The day after the wedding in our house he revealed many things to me.
The first thing is that my head doesn’t hurt next to Samantha. The other thing is that it is my brother in the middle of the night started the car and left his wife who knows where and just in the morning came in the same suit.
And the third thing that really interested me was that she was still afraid of me.
A mixture of fear and fascination. Yes, that’s what I see on her whenever he looked at me. I feel like she’s struggling with herself not looking at me, but here it fails. I seem to interest her as much as she interests me. I work what I haven't done in years, I approach a woman so close, too close because she is petrified so I even take her hand. A woman attracts me and
heals, I'm sure. She's running away from me, she's getting lost, she's confused, and I can't
resist not talking to her in such an ambiguous way.
Bro showed up, then the old ones and they prevented me from confusing her and so on. Those warm almond-shaped eyes just widen and stare at me. Transparent is complete while lying to look forward to living and working with her. We'll just do that see. Not that he'll be looking forward to it, but he won't be able to wait to see me. And only then all that will follow.
I walk away from her after touching her chin with my finger, after her sweet breath tickled my lips, so much so that I could barely contain myself not to take her harder, I draw her closer. My brother is just coming out of his room so I stop him.
"Can I have your car, do I need to go buy something?"
"Of course, here are the keys. When you get back, I'm going to town later with Samantha and Clark? ”
"In an hour."
"You could be with us if you had nothing to do?"
"No, I have something planned."
I say goodbye to him so I go to the garage, take my brother Carrera and I can’t wait to drive. This calms me down, driving and opening windows.
I arrive at the first painting equipment store and load the cart all it takes to transfer this from my head to the canvas. At the end of one line, some woman stabs at me. I'm pissed at the same time while my body is recovering from unwanted contact.
"Are you fucking looking where you're going?" I yelled at her, and she looked at me without any shame and scolded me.
"I didn't kill you, you lunatic, I barely touched you!"
"If you weren't staring at that cell phone, you'd see where you were going!" They're not really your parents brought up properly. "
"Fuck you lunatic, what do you know about my parents?"
in the face so I just look at her grimly and she recoils.
"Fucking lunatic!" She shouts as her legs carry her as far away from me as possible.
You are an idiot!
I go to the cash register and pay for everything, I carry you back to the car. Drive to at home calms me down a bit again so I forget about that contact. At the door at home, I meet Clark, my brother's godfather and a friend from school days. I nod
I'll take my things to his room. I have all this in Seattle, but I want to work now.
I leave things on the bed and go downstairs just to get her a little I see, nothing else. Just one look and I feel like I'm going to eat a little, that I will be a little better right away. She is leaning against the doorway in the kitchen, with her back turned and talking to Melody, our hostess.
"I can buy everything Melody, I'll be there for you now. I'm not just going to sit and wait for you to serve us, especially on weekends when I have nothing to do.
Please let me help you. I promise I won't take it from your job. And now you don’t just have Dale and Victor to worry about. From today we are and Blake and I are here. ”He says my name again, creating an indescribable desire to I hear that many more times. Melody sees me behind Samantha's back and I feel like it cheers up, stepping towards me.
"My little one! Come!"
She offers me her hand even though I saw that she first took off to hug me and then changed her mind at the last minute.
"Hi Melody, I can still see you with us and I'm very glad of that."
"And to me, my boy, you are my second family. So you're coming home? ”
"That. I'm coming home. ”It's as if he wants to say something else, but he gives up again
so offer me a cake.
"I know you like strawberries, so here, my dear, I prepared them for you because I am she knew you were coming. "
"Thank you, Melody, as always, you're the best." Samantha is still standing in the doorway, watching and listening to what I was saying to Melody. Samantha's black hair today is tied in a high tail and reveals her beautiful face.
"Melody, we're going now, and you make a list, okay?" See you tomorrow."
She turned suddenly to Melody and turned to leave, but I stopped her while I follow her into the room.
"Samantha?" I call to her as I walk behind her, and she turns abruptly and stopped a few inches from me. She is unaware that her teeth are biting her lower lip and to squeeze his hands because he looks at me completely lost.
"Won't you greet me?" He blinked in surprise a couple of times and moved on to answer quietly.
"See you, Blake." He turned on his heel and ran outside as I stood and I look for that long black hair and a little ass in tight pants.
I think one corner of my lips vibrates to lift into a smile. Fuck me all, the little one will seem to make me smile!
In the room, I throw myself into the preparation of the canvas, take the utensils and move on.
I close my eyes to just once again clear my mind of everything that bothers me in visualizing what doesn’t come out of my head all day.
While Callum Scott sings his song “Dancing On My Own,” I’m finally done. I stare once more pleased with what I see, which is my imagination created, having the best inspiration for my tormented soul. I look per hour so I find that I have been drawing in a trance for almost three hours. I go down to the kitchen to eat something quickly, I throw myself on the sofa and I write an e-mail to colleagues from my firm that I plan to resign. Otherwise, on weekends, I don’t reach for my cell phone for work, but now I feel the need to get everything done as quickly as possible. What an hour behind, while almost napping on on the sofa, Samantha enters the room by herself. She paused for a moment when she saw me, but was encouraged so I see that he will sit next to me and make himself comfortable. "What are you looking at?" He addressed me quite bravely and boldly because he had never done so before the first conversation did not begin. "You." "I mean, on TV."
