Need.
That’s how I feel about Samantha. They need to be close to me. Not he has to say anything, he doesn't have to do anything, he doesn't even have to look at me, he doesn't turn to me, just to be next to me. What kind of action it is, I can't say, but it is what I feel and somehow, it doesn’t bother me at all. In fact, it calms me down, it works divinely on me. There has been no woman in the last four years whose closeness I wished. And now one appears and it must be my wife's brother. I don’t control my tongue and actually want to throw the blue one next to it tablet. Fuck, if a woman knew I was drinking that shit, the guarantor would run away from this one house. I don't want her to leave, because I need her to look, I need that confusion, that fascination, almost submissiveness as he looks at me and as he listens to me.
I want kisses and touches with her, everything that disgusts me from others which upsets me.
I know I can't get that. Un
The night is long for me, insomnia torments me again as I call to mind Samantha's appearance, to calm me down at least a little. All sorts of nonsense to me come to mind, nothing strange, but one thing becomes clearer to me. Touch yes. Sex is not. I would have to stop taking pills for that. And I can't do that to do, I must not expose her to it.What the fuck are you thinking about having sex with your brother's wife, you lunatic? Like she would allow anything! Like you can do it! That voice again.So what, I can at least imagine. It's a sin, but I don't have a ticket anyway for paradise, not even for purgatory.At least I indulge in fantasies, in which she is there next to me and she lets me touch her. Just that, I don't need to feel anything anymore either it just calms me down so easily and lets me fall asleep. In the morning only the three of us go to Victor's car to work, he's old today at the doctor's office. Samantha receives the doorknob to sit behind, s
Thank God he's gone! I breathe easier as soon as Blake steps into the airport and Victor and I. headed home. A man simply kills me with his closeness. Brain off, senses are taken away, tongue-tied, breathing stopped. I feel next to him like a corpse. Okay, I'm lying. From the outside, I may be completely stiff but inside… for God's sake… Is it possible that my insides flicker like a leaf in the wind, that my heart jumps in my throat, that my blood is stronger and that everything in me wants something more from him? But what on earth, what? I argue with myself as we drive home. "Samantha, are you getting any more messages?" Victor interrupts my internal quarrel. "Not. They stopped just after the wedding. Good thing you posted the wedding in newspapers. I mean, I really hope this is the end of torture. " "Me too. We did well. ”He glanced at me briefly and gave me a present with a slight smile. "Yes, Victor. How about you?" "Okay,
Basically, the conclusion of the evening is that I’m not normal because I’m barely waiting for him to leave and now that he's gone, I'm bored. Do I miss that weird attention? Or the feeling he awakens in me? Yes, I'm not normal because I don't even know how is called that feeling. I wished a thousand times that my life would be monotonous, just yes the messages of hatred and threats that arrived as anonymous, but still, cease I knew whose they were. And now they have stopped. Fear and looking back on the street is at least stopped, but I remain cautious. Today is the tenth day since Blake left, and father-in-law and Victor have him in memory for breakfast."Blake called last night. He has to complete the notice period because he will otherwise have to pay some money and there is no severance pay. It looks like he was in a hurry at home because he even said he would give up severance pay, but I did it convinced that you should not come because for now, you old man
The first day I got back to Seattle, everything went wrong.The CEO called me because he got my dismissal decision."Blake, I respect you, but you know that according to the contract, you have to work notice period, which in your case is a month and a half. Not one month. With that that we are now halfway through the project on which our budget for next year depends. You have done a great job in these four years and it will be very difficult to find you replacement. Also, your severance pay and bonus depend on respect employment contract, you understand? I can’t have double criteria, even for you, who put the whole department in order. " I understand what he’s telling me, but he doesn’t understand me with everyone his word overwhelms restlessness, madness darkens the brain and I need that one another pill, that sweet, messy packet of black hair and brown eyes. How can I last almost two fucking months without seeing her, no I smell, I don't touch? I fi
We have lunch at a restaurant at a table for four, and I sit next to it her. She changed into a white dress. He looks to me like the most beautiful angel s with that crow's hair, and yet to me it is the greatest temptation that drives me into sin. Samantha apologizes for going to the bathroom to wash her hands, so I apologize and I go after her. When we moved away from my father and brother, I grabbed her by the elbow and make him stop. I step into her face and ask seriously."What were you doing in my room?""How do you know?" I'm not happy that she's afraid of me like this, so I answer her relaxed."You just confirmed it to me." He pursed his lips a little as he looked at me submissively, but nothing answers but looks down at my lips."Don't you dare come when I'm in the room?" Only when I'm gone? ”Her breathing she speeds up as her honey breath burns on my lips, away from hers just a few inches."Dare Samantha, dare. Whatever you're lookin
I indulge, I feel my resistance land, my walls fall because it is there next to me, next to my office, next to my room. There he is alive, dangerous, a dark, handsome, attractive man who sends me signals that mine the brain may recognize poorly, but that is why the body reacts to its instruction.When my eyes see his appearance, all actions, all movements at the same time are subject to his orders.He doesn’t mention my marriage anymore, but he’s definitely working on that from me to get confirmation of this farce. This is the only way I can explain this game he plays with me, and I accept her without the possibility of rejection. Simply is, NO as an answer does not exist when he approaches me when he starts with it with the magic that hypnotizes me. I'll spoil everything, I'm afraid, they'll figure me out because what a normal woman allows her husband's brother to touch her in such a way? I'm glad we're in this set, I can think of these mistakes when he is
I invite Moby to come into the house to give him food so I can get through near Blake, rubbing his torso with his elbow. I hear how over silently he follows me into the kitchen and as I reach over the counter with a bag of food for Moby, Blake paused behind me, laid down his hands on my waist, and turned me towards him. We look into each other's eyes and in one blink we both know what we're going to do now. And as that bag falls out of my hands, he grabs my head closer to himself and he kisses me, first pressing small kisses, and then boldly penetrating his tongue in my mouth. The fucking volcano erupts inside me and makes me absorb it like thirsty man water while my hands fall down my body and he one a kiss causes me to withdraw like never before. He walks away from me as a threat flashes in his eyes, but I still don’t strength to escape, to end this, but with one blink, one with a wave of my hand I let it be known to continue. And he obeys me, clinging to himself, and kisses
She ran out of my room the first time, she ran out of the pool a second time, therefore that he would knock on my door in the middle of the night I did not expect. Did I struggle for hours not to go to her, why? This definitely changes things. I grab my head one more time from learning that she is innocent. Fuck. On the one hand, only now, now would I want more than anything to be mine. But how the fuck! The tablet alarm went off as I walked towards the pool, but I consciously ignored it. For the first time in four years, I skipped the pill. I need that feeling, the feeling she brings me, but completely. While I was kissing her, I was ready, but I couldn’t risk it either to disappoint her. What if I can't satisfy her at a crucial moment? I want it more than anything, I am ready to fulfill our sinful desires, no matter what the consequences. Before that happened, I became aware of her innocence. It is a confirmation of how fake the marriage is, but I feel I will not explain it