While Callum Scott sings his song “Dancing On My Own,” I’m finally done.
I stare once more pleased with what I see, which is my imagination created, having the best inspiration for my tormented soul. I look per hour so I find that I have been drawing in a trance for almost three hours. I go down to the kitchen to eat something quickly, I throw myself on the sofa and I write an e-mail to colleagues from my firm that I plan to resign. Otherwise, on weekends, I don’t reach for my cell phone for work, but now I feel the need to get everything done as quickly as possible. What an hour behind, while almost napping on on the sofa, Samantha enters the room by herself. She paused for a moment when she saw me, but was encouraged so I see that he will sit next to me and make himself comfortable.
"What are you looking at?" He addressed me quite bravely and boldly because he had never done so before the first conversation did not begin.
"You."
"I mean, on TV."
"I don't know, I'm not interested in anything on TV." I still stare at her lips while the desire to try it once accumulates in me. Suddenly he gets up and she runs away, and I follow her like the last madman. It's actually my cell phone vibrating that I have to take a pill, but she doesn't know it while I walk behind I stare at her back. I feel her uneasiness because she knows I’m behind her and I follow her in silence. Before he enters his room there is only one more thing
I ask.
"And where is Victor?"
"He stayed with Clark for a drink."
"How did you get home?"
"By taxi."
He murmured softly and locked himself in his room. I am tempting myself, my own strength and courage, as I drive her mad. I don't know why, but this suits me.
Her appearance to my soul and her closeness to my body. I will find out the reasons for these sudden feelings as well as the reasons for this marriage. If I were Victor, I wouldn't get out of her bed. My brother is a jerk.
In the evening he is not there yet, while she is sitting opposite me in the dining room.
The old man seems to be avoiding dinner, he took an apple and went for a walk so we did she and I were alone. I watch him put the fries in his mouth, that's right honey while eating with your fingers without any shame, and only when your thumb holds a little in his mouth and sucks the sauce off him. I know he’s not doing it on purpose, no way to seduce me. More. I may not wait for that moment, but I will still work hard on it. He tries to keep his eyes on everything except on me, but often throws it in my direction, even if he doesn't always look at me in the face.
Someone rings the bell so we both look at each other without a word since no one we expect. I get up from the table and open the door, and hers stands in the doorway godmother, a blonde I refused to dance.
She passes me indifferently while a cloud of heavy remains behind her perfume. Horror.
"Samantha!" The whole ground floor echoes from her voice, so Samantha comes out
in a few seconds to us.
“Hey, Rose! Where are you from? Didn't we agree on tomorrow afternoon? "
"I wanted to see you, to hear how the first wedding night went.
So, is the good girl in bed too, or is the fire hidden? ”Samantha blushed and
he kills a blonde whose name I don't even remember, so he throws a short one
look at me in his shame.
"You don't have to be ashamed of me, sister-in-law, I heard everything last night." Yes, I heard
my brother’s footsteps and started the car’s engine. I sleep poorly at night anyway.
"So fiery, huh?"
"Rose, please. I wouldn't talk about it. "
“You know that in some cultures you have to show the sheet for the family to see that
did the groom marry a virgin? ”
“Rose! I won't beg you anymore! ”Samantha answered her angrily, so she did
he pulls his hand into the living room and whispers something.
"Blake, are you coming?" The blonde turned over her shoulder and winked at me an open call. She’s still trying something, and I intend to join they just want Samantha.
Without a word, I go to them in the living room, but settle down next to them Samantha thought the blonde adjusted so she left me a blank spot next to me. I don’t listen to what the blonde is saying at all because I watch all the time Samantha, how she tries to concentrate and follow the conversation, actually blonde monologue. At one point, the blonde got up to pick up a bar of chocolate from the table, she gave me a look at her cleavage and sat back licking ostensibly innocent. It’s the only time I’ve looked at her and regretted it. How much she didn't get the reaction she wanted, she got up and spoke to me again.
"Blake, will you show me where the toilet is?" Upstairs, right? I would not she wanted to wander into your room. "
Does she really think this is some charming intrusion?