"Will you mistakenly enter the wrong room at night, the wrong bed, the wrong one?"brother? ”Blake's words echo through my brain even half an hour after I ran away from him to my room.It shocks me over and over again and every time it gets more and more of an enigma to me. Not I know a man who turned down Rose, and as far as I can see, she won't easy to reconcile.I pray to God that he only tempts me because he doubts my marriage. Not I believe he is a sort of people with no respect for family, in order to be dared to seduce his brother's wife. Maybe his jokes are just like that weird and weird? No, something else doesn't fit. What to do, no I know no one like him. I don't know him at all, and what do I do now worry, I have no one to tell. Rose is the only friend I have, aVictor's only friend. What the hell is wrong with me looking at my door all the time? Well, I don't think so come in the middle of the night? The thoughts that occupy me
Everyone wants to see the new boss Blake currently standing on legs, slightly apart, arms close to the body, while gaze crosses over of his subjects. I look here and there at his profile. I'll have to watch it every day and I know it won’t be easy for me. Victor finished his presentation on profits and contracted jobsfirms in this quarter, so the father-in-law takes the floor and appears before employees."Dear colleagues, see that the day has come for me to leave, and yes young hopes and strengths come. In my place comes my son Blake, Victor will go to Procurement and Samantha to the Administration. I trust them completely and I have no doubt you will have good cooperation with them. Thank you all for your dedicated work in our company. "Applause filled the hall, after which Blake stepped forward and began his speech, measured and serious."Thank you all once again for the welcome. From tomorrow we start by getting to know each other. I believe m
Need.That’s how I feel about Samantha. They need to be close to me. Not he has to say anything, he doesn't have to do anything, he doesn't even have to look at me, he doesn't turn to me, just to be next to me. What kind of action it is, I can't say, but it is what I feel and somehow, it doesn’t bother me at all. In fact, it calms me down, it works divinely on me. There has been no woman in the last four years whose closeness I wished. And now one appears and it must be my wife's brother. I don’t control my tongue and actually want to throw the blue one next to it tablet. Fuck, if a woman knew I was drinking that shit, the guarantor would run away from this one house. I don't want her to leave, because I need her to look, I need that confusion, that fascination, almost submissiveness as he looks at me and as he listens to me.I want kisses and touches with her, everything that disgusts me from others which upsets me.I know I can't get that. Un
The night is long for me, insomnia torments me again as I call to mind Samantha's appearance, to calm me down at least a little. All sorts of nonsense to me come to mind, nothing strange, but one thing becomes clearer to me. Touch yes. Sex is not. I would have to stop taking pills for that. And I can't do that to do, I must not expose her to it.What the fuck are you thinking about having sex with your brother's wife, you lunatic? Like she would allow anything! Like you can do it! That voice again.So what, I can at least imagine. It's a sin, but I don't have a ticket anyway for paradise, not even for purgatory.At least I indulge in fantasies, in which she is there next to me and she lets me touch her. Just that, I don't need to feel anything anymore either it just calms me down so easily and lets me fall asleep. In the morning only the three of us go to Victor's car to work, he's old today at the doctor's office. Samantha receives the doorknob to sit behind, s
Thank God he's gone! I breathe easier as soon as Blake steps into the airport and Victor and I. headed home. A man simply kills me with his closeness. Brain off, senses are taken away, tongue-tied, breathing stopped. I feel next to him like a corpse. Okay, I'm lying. From the outside, I may be completely stiff but inside… for God's sake… Is it possible that my insides flicker like a leaf in the wind, that my heart jumps in my throat, that my blood is stronger and that everything in me wants something more from him? But what on earth, what? I argue with myself as we drive home. "Samantha, are you getting any more messages?" Victor interrupts my internal quarrel. "Not. They stopped just after the wedding. Good thing you posted the wedding in newspapers. I mean, I really hope this is the end of torture. " "Me too. We did well. ”He glanced at me briefly and gave me a present with a slight smile. "Yes, Victor. How about you?" "Okay,
Basically, the conclusion of the evening is that I’m not normal because I’m barely waiting for him to leave and now that he's gone, I'm bored. Do I miss that weird attention? Or the feeling he awakens in me? Yes, I'm not normal because I don't even know how is called that feeling. I wished a thousand times that my life would be monotonous, just yes the messages of hatred and threats that arrived as anonymous, but still, cease I knew whose they were. And now they have stopped. Fear and looking back on the street is at least stopped, but I remain cautious. Today is the tenth day since Blake left, and father-in-law and Victor have him in memory for breakfast."Blake called last night. He has to complete the notice period because he will otherwise have to pay some money and there is no severance pay. It looks like he was in a hurry at home because he even said he would give up severance pay, but I did it convinced that you should not come because for now, you old man
The first day I got back to Seattle, everything went wrong.The CEO called me because he got my dismissal decision."Blake, I respect you, but you know that according to the contract, you have to work notice period, which in your case is a month and a half. Not one month. With that that we are now halfway through the project on which our budget for next year depends. You have done a great job in these four years and it will be very difficult to find you replacement. Also, your severance pay and bonus depend on respect employment contract, you understand? I can’t have double criteria, even for you, who put the whole department in order. " I understand what he’s telling me, but he doesn’t understand me with everyone his word overwhelms restlessness, madness darkens the brain and I need that one another pill, that sweet, messy packet of black hair and brown eyes. How can I last almost two fucking months without seeing her, no I smell, I don't touch? I fi