"There you go. You wanna do it. Obviously, he does since he offered you whatever amount of money for your company."
"My company." I roll my eyes. "Now, that really sounds like I'm a lady of the night."
She gasps. "This could all be like Pretty Woman. You're both going to fall in love with each other."
"Love is the last thing on my mind right now, Laury."
"You and me both. Okay, back to this offer. Like I said, you both want to do this. And I mean, we are talking about sex, right?"
I nod, still not quite able to say the word. To say what I would be doing for the money.
"I say you take his money and get everything you can out of it. Have mind blowing sex. Let that man bend you every which way."
"I get to pick the hotel."
She slaps my arm. "If you don't tell him to take you to the best hotel you've ever seen in your life."
I laugh, some of the tension releasing, knowing I'm not the only person who would even consider something this crazy.
I take a deep breath. "He gave me his card, told me to text him by tonight if I accept his offer."
"Oh, so not hypothetical. Shocker." She smiles. "What does he want exactly?"
"Every Saturday, for three months."
"And you haven't texted him yet because?"
"Come on, Laury. You can admit this sounds crazy as hell."
"Hell yeah, it does, but it's also what you need right now. So take it, and don't you dare feel a bit of shame or guilt for it. Like I said, enjoy it. The money, him, the hotels. Enjoy it all. Quit this fucking job, fuck that man's brains out, and make sure everyone in the rooms around yours knows you are having a hell of a time."
I throw my head back with laughter. "That's an interesting way to put it."
"Seriously. Way I see it, this is your chance to do whatever you want to in those hotel rooms too. Well, unless he ties you up or something."
I groan. "Definitely not helping, Laury."
"Hey, don't knock it till you try it. But, assuming you can do what you want in there as well, this is the time to let your freak flag fly without worrying about any judgment. You can do whatever with this guy, and at the end of the three months, you'll never see him again. Unless, of course, you guys end up going with my preferred option, and he Pretty Woman's you and sweeps you off your feet at the end of your time together. Either way, it's a win-win for you."
"I swear, only you could make a man offering you $300,000 to sleep with him once a week sound like something out of a romance book."
"Three hundred..." she begins to exclaim.
"Shhh, Laury."
"What the hell are you waiting for?" she loudly whispers. "Text him."
"I still need to think about it some more. I don't really know what I'd be getting myself into if I set foot in a hotel room with him."
She grins. "But God, don't you want to find out?"
"Yeah." I admit.
"Have you told Ka?"
I shake my head. "She'll feel like her illness is forcing me into saying yes."
"Is it?"
"That's a loaded question. Would I even be considering this if it weren't for me needing the money, I have no idea. But of course, the majority of my decision-making process right now is knowing I need that money."
"And the other part?"
"That man is a type of sexy I've never experienced before. And even before he offered money, I was picturing some... hot and heavy things in my mind."
"Yes. That's what I'm talking about." She laughs. "Now text him. I gotta take this order to my table, but I expect to see you with that phone in your hand when I come back."
"Haven't decided yet, " I say at her retreating form.
"Yes, you have!" she shouts back.
I really haven't decided, though. It's so much to consider. No matter how much I need the money, can I really go to a hotel room with Law, basically put myself in his hands, to let him do whatever he likes with me? I don't know. And if I'm being honest, it scares me how much I want to find out.
I'm jolted out of my thoughts about hotel rooms, sex, and money, by a busboy waving his hand in front of my face.
"Hello? Sarah?"
"Sorry." I nervously chuckle at being caught in my own head for the second time tonight. "Yeah?"
"John wants you to get some more napkins out of the stock room," he tells me.
"Oh, okay. Thanks."
Confused as to why John wants me to get the napkins, but figuring he's just being his usual, annoying, jerkish self, I walk past the kitchen, toward the narrow stock room at the end of the hallway. I'm reaching up to the top shelf to get the box of napkins when I hear someone enter the room. A part of me feels like I don't even really need to look down to see who it is. I just know. But, sure enough, when I look over my shoulder, John is there, leaning against the wall, watching me with that creepy smile that makes me want to vomit on his face.
"Such a nice view." He snickers.
Now it makes sense why John had me come get the napkins instead of the busboy he told to tell me. I sigh as I get the box and turn around.
"Yeah, the stock room is quite the sight, isn't it? Excuse me."
He doesn't move an inch. And there's no way I'm sliding past him, rubbing any part of me against any part of him. No. So, we stand there, staring at each other, only the look in his eyes makes my stomach turn. And in that moment, my decision is made. I don't have to deal with this shit. I don't have to deal with John, not for a second longer.
"I quit," I state.
