I swung my legs  on the side of the bed and I realized that I had bandage on my ankle . I looked at him and he looked me with blood shot  blue eyes.

" I know you're going through hell right now ...  But I don't see us getting passed what's happened . "

" Try see it from my point of view. With you everything and by that I mean ; everything has changed  I am wiser than the fool I was before . "

I took a deep breath and looked  at him it seriously broke my heart to see him in so much anguish. 

" No you're  not and if we had taken a break like I said we should ,before everything happened;  I wouldn't be  in this situation, and I wouldn't want to just leave."

Not

" The kids are here . I just promised  twins that we are going to be a proper family and Ava misses me and you."

"Don't make promises you can't keep ."

" I'm not. The past seventy two hours have been hell for me. It all feels like a dream . A bad dream that doesn't want to end. I love you and  it's no joke . My reputation might not have been good or squeeky clean  in the past, but my intentions with you have always been good and pure. "

" I feel like I'm paying for your past lover's mistakes . No matter how much I have shown you; proven , promised , and loyal I have been to you, I'm never going to be worthy of your total trust ." 

" Cleo you are worthy ." 

I absent mindedly attempted to stand up trying to get my point across and I fell only to get caught by Angelo  who held me and didn't let me go once I was in his arms.  It felt good but I needed to stand my ground. 

" Please let me go . "

" No I love you and  I'm not going to until we find common ground and I don't care if it takes all night I need to work things out with you. " 

He placed me gently back on the bed and  looked at me cautiously .

" You only get into fights you can win . " 

"Only difference is that I feel like I'm losing this one, and my best friend and teammate."

Angelo poured me a glass of water  and I took a couple of  sips  before I spoke;

" I felt more free alone than when I was with you.  It shouldn't feel that  way but it does . There was a time when I felt free under your control but now I feel suffocated .We need to hit the reset button."

" We didn't take our honeymoon and I need to get away and process. I can't get over this alone and I need to do it with you ..."

" What am I to you and what are we?"

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