Chapter 16 Angelo Forgiveness is a beautiful gift. I always used to think that I was not worthy of forgiveness; until my father said he forgave me for going out on that fateful night and told me he was thankful to God that I was alive. Being pardoned brings about a feeling of freedom , for the person giving the redemption and the person receiving. I had to learn to forgive myself first before I could accept that I had no control over what happened. I couldn't predict what was going to happen that night . Cleo knows one of my secrets. I have already told her that I love her and I mean it from the depth of my soul. Making love to her lights my body up in ways unimaginable. I feel alive and she doesn't know that she owns me and has my heart . I don't want to cause her any hurt or put her through any heart ache or heartbreak. I'd rather hurt than see her cry. I know I have to tell her about what I did in the past. She will know I just need time. Before I went to mass I stopped by the
Chapter 17 Cleo I have had the most "eventful" day . First of all I applied for a position which I didn't get and ended up being my new boyfriend's best friend's personal assistant. As if that wasn't enough; I got physically and verbally attacked by Angelo's ex girlfriend Sophia... Who happens to be in the same clique as Nikki, Nina, Ruth and Rachel who I suspect is behind me not getting the PR gig. Call it a hunch and I'm not assuming. I overheard Sophia saying Rachel its done. Paul apparently likes me so he made a decision and no one could interfere with . He was the guy who stole my bottle of wine; when Angelo and I went to lunch on Sunday at his parents house, that didn't happen... I'm in love with Angelo however I can't deny that Paul is a sight for sore eyes and he has a big heart he has "Angelo like" personality traits you could swear they were twins or brothers in their past lives. I'm very professional at work so there is no chance of Paul and me ending up like Blue and I
Chapter 18 Angelo On the day I Ant out partying against my mother's wishes; I got involved in an accident that changed my life forever . I didn't know what forgiveness was until my father said he forgave me . On the day I got married to a woman I thought I loved was the day I believed in love , when my son was born was the day I believed in falling in love again and loving with no boundaries . On the day my wife left me for another man was the day I learned how to be a father and a mother to the child I thought was mine... On the day I went out driving in a fit of rage at my ex wife for sleeping with my cousin on the day I did my last job for people I till this day don't know,was the day I saved a woman who is now my girlfriend. However here's the catch... I didn't know that I would end up crossing paths with her again, and in the process fall in love . At the back end of finding out my kid wasn't mine and my cousin was his biological father I was afraid of losing the one thing tha
Chapter 19 Cleo I'm a morning person. I get things done quicker in the morning, more active in the morning and twice as sharp in the morning. When I worked for Massa by twelve in the afternoon I was done with everything, all I needed to do was to plan ahead for the next day and make sure Ruth was fed and she also had a spar appointment scheduled. I don't miss cleaning up after Ruth , what I do miss is the communications department because I practically ran it and the numbers don't lie . It sucks that I didn't get the PR gig, but I really do need the job Paul gave me. I am able to keep things strictly professional and he's like a brother. Angelo worries me sometimes . I'm in love with him however I still feel he would be happier if I was working for him instead of Paul. I love being Blue's girl but he has to allow me to have my independence and trust me. I would never cheat on him . I certainly don't have feelings for Paul, Angelo speaks to every part of me bright dark and in between.
Chapter 20AngeloI've been in love before; but never have I fallen so fast and so hard. Never has it felt so right, and never have I had someone who can hear and speak to my heart the way Cleo does. She gets me , she sometimes understands me and she is not the cheating type. She's the run away from rejection type she can't take it. Even though she acts all tough, she can't hide it from me . Last night was amazing she had me speaking Italian at one point , then English, Spanish ,and some other language I myself don't understand.I need to tell her that I'm half Italian and half south African . I woke up this morning to find her gone. The first person I called was Paul and then when I called her , she was in the house. I ran to where she was , she told me how she felt,I was going to tell her but what she was saying was what I wanted to say . She walked out and looked like she was on a mission when she came back ."Cleo what are you doing?
Chapter 21CleoI love surprises. Unexpected ones bring out the kid in me, and general surprises get my heart racing. Angelo really knows how to keep me guessing . I never know how to react with him and I'm impulsive . Just a couple of minuets ago I was ready to call a taxi and go home; because I had opened up to Angelo and he was quiet. When he told me what I said was what he was also feeling I breathed a sigh of relief. He has a look about him when he is hiding something, he acts all shy too and wears a grin that is funny when he doesn't want to say anything.Making love with him last night was different from what I experienced last weekend. We both trust each other and when he took me raw the other morning at my apartment all fours I was surprised . He kept going and I loved every moment. Last night he did that again and he is very skilled in more ways than one. I wasn't as sore as I felt an hour and a half ago... I'm also a bit if
Chapter 22AngeloI've finally found someone who understands my kind of crazy . It took me long enough but this feels right . I want a love that lasts and she is it. Cleo is good for me in more ways than one. She doesn't see that but I do and I love her so much .Once breakfast was done and we all ate ; Nicolai and Jane went to work while I stayed home with Cleo . She had told me that;she was feeling tired and needed her rest.She barely touched her breakfast and I made sure that I didn't make any bacon for her; even though I like it.She only ate cereal and yoghurt. I've noticed three things about Bella. When she's happy she eats properly, when she's stressed she doesn't touch a thing concerning food, and on normal days depending on her mood she'll eat properly... When she's quiet I worry .That was two and a half months ago. On the week Paul booked her off; we drove to Richards Bay and spent time together at a luxury B&B all on me.
Chapter 23CleoThe past two and a half months have been both a dream and a nightmare. I fell in love with an amazing guy who gets me in so many ways . Angelo has been a dream ;up until recently when he was not behaving let alone acting like we were in a relationship.I understood that he had been busy, and I was too reluctant to tell him what had been going on at because he's being treating me like I did something wrong and not giving me emotional attention is his way of punishing me for something I don't know anything about. He knows that I'm sensitive and I hurt easily. He's being coming home ... Well to his penthouse very late and he leaves early. I can't help but worry because he doesn't even touch me or at least talk to me properly.I left his penthouse on Monday morning before he got up. I had come to a point where I was done. The only way to protect my heart and get over the hurt I felt was to walk away from the person wh