***ESTHER***Caisey is already sleeping. I don’t know why is she not letting me pick up Natalie’s call. Know it would be about Caden that she would want to know but that might not be the case always.Maybe, she has something else to ask me. I think replying to her missed call with a call will be the best solution but Caisey will be sad if she knows that I broke her promise.To be exact, what else would be there to talk with me? There is nothing else except Caden, right? She is the most diligent student in her whole class and we don’t even belong to the same class. It’s preposterous to think that she has something to ask me regarding the course.They aren’t related at all.Well! Maybe, I should just turn a blind eye just like Caisey had asked me to. In this way, I wouldn’t break the promise too.I turn my phone upside down and try to sleep. But I cannot. Everything that happened the whole day come flashing down my memories.Since, the first moment when I reminisce, it fills me up with
***ESTHER***“I have always loved the back of my mother when she cooked for all of us. I know everyone hates to see the back of any person but it was different in her case. It was the happiest time for me,” he says as he smiles staring the front window of his car.I did that once too. Once when dad had to go through his court trials for that false accusation, I was afraid to face his face. I was scared that I had to see his hopeless and tired face. I was scared his face might be hurting a lot and there might be worse scenario as well.But it was my fear, just fear at that time.And, honestly, I never loved his back facing me. I hated that the most. Though, he had the face that I don’t want to see, I never liked when he turned his back on me.I don’t know how has his past been and what he has to go through but to say that he loved the back of his mother rather than her face means he really might have hurtful memories than I have ever expected to.“Everyone has to go through those things
***ESTHER***“I’m really sorry Caden. I shouldn’t have done that. You know that I sometimes get out of my way and turn mad. It’s just because of that,” she apologizes while I hear her voice out on the door.Caden’s going to hate me a lot. I called him saying that I would be waiting for him in the store room but that was all a plan to trap him inside with Natalie. I am really sorry Caden but I couldn’t just refuse her at all.Trust me Natalie, I am helping you right now just because you have completely genuine feelings for Caden. If you didn’t have those feelings than I would have never helped you.And I also know that Caden should be with someone who loves and supports him more than anything in the world. The one who has better future and the one who knows what they want in life. Not like the person like me who is struggling everyday.I am nothing but just a broken piece of junk who is trying to collect herself right now. I don’t deserve to be loved and I can’t afford to love anyone r
*** ESTHER***“God damn! It’s you. It’s you Esther since the day, I have seen you in my life,” he turns around and jerks his hands on the air. My eyes enlarge as he says that staring at his face. Somewhere in my heart, I knew that he likes me. I have always felt that vibe around him but I was never sure of it. “Bu…ut, you said you like someone whom Natalie doesn’t know and she knows me,” I say. “God! That thing. Esther that I know is different from the Esther she knows. So, I said that. She can never look at you the way, I look at you and she can never understand you like the way I do,” he says. He understands me? But he doesn’t know over eighty percent of my life. How can he brazenly claim that he understands me when he isn’t familiar with major parts of my life? Will he be able to understand me even after knowing the dark truths of my life? I don’t think he could. “How much do you know me? Do you know me?” I ask him. “What?” he looks confusedly at me. He doesn’t know me. I
***ESTHER***It is hard to break this kiss but we have to do it if we don’t want to die being out of breath right?I keep on looking on the floor after that kiss. The thing that we did right now is already done and honestly I don’t have any regrets regarding it. I feel his hands on my cheeks and his thumbs gently caressing on my cheekbones.I feel secure, I feel like I am being protected and maybe he would understand me at any cost. He pulls my face closer to him and place a subtle kiss on my forehead.It’s not like I haven’t kiss him before. I had kissed him that night too but right now, is the actual kiss that I have with him. It’s beautiful with the description more than just words.He pulls me in for hug and keep on caressing the back of my hair. I love the smell of his deoderant from his body. It smells extremely good and the emotion that I am feeling when I am on his arms is soothing and peaceful.Maybe, this is the second chance god is giving to me. Maybe, Caden is the one sent
***CADEN***I thought… I thought her child and her husband are alive but the moment she told me that they are both along with her dad, I cannot believe it. How can she stay strong after losing so many crucial people around her? She told it was all because of her but I don’t think so. I don’t think she could do something hurtful to her closest people. That certainly wasn’t the issue from my perspective. And when she is saying each statement about her son, I can’t help being amused. She explains the way, my mother used to explain us to people. I guess that’s how all mothers are. From her statement, I can easily feel her love for her child. She remembers every detail of her baby. She is slowly tearing out and I want to wipe those tears away from her eyes but before I could attempt that she starts to burst out into tears and heavily. She cries out for help. I park the car nearby as soon as possible and call her. “Esther! Look here! Look at me Esther,” I grab her shoulders and turn he
***CADEN***“What is it?” she stare sat my face for a while.“You have to be my partner for that. The lodge is already yours. So, help me with it,” I say.“I would happily do that. Who said I am going to give you my dad’s memoir alone? I am not giving it to the amateur businessman. You should first be trained well and also you need to study really hard for that. I can’t trust most valuable thing of my life in those untrained hands,” she says as she holds my hands.She is indeed right. I need to be trained for that. I need to learn and get few experience before I jump into the fire of business.“I got it mam,” I smile as I look at her swollen face with swollen eyes.“It’s chilly here. Don’t you feel cold?” I ask.“No! It’s fun to be here,” she says.“How do you actually feel?” I ask her one more time.“About what?” she questions me back.“About getting pregnant. You see it’s not even your child. How do you feel?” I ask.“Oh! I am restricted to feel anything,” she says. I don’t get her.
***ESTHER*** “Tell me now, what happened to you Caisey?” I ask her as I make her sit on the bed. She keeps on tearing out but doesn’t speak. I think it’s not great time to ask her any questions now. So, I just pull her in a hug and keep on caressing her back for a while. She sobs even more when I hug her and embrace me as her head rests on my chest for a while. “Feeling much better?” I ask. She shakes her head. I detach her body from mine and look at her face. Her face is wet with tears. I part her hair well from her face and caress her hair. “Now, tell me what happened to you? Did someone tell you anything?” I ask. “Yeah! Something really hurtful,” she says. “Like what?” I ask. “Like, someone is really glad that I don’t have a mother and I deserve it,” she says. Well! That’s really harsh and too much to tell a teenage girl. No! Too much to tell to every living human being around the world. “Who said that?” I question her one more time. “The same girls with whom you fought