"What did you say?"
"I quit. Get out of my way so I can leave here for the last time."
He scoffs "You can't quit. How are you gonna take care of your half-dead sister?"
I drop the napkin box to the floor and bring my knee up into his balls as hard as I can. He groans before dropping to the floor.
"Don't you ever talk about my sister, you fucking asshole." I kick him in the stomach, loving the cough that leaves him. "And that's for being a fucking creep."
"You bitch." He spits as I step over him. "Don't you ever show your face here again."
"Can't fire me when I just quit!" I yell while walking down the hallway.
Everyone in the kitchen is watching me as I pass through it. People in the dining room are looking around wide-eyed as well, making me wonder how much they could hear out here. I find Laury in the crowd, mouth 'call me,' then leave. I don't go far, though.
Hands shaking, both from the adrenaline rushing through me and from what I'm about to do, I get my phone and the card out of my back pocket. I unlock my phone and press the button to create a new text message. Typing in the number, unexpected excitement fills me. Am I really doing this? Am I really about to agree to Law's offer? I type the message and hurry to press send before I lose my nerve.
Me:The Lincoln. Acct number: 8674057900 HNB Bank.
"Hey, are you okay?" I hear Laury ask behind me.
I turn around as I say, "Yeah. Very much unemployed now, though."
"Oh, we all heard. And I saw John holding his pea-sized balls as he limped to his office." She chuckles. "Good for you. I wish I was in a position to do that."
"I don't even know if I'm in a position to do it." At her furrowed brows, I continue," I texted him. I haven't gotten a response yet."
"You will. Don't worry. I gotta get back, but I'll call you when I get off."
"Thank for checking on me."
"Of course."
A quick hug and I watch her walk back into the diner before looking at my black screen. Adrenaline waning, panic begins to set in. What if everything Law said in the elevator was just some cruel joke, and there's no money, no arrangement, and I just quit my job, the only income I have right now? What if I get no response because he's no longer interested, or I waited too long? What the hell would I do? Going back in there to beg for my job back isn't an option at all. Just as I close my eyes, trying to push away all the thoughts invading my mind, my phone vibrates in my hand. I hurry to open the message.
Unknown:Room 636. 9pm. Don't be late.
Oh. My. God. Oh my God. This is really happening. He's booked a room. Holy shit. I'm going to meet him tomorrow. I'll be in a room, doing whatever he wants tomorrow.
A moment later, my phone vibrates again. I look at it, expecting to see another text from Law, but instead I see a deposit alert from my banking app. How the hell could I have forgotten to check that immediately after the text from him? It’s the reason I'm even doing all of this. Or, I can admit it's most of the reason after my talk with Laury. Because yeah, another, small part of me, the part right between my thighs, wants to explore what doing whatever he wants feels like.
I open the app and my eyes damn near pop out of my head when I see a deposit for $30,000 pending. It’s the amount he told mehe'd put in my account, but actually seeing it there, waiting to be spent to solve so many problems, has my hand going to my mouth, muffling the small sound of disbelief that comes from it.
Then I'm whooping, jumping up and down, probably looking like a real lunatic to anyone walking down the street. But I don't care. I turn around and put my middle finger up toward the diner, even though John can't see me. I get into my car and sit there for a moment, letting the situation really sink in. I've texted him. The room is booked. $30,000 is sitting in my account. This is really happening. Even knowing all of this, I still can't believe it. Maybe it won't truly feel real until I'm in the room, looking at Law, those gray eyes staring back at me, waiting for me to yield to his every demand.
After a few minutes, and saving Law's name in my contacts, I finally start the car and begin the ride home. I look at my phone every few minutes, wondering if I'll get another text from him, with more instructions, more commands, but by the time I reach my house, I accept that just those few words he sent me will be all I'm getting from him tonight.
But tomorrow... At this same time tomorrow, I'll be in a room at The Lincoln, face to face with Law, his hands on me, his mouth on me, him inside of me. I don't really know a single thing that will happen in that hotel room tomorrow, but my mind supplies me with plenty of possibilities. Us in various stages of undress, in different positions, my mouth open in a silent scream of pleasure I can only hope for at this point.
So many unknowns, but one thing is sure. In less than twenty-four hours, I'll know if I made the best or worst decision of my life.
