Fake Dating My Ex’s CEO

~ Lena POV ~

I bought him tiramisu.

That was the part I kept coming back to, sitting on the cold concrete bench outside my own apartment building at eleven-fifteen on a Tuesday night with a duffel bag between my feet and the smell of his cologne still clinging to my jacket.

I had taken my lunch break to walk four blocks to that overpriced Italian place on Mercer Street, the one with the tiny handwritten menu and the line out the door, because Ryan once mentioned the tiramisu there was the best he had ever tasted. I carried it home in a little white box tied with string. I climbed the stairs instead of taking the elevator so the jostling wouldn’t ruin it.

I set it on the kitchen counter.

And then I heard them.

Not loud. That was somehow the worst part. It wasn’t a crash or a shout or something that would have given me half a second to prepare. It was just a sound, low and unmistakable, coming from behind our bedroom door, and my brain decoded it before the rest of me caught up. My hand was still on the tiramisu box. The string was still looped around my finger.

I didn’t kick the door open. I didn’t scream. I simply turned the handle and pushed, the way you push open any door in a place you live, a place you pay half the rent on, a place where you keep your books and your spare charger and the mug with the chipped handle you can never throw away.

She was from his office.

I knew her face. I had met her at the company holiday party back in December, stood next to her at the drinks table while she laughed too loudly at something Ryan said and touched his arm like it was a habit. I had noticed and told myself I was being paranoid. I had smiled at her and introduced myself and handed her a glass of wine.

Ryan sat up so fast he knocked the lamp off the nightstand.

I watched the lamp fall. I watched it hit the floor and not break, just roll a little, the bulb flickering once. I thought, absurdly, good, because it was mine, I had bought it at the flea market on Canal Street two years ago and I liked it.

Then I looked at Ryan.

He said my name. “Lena.” Like the word alone was supposed to do something. Like it was an explanation or an apology or a shield.

I didn’t answer him.

I didn’t cry. I want to say that was strength, but it wasn’t. It was something further down than strength, something closer to the body’s emergency response when the mind goes very, very quiet. I stood there for three full seconds and I felt absolutely nothing, which is its own kind of damage.

Then I went to the closet and I packed a bag.

I didn’t take everything. I took what I needed for a week, moving the way you move when you’re trying not to let your hands shake, pulling jeans off hangers and rolling them neat the way my mother taught me, tucking my toiletries into the side pocket. Ryan stood in the doorway the whole time, sheet wrapped around his waist, saying my name over and over in different tones like he was trying to find the frequency that would make me react.

She had the decency to be gone by the time I zipped the bag.

I walked past him. I picked up my keys and my phone and I left the tiramisu on the counter because I had not bought it for myself. I closed the front door quietly. I walked down the stairs and through the lobby and out onto the street and I sat down on the bench by the building entrance and I stared at the pavement between my feet.

The city kept moving. A cab passed. Someone’s music leaked out of a window above me, something with bass that I felt in my chest more than heard. A woman walked by walking a small dog, and the dog looked at me with the frank, unsentimental gaze of an animal who knows when a person is not okay.

I don’t know how long I sat there before my phone rang.

Maya.

I almost didn’t answer. But it was Maya, and she had a way of knowing, even from across the city, and if I didn’t pick up she would either show up in person or worry herself sick, and I couldn’t be responsible for both my own destruction and hers on the same night.

“Hey,” I said.

“Why does your voice sound like that?”

I looked at the pavement. A flattened coffee cup. A candy wrapper. The ordinary debris of a city that didn’t care what had just happened in apartment 4C. “Ryan was with someone. When I got home.”

Silence. Then, soft and precise: “Oh, Lena.”

“I packed a bag.”

“Come here.”

“I’m okay.”

“Lena.”

“I’m sitting outside. I just needed a minute.” I pressed my free hand flat against the cold concrete of the bench. The cold helped. Something real to push against. “I should have known. That’s the thing. There were signs and I told myself I was being that kind of woman, the suspicious kind, the difficult kind. I talked myself out of every instinct I had.”

“Don’t do that.”

“What?”

“Make this about what you missed. You didn’t do anything wrong.” Her voice was careful and furious at the same time, the particular tone she reserved for situations that required her to be the steady one when what she actually wanted was to be incandescent on my behalf.

I knew, even sitting there on that bench, that she was right. I also knew, with the specific knowledge that bypasses logic and lives somewhere in the ribcage, that right and okay were very different things, and I was not even close to the second one.

“He said it was the first time,” I said.

“Did you believe him?”

I thought about the holiday party. The way she touched his arm. The times he came home late with explanations that were technically plausible and somehow never quite landed. The small space in our apartment that had been growing between us for months, a space I kept trying to close by buying tiramisu and planning nice dinners and trying harder.

“No,” I said.

Maya was quiet for a moment. “Come stay with me.”

“I will. Not tonight. Tonight I just need to sit here for a little while.”

She let me. That was the thing about Maya. She knew when to push and when to simply stay on the line, and she stayed on the line until my breathing evened out and the city noise around me stopped feeling like an intrusion and started feeling like what it was: neutral. Indifferent. Still moving, with or without me.

“He doesn’t deserve whatever you’re about to spend on him,” she said finally.

“I know.”

“Then stop giving it to him.”

I looked up at the building. On the fourth floor, the window lit from inside. Ryan was probably still standing in the doorway, or maybe he’d cleaned up, maybe he’d called someone, maybe he was already making it manageable in the way he made everything manageable, smoothing it down and reframing it and finding the angle that made him least responsible.

Two years. I had given him two years.

“Okay,” I said.

“Okay what?”

“Okay.” I picked up my bag. Stood up. My knees were cold and a little stiff. “I’m getting out of here.”

She exhaled. I heard the relief in it, and under the relief, something older and sadder that she wouldn’t say out loud because saying it would mean admitting this wasn’t the first time Ryan had made me feel small. It wasn’t. It was the first time I’d caught him. But it wasn’t the first time I’d sat somewhere feeling like I’d shrunk to fit a space that was too tight for me, except I’d always blamed myself for not fitting right.

I walked to the corner. The city opened up around me, loud and lit and entirely uninterested.

My phone buzzed.

Ryan.

I sent it to voicemail without looking at the message preview, because if I read his words right now I would either go back upstairs or say something I needed to save for later. And I was going to need every sharp thing I had.

Three days later, my mother called to tell me she had arranged a blind date.

I said yes before she finished the sentence, because it was easier than explaining and because, honestly, I thought it might help. One dinner. One stranger. Something to think about that wasn’t the specific sight of a lamp falling and not breaking in a room I was never going back to.

I told myself it couldn’t possibly make things worse.

I was so completely wrong.

The restaurant was candlelit and warm, and when the host led me to the table, I was already composing the polite excuses I would make at nine o’clock so I could be home by nine-thirty and in bed by ten. I was already writing off the evening.

And then I saw him.

The man at the table was not the safe, forgettable stranger my mother had described. He was not a kind accountant or a friendly friend-of-a-friend. He was Adrian Cole, the billionaire CEO of Cole Industries, the man whose name Ryan had been dropping for two years with the particular cocktail of resentment and awe that men reserve for bosses they fear and cannot outmaneuver.

He looked up from his phone.

His eyes met mine.

And behind him, through the restaurant’s glass front, I saw a familiar group of people from Cole Industries walking past outside, stopping, pointing, beginning to come through the door.

Ryan was with them.

He was already looking straight at me.