"Upstairs straight to the end. You can't go wrong. To my room, I recommend you do not enter. Otherwise, I won't be as comfortable as yesterday. ”I was very embarrassing yesterday, and that’s what she was looking for, but they could be worse.
She's not right about my harsh answer, she raised an eyebrow and marched upstairs. Samantha looks at the floor and ignores me, so she does turn.
"Samantha, just because she's your friend, I didn't answer her like what else do I know. You better explain to her that I don't care. Because if I do I'll explain, he certainly won't want to visit you again. "
She just nodded, without asking me anything. An obedient girl. I like it. How will do I execute my other orders in the same way? I can't wait to try it.
The blonde comes back so I leave them alone. I go out in the garden for a while old man so we talk business, when Victor shows up with Carrer and with a short greeting he went into the house. Maybe he misses his wife. Blonde soon he leaves, but without saying goodbye, and I move into my room, to light some thriller.
I hear voices in the hallway and the door closing a couple of times so I walk out to see what happens.
Victor is just carrying a pillow and quilt to the guest room.
I raise an eyebrow, looking first at him and then at Samantha carrying his toiletries.
"The first quarrel?" I asked with interest.
"Yes. So who would argue with this sugar? You don't care bro, then snoring, and Samantha has a light sleep so she can’t sleep next to him
Sometimes I'll sleep in the guest room. ”He winked at me and went to the room to avoid my further questions.
So Samantha stands in the doorway and watches me without a word, without blinking, while her face carries an unusual expression. I realize she stared at my torso because I didn’t wear a T-shirt after showering. She seems to like the result of my swimming activities in my younger days because her mouth is mild open, and cheeks flushed.
I approach her as she widens her beautiful eyes so I place my finger on her lower lip I ask, whispering softly into her lips.
"Will you mistakenly enter the wrong room at night, the wrong bed, to the wrong brother? ”
He stepped back, then turned abruptly and fled to his room, slamming the door. Fuck me all, I'm laughing and cheering inside! She will sleep at night alone in her bed, and if she strays into someone's room, the wrong brother I certainly won't be me.
"Will you mistakenly enter the wrong room at night, the wrong bed, the wrong one?"brother? ”Blake's words echo through my brain even half an hour after I ran away from him to my room.It shocks me over and over again and every time it gets more and more of an enigma to me. Not I know a man who turned down Rose, and as far as I can see, she won't easy to reconcile.I pray to God that he only tempts me because he doubts my marriage. Not I believe he is a sort of people with no respect for family, in order to be dared to seduce his brother's wife. Maybe his jokes are just like that weird and weird? No, something else doesn't fit. What to do, no I know no one like him. I don't know him at all, and what do I do now worry, I have no one to tell. Rose is the only friend I have, aVictor's only friend. What the hell is wrong with me looking at my door all the time? Well, I don't think so come in the middle of the night? The thoughts that occupy me
Everyone wants to see the new boss Blake currently standing on legs, slightly apart, arms close to the body, while gaze crosses over of his subjects. I look here and there at his profile. I'll have to watch it every day and I know it won’t be easy for me. Victor finished his presentation on profits and contracted jobsfirms in this quarter, so the father-in-law takes the floor and appears before employees."Dear colleagues, see that the day has come for me to leave, and yes young hopes and strengths come. In my place comes my son Blake, Victor will go to Procurement and Samantha to the Administration. I trust them completely and I have no doubt you will have good cooperation with them. Thank you all for your dedicated work in our company. "Applause filled the hall, after which Blake stepped forward and began his speech, measured and serious."Thank you all once again for the welcome. From tomorrow we start by getting to know each other. I believe m
Need.That’s how I feel about Samantha. They need to be close to me. Not he has to say anything, he doesn't have to do anything, he doesn't even have to look at me, he doesn't turn to me, just to be next to me. What kind of action it is, I can't say, but it is what I feel and somehow, it doesn’t bother me at all. In fact, it calms me down, it works divinely on me. There has been no woman in the last four years whose closeness I wished. And now one appears and it must be my wife's brother. I don’t control my tongue and actually want to throw the blue one next to it tablet. Fuck, if a woman knew I was drinking that shit, the guarantor would run away from this one house. I don't want her to leave, because I need her to look, I need that confusion, that fascination, almost submissiveness as he looks at me and as he listens to me.I want kisses and touches with her, everything that disgusts me from others which upsets me.I know I can't get that. Un
