The day after the wedding in our house he revealed many things to me.
The first thing is that my head doesn’t hurt next to Samantha. The other thing is that it is my brother in the middle of the night started the car and left his wife who knows where and just in the morning came in the same suit.
And the third thing that really interested me was that she was still afraid of me.
A mixture of fear and fascination. Yes, that’s what I see on her whenever he looked at me. I feel like she’s struggling with herself not looking at me, but here it fails. I seem to interest her as much as she interests me. I work what I haven't done in years, I approach a woman so close, too close because she is petrified so I even take her hand. A woman attracts me and
heals, I'm sure. She's running away from me, she's getting lost, she's confused, and I can't
resist not talking to her in such an ambiguous way.
Bro showed up, then the old ones and they prevented me from confusing her and so on. Those warm almond-shaped eyes just widen and stare at me. Transparent is complete while lying to look forward to living and working with her. We'll just do that see. Not that he'll be looking forward to it, but he won't be able to wait to see me. And only then all that will follow.
I walk away from her after touching her chin with my finger, after her sweet breath tickled my lips, so much so that I could barely contain myself not to take her harder, I draw her closer. My brother is just coming out of his room so I stop him.
"Can I have your car, do I need to go buy something?"
"Of course, here are the keys. When you get back, I'm going to town later with Samantha and Clark? ”
"In an hour."
"You could be with us if you had nothing to do?"
"No, I have something planned."
I say goodbye to him so I go to the garage, take my brother Carrera and I can’t wait to drive. This calms me down, driving and opening windows.
I arrive at the first painting equipment store and load the cart all it takes to transfer this from my head to the canvas. At the end of one line, some woman stabs at me. I'm pissed at the same time while my body is recovering from unwanted contact.
"Are you fucking looking where you're going?" I yelled at her, and she looked at me without any shame and scolded me.
"I didn't kill you, you lunatic, I barely touched you!"
"If you weren't staring at that cell phone, you'd see where you were going!" They're not really your parents brought up properly. "
"Fuck you lunatic, what do you know about my parents?"
in the face so I just look at her grimly and she recoils.
"Fucking lunatic!" She shouts as her legs carry her as far away from me as possible.
You are an idiot!
I go to the cash register and pay for everything, I carry you back to the car. Drive to at home calms me down a bit again so I forget about that contact. At the door at home, I meet Clark, my brother's godfather and a friend from school days. I nod
I'll take my things to his room. I have all this in Seattle, but I want to work now.
I leave things on the bed and go downstairs just to get her a little I see, nothing else. Just one look and I feel like I'm going to eat a little, that I will be a little better right away. She is leaning against the doorway in the kitchen, with her back turned and talking to Melody, our hostess.
"I can buy everything Melody, I'll be there for you now. I'm not just going to sit and wait for you to serve us, especially on weekends when I have nothing to do.
Please let me help you. I promise I won't take it from your job. And now you don’t just have Dale and Victor to worry about. From today we are and Blake and I are here. ”He says my name again, creating an indescribable desire to I hear that many more times. Melody sees me behind Samantha's back and I feel like it cheers up, stepping towards me.
"My little one! Come!"
She offers me her hand even though I saw that she first took off to hug me and then changed her mind at the last minute.
"Hi Melody, I can still see you with us and I'm very glad of that."
"And to me, my boy, you are my second family. So you're coming home? ”
"That. I'm coming home. ”It's as if he wants to say something else, but he gives up again
so offer me a cake.
"I know you like strawberries, so here, my dear, I prepared them for you because I am she knew you were coming. "
"Thank you, Melody, as always, you're the best." Samantha is still standing in the doorway, watching and listening to what I was saying to Melody. Samantha's black hair today is tied in a high tail and reveals her beautiful face.
"Melody, we're going now, and you make a list, okay?" See you tomorrow."
She turned suddenly to Melody and turned to leave, but I stopped her while I follow her into the room.
"Samantha?" I call to her as I walk behind her, and she turns abruptly and stopped a few inches from me. She is unaware that her teeth are biting her lower lip and to squeeze his hands because he looks at me completely lost.
"Won't you greet me?" He blinked in surprise a couple of times and moved on to answer quietly.
"See you, Blake." He turned on his heel and ran outside as I stood and I look for that long black hair and a little ass in tight pants.
I think one corner of my lips vibrates to lift into a smile. Fuck me all, the little one will seem to make me smile!
In the room, I throw myself into the preparation of the canvas, take the utensils and move on.
I close my eyes to just once again clear my mind of everything that bothers me in visualizing what doesn’t come out of my head all day.
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