LOGINJim poured himself a third cup of coffee and grabbed his cell phone from his jacket pocket. He called Dean Jessop, his friend, boss, and former Ranger unit LT. Dean picked up on the fourth ring.
“Jim?”
“Yeah, man. How you doing?”
“OK. I’m just getting ready to take Emma to her doctor’s appointment.”
“Yeah, I know. She nervous?”
“Hell, I’m nervous,” Dean said. “We find out if she’s moving closer to remission… if the transplant and last few rounds of chemo have had any effect.”
“You’ll give her my love?”
“You know it, man. Anyway, is this why you called? Or is something else up?”
“Both.” Jim sipped his coffee. “I wanted to wish Emma luck, but also, I wanted to ask if Mitch or Jase could cover my shift this afternoon.”
“You OK?”
“Yeah. It’s Kat.”
Dean’s voice sharpened. “You have her?”
“I’m at her apartment now.”
“Where the fuck has she been for the past week? Emma’s been going out of her mind with worry.”
“I know. Olivia and Jenny too, from what Dallas and Chris have told me. I picked her up last night from Curves.”
Dean paused. “Fuck me. What was she doing at that place?”
“Trying to drink all the whiskey in the state, if her bar tab was any indication of her intentions. The owner found Kat’s cell and called me at two a.m. I brought her home.”
Dean sighed. “Is she OK?”
“She’s still sleeping. She just puked for an hour, though, so she may feel better the next time she surfaces.”
“You want to stay there?”
“Damn right I do.” Jim glanced at the closed bedroom door. “I don’t think any of us can trust her as far as we can throw her right now, and my thinking is that if I leave here, she’ll grab the packed suitcase in her living room, and disappear into the sunset.”
“What? What suitcase?”
“The one she’s got packed by the door, ready to fucking bolt.”
“You asked her about it?”
“Nope. She just got up, puked, passed out again.” Jim rubbed the back of his neck. “Conversation’s been fleeting.”
“Yeah, OK, then. I’ll call Mitch and Jase. I know Jase especially wants the extra hours. You stay right there and wait for her to drag her hungover ass out of bed. You don’t go anywhere, man, not until she offers up some answers.”
“That’s exactly my thinking.”
“Good to know we’re on the same page. I imagine Emma will call the ladies, so don’t worry about telling Jenny or Liv. Just hang tight, and get us all some information.”
“That’s the plan.”
“And do you think she’s OK?” Dean said. “Emotionally, I mean?”
“Honestly? I don’t think so. I think she’s one hell of a mess about something, and I’m going to find out what it is.”
“Go easy on her, Jim.” Dean’s voice was suddenly gentle. “You know something about her ain’t right. We all know that, right? Just – just let her tell you when she’s ready.”
“I’ll try to cool my jets,” Jim said darkly. “If I don’t strangle her first.”
The sun was high in the sky when Jim opened his eyes again. Beth was next to him, still sleeping, and he gazed at her, amazed, grateful, worried.Carefully, he got out of bed, trying not to disturb her. He found his jean jacket in the living room and checked his cell. It was no shock at all to see that he’d missed eleven calls from Dallas. It was a surprise, however, to realize that Sully had also called him. Six times.He glanced over at the bedroom, debating waking Beth up before returning any calls, then he decided to get the news first. He’d find out what was happening, if anything, and then he’d fill her in. Maybe they could make some decisions today. Together.Jim called Dallas, barely breathing as he waited for the other man to pick up.“Jim? Where the fuck have you been, Alden?”Jim grinned. “Uh, well. That’s kind of a story. What’s up?”“Ferguson is holed up on a farm in Utah.”Jim stood totally still. “What?”“Yeah. Sully and Mark went to Oregon yesterday and immediately, Su
“Because I got outside and I was heading for the train station, looking over my shoulder, totally panicked, and I realized that I’d been doing that exact same fucking thing for four years. Four years, Jim.” She shook her head. “Four years of being so scared and so lonely and not being able to sleep at night. And I stood there, about to flag down a taxi, and all I saw was four more years of the same. Then four more after that… then another four. You know? I saw my future. The only future I have if I keep running, and it’s exactly like my past.”Jim stayed silent.“Then I started to think about what you said… about being safer here with you and the guys than I’ve ever been before, and ever will be again. And I knew that you were right, that being out there alone was stupid. Almost suicidal, probably.”“Yeah.”“And then I realized that I had to make a choice. I had to choose a place to stay. To – to make a stand. You know what I mean? If I don’t want to run anymore, then I have to stand