The night is long for me, insomnia torments me again as I call to mind Samantha's appearance, to calm me down at least a little. All sorts of nonsense to me come to mind, nothing strange, but one thing becomes clearer to me. Touch yes. Sex is not. I would have to stop taking pills for that. And I can't do that to do, I must not expose her to it.What the fuck are you thinking about having sex with your brother's wife, you lunatic? Like she would allow anything! Like you can do it! That voice again.So what, I can at least imagine. It's a sin, but I don't have a ticket anyway for paradise, not even for purgatory.At least I indulge in fantasies, in which she is there next to me and she lets me touch her. Just that, I don't need to feel anything anymore either it just calms me down so easily and lets me fall asleep. In the morning only the three of us go to Victor's car to work, he's old today at the doctor's office. Samantha receives the doorknob to sit behind, s
Thank God he's gone! I breathe easier as soon as Blake steps into the airport and Victor and I. headed home. A man simply kills me with his closeness. Brain off, senses are taken away, tongue-tied, breathing stopped. I feel next to him like a corpse. Okay, I'm lying. From the outside, I may be completely stiff but inside… for God's sake… Is it possible that my insides flicker like a leaf in the wind, that my heart jumps in my throat, that my blood is stronger and that everything in me wants something more from him? But what on earth, what? I argue with myself as we drive home. "Samantha, are you getting any more messages?" Victor interrupts my internal quarrel. "Not. They stopped just after the wedding. Good thing you posted the wedding in newspapers. I mean, I really hope this is the end of torture. " "Me too. We did well. ”He glanced at me briefly and gave me a present with a slight smile. "Yes, Victor. How about you?" "Okay,
Basically, the conclusion of the evening is that I’m not normal because I’m barely waiting for him to leave and now that he's gone, I'm bored. Do I miss that weird attention? Or the feeling he awakens in me? Yes, I'm not normal because I don't even know how is called that feeling. I wished a thousand times that my life would be monotonous, just yes the messages of hatred and threats that arrived as anonymous, but still, cease I knew whose they were. And now they have stopped. Fear and looking back on the street is at least stopped, but I remain cautious. Today is the tenth day since Blake left, and father-in-law and Victor have him in memory for breakfast."Blake called last night. He has to complete the notice period because he will otherwise have to pay some money and there is no severance pay. It looks like he was in a hurry at home because he even said he would give up severance pay, but I did it convinced that you should not come because for now, you old man
The first day I got back to Seattle, everything went wrong.The CEO called me because he got my dismissal decision."Blake, I respect you, but you know that according to the contract, you have to work notice period, which in your case is a month and a half. Not one month. With that that we are now halfway through the project on which our budget for next year depends. You have done a great job in these four years and it will be very difficult to find you replacement. Also, your severance pay and bonus depend on respect employment contract, you understand? I can’t have double criteria, even for you, who put the whole department in order. " I understand what he’s telling me, but he doesn’t understand me with everyone his word overwhelms restlessness, madness darkens the brain and I need that one another pill, that sweet, messy packet of black hair and brown eyes. How can I last almost two fucking months without seeing her, no I smell, I don't touch? I fi
We have lunch at a restaurant at a table for four, and I sit next to it her. She changed into a white dress. He looks to me like the most beautiful angel s with that crow's hair, and yet to me it is the greatest temptation that drives me into sin. Samantha apologizes for going to the bathroom to wash her hands, so I apologize and I go after her. When we moved away from my father and brother, I grabbed her by the elbow and make him stop. I step into her face and ask seriously."What were you doing in my room?""How do you know?" I'm not happy that she's afraid of me like this, so I answer her relaxed."You just confirmed it to me." He pursed his lips a little as he looked at me submissively, but nothing answers but looks down at my lips."Don't you dare come when I'm in the room?" Only when I'm gone? ”Her breathing she speeds up as her honey breath burns on my lips, away from hers just a few inches."Dare Samantha, dare. Whatever you're lookin