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The first time I saw Adrian Carter, he was standing in the middle of the college basketball court with sweat glistening on his forehead and girls practically fighting for his attention.
And somehow, out of everyone there, he noticed me. “You’re blocking the view,” he said with a crooked smile. I stepped aside quickly, embarrassed. “Sorry.” He laughed softly, not in a mocking way, but like he found my awkwardness amusing. “Relax. I’m joking.” That was three months ago. Now, as I stared at my reflection in the mirror of the café restroom, I tried calming the nervous flutter in my stomach. Adrian had invited me to dinner with his family tonight. According to him, it was “nothing serious,” but meeting the parents never felt casual. Especially when your boyfriend looked like every girl’s fantasy. Tall, athletic, messy black hair, sharp jawline, dark eyes that somehow made you feel like the only person in the room. Adrian Carter was the type of guy girls wrote songs about and cried over at two in the morning. And he was mine. My phone buzzed. Adrian: Outside waiting. Don’t make me come in there. A smile spread across my lips before I could stop it. Me: You’re dramatic. Adrian: And you love it. I grabbed my purse and hurried outside. His black car was parked by the sidewalk. The moment he saw me, he stepped out, leaning casually against the driver’s door. “Wow,” he muttered. I rolled my eyes. “You say that every time.” “Because you keep giving me reasons to.” Heat crept into my cheeks. Adrian had this effortless charm that made compliments sound dangerous. As I approached, he reached for my hand naturally, his fingers sliding between mine like they belonged there. “You nervous?” he asked. “A little.” “My family’s harmless.” “Easy for you to say. They already love you.” He opened the passenger door for me. “They’ll love you too.” The drive to his family’s house was filled with music and teasing conversation. Adrian kept one hand on the steering wheel while the other rested lazily on my thigh, occasionally squeezing gently whenever he caught me zoning out. “You’re overthinking,” he said. “I’m trying not to embarrass myself.” “You dating me already embarrassed you enough.” I laughed despite myself. “You’re unbelievable.” “That’s why you’re obsessed with me.” I turned toward the window to hide my smile. Maybe he was right. The Carter residence looked more like a mansion than a home. Warm lights glowed through massive windows, and expensive cars lined the driveway. “Adrian,” I whispered, “your family is rich rich.” He smirked. “Too late to run now.” Before I could respond, the front door opened. A woman with elegant features and kind eyes stepped outside. “There you are!” “That’s my mom,” Adrian said quietly before leading me forward. Dinner went better than expected. His mother was welcoming, his father surprisingly funny, and the atmosphere felt oddly comfortable. They asked me questions about school, my hobbies, and how Adrian and I met. Apparently, embarrassing me was tonight’s entertainment. “She rejected me twice,” Adrian announced proudly. His mother gasped dramatically. “A girl finally humbled you?” “I was being careful,” I defended. “No,” Adrian corrected. “You thought I was a player.” “You look like one.” His father burst into laughter. Adrian leaned closer to me. “But you still fell for me.” Unfortunately, that part was true. After dinner, Adrian offered to show me around the house while his parents cleaned up. “You survived,” he said as we climbed the stairs. “Barely.” “You were perfect.” The sincerity in his voice made my chest tighten. He led me down a quiet hallway before stopping in front of a closed door. “And this,” he said dramatically, “is where greatness happens.” “Your ego is exhausting.” “You love it.” He pushed the door open. At first glance, the room looked exactly like what I expected from Adrian—modern furniture, basketball trophies, dark colors, expensive electronics. But then my eyes landed on someone sitting by the window. I froze. The guy looked exactly like Adrian. Same dark hair. Same sharp features. Same height. Except his expression was colder. Harder. He looked up slowly from the book in his hand, eyes narrowing slightly when they landed on me. For a terrifying second, I genuinely thought Adrian had somehow teleported across the room. Then the boy spoke. “So this is the girlfriend.” My brain stopped functioning. Adrian sighed beside me. “Relax, Ava. You look like you’ve seen a ghost.” “You, you have a twin?” The stranger stood up calmly. “Yes,” he answered before Adrian could. “And judging by your reaction, he forgot to mention me.” I turned sharply toward Adrian. “You never told me you had a twin brother!” Adrian rubbed the back of his neck sheepishly. “I was going to.” “When? On our wedding day?” The twin chuckled softly, though there was little warmth in it. “Trust me,” he said, closing his book, “he forgets important things.” Something about his voice sent an unfamiliar shiver through me. Unlike Adrian’s easy confidence, this twin carried a quiet intensity that made the room feel smaller. Adrian stepped forward quickly. “Ava, this is Ashton. Ashton, my girlfriend Ava.” Ashton. Even their names sounded annoyingly perfect together. Ashton studied me carefully before extending his hand. “Nice to meet you.” The moment our hands touched, something strange happened. Not romance. Not attraction. Just… awareness. Like suddenly noticing a storm cloud hiding behind clear skies. His gaze lingered a second too long before he pulled away. “She’s prettier than your last girlfriend,” Ashton remarked casually. “Please don’t start,” Adrian groaned. “I’m complimenting her.” “You insulted my ex while doing it.” “That’s called efficiency.” I laughed before I could stop myself. Ashton’s eyes flickered toward me briefly, almost surprised. Adrian pointed accusingly between us. “No. Don’t encourage him. He becomes unbearable.” “Too late,” Ashton replied. The tension between the brothers felt natural, practiced. But there was something underneath it too something sharp hidden beneath the jokes. Ashton walked past us toward the door. “Mom asked me to grab more drinks.” Before leaving, he paused beside me. “Good luck dating him,” he said quietly. “You’ll need patience.” Then he disappeared down the hallway. I stared after him for a moment. Weirdly, the room felt emptier after he left. “Told you he was dramatic,” Adrian muttered. I blinked. “Why didn’t you ever mention him?” Adrian shrugged casually, though something about his expression