Fourteen

Making your mind up about something can be really hard. I've always felt this way with Baxter. A lot might call me stupid for sticking with him even after he hit me. At the time I thought I deserved it. I cheated. Well, my boss kissed me but it still counts. Ever since then I have felt obligated. I have just had to make him happy all the time. I did everything he wanted. I even blocked some really good friends of mine including Asher simply because he felt threatened by them. I thought all these were just his way of telling me how much the kiss had hurt and affected him. It took me a while to realize that his actions were just him being himself. Nobody should ever feel the way I felt when we were dating. I know I have broken things up with him before and still got back with him but this time I’ve done some soul searching and I finally know I am worth a lot more. I felt so safe with him. There were times in our relationship that I could really talk to him about my feelings and