"I think you chose to lie to him about how you feel and are lying to yourself that you'll be okay without him," Laury tells me."Can't you ever just let a girl delude herself, Laury?""A friend would never." But she says it with a smile.I look down at Shawn, because it seems easier to look at him than at the truth staring back at me in Laury and Sarah's faces. The truth that I should have been honest with him. That I should have told him how I felt and asked him if there was anything in his heart for me, or offered him an opportunity to give me his truth and say that he wasn't interested in that with me. I should have given him a chance. A chance. But now, it's too late."I love him," I say softly, if only because I feel like I need to say it to someone. I could only ever say it to Jackson while he slept. I need to tell someone awake. But even as I repeat the words, I still don't look at Sarah and Laury. I can't. "I love him. I love him. And I'll never have him.""Oh, don't cry, or I
Something he used to make a meal for me back when he still looked at me with warmth in his eyes. I'm sure I won't find that warmth there if I see him now.I grab a bagel from the counter and don't even bother to toast it, just keep it clenched between my teeth as I head for my shoes. Then I'm looking back at my house. It's been filled with the last of Jackson's presence these past few days. Both consoling me and haunting me. Leaving here today feels like I'm losing all of that the moment I set foot outside. But I need to let it go. Let him go. So I step outside and shut the door behind me.I blast music the entire way to Sarah's house to keep myself from thinking... much. But once I'm in the house, hugging Sarah and Laury, getting to hold Shawn again, my thoughts aren't so troublesome anymore. Or at least, I thought they weren't bothering me as much until Laury asks if I'm okay for the third time."Yeah." I smile at her. "I'm feeling much better."But her eyebrows only furrow, and she
He tosses my phone to the bed as if it's offended him, scorched him, and runs his fingers through his hair."So what the fuck was everything we just did?" He looks everywhere but at me as he speaks. "A mistake? Just something you gave into?" He stops, going so still that I don't dare to breathe in the silence that suddenly fills the room. Then he turns, eyes narrowing, but I can see the suspicion in them clearly. "Was this goodbye sex? Was that what that look in your eyes was about? You doing something you felt you had to do one more time?""No!" I exclaim. "I wanted that. I wanted every single thing that happened.""So what the fuck is the problem? Because you're telling me you wanted it, still want what we do, but your text is saying we can't do it anymore.""This just isn't... working for me anymore," I pathetically lie."You mean, I'm not working for you."Why does he look... hurt?"I never said that," I say low."You don't have to. You clearly haven't lost your desire for what we
God, what kind of person am I that that image turns me on. Makes me want to push him just to see if he'll actually do it. He will. I know he will. And that's a part of what turns me on most. That he can hurt me and please me at the same time."What are you waiting for?" he asks as he drops back down to the pillows, hands going back to my hips, flexing there, urging me on.Swallowing, I rise up to reach between our bodies. When my hand slides over his pubic area, I can feel my wetness there, all over him, warm, slick. It's on his cock too and coats my hand as I wrap it around him. I position him at my opening and begin to lower.His eyes become half-lidded as I slide down on him. That stretch that I love so much makes me hiss, giving me sparks of pain until I'm seated on him. We've never done this before, me on top, looking down at him. Doesn't this mean I have the power now? Me controlling him for once? As if he can hear my thoughts, his eyes narrow at me, his nostrils flare, and his
"Yeah, a tease and a whore. Look at you.""Fuck you," I shout in his face.He stops sliding into me but crashes his mouth down on mine. His kiss takes my breath away, makes my hands move from his shoulders, inching toward the back of his head, wanting to hold him to me so his tongue can't stop meeting mine, so I don't losethe feeling of his lips. But they still because no, this is the last time. I need to make it everything we could ever be, everything I will never be able to find with someone else. So, I stop kissing him back, and bite down on his tongue. He hisses as he tears his mouth away. The red of his blood is on the crease of his lips as he looks down at me in surprise. And lust is there, always lust, because it's clear he liked that as much as I did, that he likes the taste of blood in his mouth as much as I do."Such a pretty mouth should not do such dirty things," he snaps. "But if you want your mouth to be dirty, I'll make it fucking filthy."He pulls out of my pussy, leav
A shiver races down my spine, and Jackson’s smirk tells me he doesn't miss it. Heat rushes through me, all seeming to settle at my bare pussy, making me all too aware of just how ready I am for him to take me. I lick my lips at just the thought of any part of him between my thighs, and his eyes track my tongue's movement. Then, in an instant, his face changes, from smiling to stern, and I know playful Jackson is gone. In his place is the man who makes me give him control over every inch of me, whether I want to or not.He shoots forward and before my gasp has even fully left my lips, his mouth is there, stealing the sound from me while his hands push against my shoulders. My back painfully collides with the dresser, it's handles digging into my skin, but I can't focus on that when his tongue is demanding entry into my mouth, intruding past my lips so I have no choice but to submit to our kiss and open for him. But, as good as it feels, my guilt is present, telling me that I shouldn't