shifted. “We’re not exactly attached at the hip.” “That’s still a major detail to leave out.” “Would it have changed anything?” “No… but I nearly had a heart attack.” He laughed and wrapped an arm around my waist, pulling me closer. “You only need one Carter brother stressing you out.” I rested my head briefly against his chest, listening to the steady rhythm of his heartbeat. Adrian was sweet, charming, attentive everything a girl could want in a boyfriend. Perfect, even. So why couldn’t I stop thinking about the other twin? The one with the colder eyes. The one Adrian never mentioned. The one who looked at me like he already knew something I didn’t.I have always been better at staying quiet than explaining myself. Silence, to me, is not absence. It is control. It is distance. It is the only thing that never asks for permission or understanding. People assume silence means emptiness, but they are wrong. Silence holds everything I refuse to give away.Adrian has always been the opposite of me. Where I withdraw, he expands. Where I observe, he performs. Where I calculate, he feels too loudly. It is not admiration or resentment that defines that difference between us. It is history. Shared blood does not guarantee shared direction. We learned that early, long before either of us understood what we were becoming.I was the first born, though that detail has never mattered much to anyone except the people who like structure. Adrian came minutes later, but he arrived like he belonged to the world more than I did. Even as children, he was easier to notice. Easier to love. Easier to understand. I learned quickly that attention was not so
I didn’t mean to hear it. That was the truth I held onto when everything else started to feel uncertain. Some things you stumble into without intention, and once you hear them, you can’t pretend they were never spoken.It happened late in the afternoon, after classes had ended and most students had already left campus. I was heading toward the administrative building to return a borrowed file for one of my lecturers when I noticed Adrian’s voice ahead of me. He wasn’t alone. There was someone else speaking with him, but I couldn’t see who at first. I slowed down instinctively, not because I was trying to listen, but because something in his tone felt different from the usual ease he carried everywhere. It was lower, more controlled, like he was trying to keep something contained.Then I heard another voice. Ashton.I stopped walking completely.I wasn’t hidden, not really, but I was far enough down the corridor that they hadn’t noticed me yet. Their conversation was just around the co
I kept telling myself I was in control. That nothing about my life had truly changed. That whatever was happening inside my head was just overthinking, nothing more than stress twisting ordinary moments into something heavier than they were meant to be. Adrian made that easier to believe because he was steady in a way that didn’t leave room for doubt. He showed up, he stayed, he loved without hesitation. That kind of certainty should have been enough to silence everything else. But it didn’t.That morning, Adrian picked me up earlier than usual. He had a way of appearing in my life like he was already part of it, like boundaries were only suggestions. He leaned against his car when I stepped outside, watching me approach with that familiar half smile.“You look like you didn’t sleep,” he said as soon as I reached him.“I slept,” I replied.“Badly then.”I didn’t argue. He was right, but I wasn’t ready to admit it out loud.He opened the passenger door for me and waited until I got in
I didn’t plan to go out that night. It started like most evenings were starting to feel lately, quiet, ordinary, and slightly unsettled in a way I couldn’t explain. Adrian had told me earlier that he would be busy with team practice and that I should rest, but rest was becoming a strange concept because every time I closed my eyes, my thoughts refused to cooperate. So when one of my classmates invited me to a small night gathering near campus, I said yes without thinking too much about it. I told myself I just needed distraction, something normal, something that didn’t involve overthinking anything. Adrian texted me before I left, asking where I was going, and I replied honestly. He didn’t like it at first, but he eventually said to be careful and to call him when I got back. That was the thing about Adrian, he trusted me even when he didn’t fully like the situation, and that trust always made me feel like I owed him stability in return. The gathering was held in a rooftop space above
If someone asked me what being with Adrian Carter felt like, I would have said it was easy. Not the kind of easy that comes from lack of effort, but the kind that makes you forget effort is even required. He made things feel smooth, predictable, warm in a way that slowly wrapped itself around your daily life until you stopped questioning it. At least that was what I kept telling myself.That morning, Adrian showed up at my apartment earlier than usual.“I brought breakfast,” he announced proudly, holding up a paper bag like it was a trophy.“You’re acting like you cooked it yourself,” I said, stepping aside so he could come in.“I paid for it myself. That counts.”I shook my head, smiling despite myself.He walked straight into my kitchen like he belonged there, placing everything on the counter and opening drawers without asking.“You’re too comfortable here,” I said.“You’re too slow to stop me.”“That’s not how consent works.”He paused for a second, then grinned. “Noted.”I leaned
It started with something small. The kind of thing you ignore because it doesn’t seem important enough to question.A missed glance. A thought that lingered a little too long. A name that kept appearing in places it shouldn’t.Ashton Carter.I told myself it meant nothing. Just curiosity. Just adjustment. Just the mind reacting to something unfamiliar.But the problem with ignoring something is that it doesn’t disappear. It only learns to stay quieter.Adrian noticed I was off again.He always noticed.We were walking across campus after my morning class when he suddenly stopped in front of me.“You’re doing it again,” he said.I blinked. “Doing what?”“That thing where you’re here but not here.”I forced a small laugh. “I’m literally walking beside you.”“That’s not what I mean.”He stepped closer, tilting his head slightly like he was trying to read something behind my face.“Talk to me,” he said.“I am talking to you.”“You know what I mean, Ava.”The way he said my name made it so