Jim woke up in pitch darkness. Confused, he tried to lift his head, and felt a far-too-familiar kink in his neck. He groaned.Fuck. Why am I back on her sofa-bed? Did we have a fight last night or something, and I’m in time-out?His head hurt, his whole body hurt. He lay still, trying to figure it all out, trying to remember how much he’d had to drink. It must have been an astonishing amount; this was by far the worst, most brutally-painful hangover he’d ever had. He felt floaty and dizzy, disconnected from his own limbs somehow, and he closed his eyes again, took a few deep breaths. He felt sick to his stomach, and he wondered if he was going to throw up. But did I drink last night? Why can’t I remember?Images were appearing behind his eyelids and he squeezed his eyes tighter, trying to retrieve them. Beth’s face bubbled up to the surface of his memory. Beth kissing him… telling him that she loved him. He smiled.Did I say it back? I sure as hell hope so…The memories were changing
“He’s coming,” she said quietly. “Not for sure, but maybe. Cordelia seems to think there’s a good chance.”“I know. Dallas told me.”“Right.” She drank again and he followed suit. “And in my opinion, any chance is too much. Too dangerous.”“I’ll protect you, Beth. So will Dallas.”“And Olivia, and Jenny, and Emma? Can you protect them too? Emma’s pregnant now… you honestly think that Dean isn’t going to lose his mind with paranoia and worry? And what about the guys – can you keep them safe? What about you… are you sure you’ll see him coming? What if he hurts you?”“Beth.” He took a deep breath. “Dallas has a safe house. We can hide you –”“What, hide all of us? And for how long? Nobody goes to work for six months?”Jim ran his hand over his forehead, feeling hot all of a sudden. He drank some more beer, thinking that might help. “We can figure this out. The cops will put his picture out on the wire, and every cop in the state will be looking for him…”“Sure,” she said. “And how many p
Cordelia burst into Dallas’ office without knocking. He and Sully looked up at her, shocked at her totally out-of-character behavior. Then they saw her face and both men got to their feet.“What?” Dallas said. “Is it your son?”“No,” she said. “It’s Michael Ferguson.”“What about him?”“He’s on the run.”“What the actual fuck?” Sully demanded.“He was released on bail late yesterday morning,” she said. “Ellen had no idea, but she found out this morning. She sent out a patrol car to Ferguson’s place to check on him, and he’s gone.”The men stared at her.“Gone?” Dallas’ voice was a snarl. “Gone where?”“Nobody knows.” Cordelia twisted her fingers. “Any chance he’ll come here?”“Why would he come here?” Sully asked.“Why wouldn't he?” she responded. “Look, he followed Beth as far as the previous state she was in, and we know he was still looking. Her name came up again a few days ago, when those local women started coming forward and reporting him for rape and assault. Right?”“Yeah,” D
Emma gripped the edge of the sink as a wave of dizziness washed over her. She blinked at herself in the mirror, feeling breathless and worried.OK, calm down. It’s just a dizzy spell. Totally normal; everyone gets them. It doesn’t mean anything. Right?But her mind was busy now, working and thinking, weighing and evaluating, and it was coming up with some things that she didn’t like very much at all. For example, for the past three days, she’d been totally wiped out by two o’clock in the afternoon. She’d chalked the fatigue up to a few poor nights’ sleep… but what about fatigue combined with whole-body weakness, which she’d felt just the day before? Throw in this overwhelming dizziness, and she was starting to see an emerging picture.Emma forced herself to meet her own frightened eyes in the mirror. She had to ask Dean to take her to the hospital. She had just been in for a check-up with Doctor Fife two weeks before and everything had been fine, so she’d go back and do a follow-up. N







