Eurrgghh…. Why do my eyes hurt? They aren’t even opened! How can they hurt when they are closed? I bring my hand to my eyes, only slapping myself in the process. Fuck... I think my body is broken. It all hurts... It doesn't want to work the way I want it to. I force myself to half wake up to allow myself to stretch. Totally unsure why my whole body aches so damn much. I feel like I have been run over by a truck! Jeez... I forced my eyelids open, groaning as the sunlight hit my eyes, as Tyr chuckled. I fucking hate my wolf…‘Should have taken better care of yourself.’ My wolf unhelpfully pointed out. No shit...‘Are you not meant to look out for me?’ I questioned, to which he chuckled again. I rolled over, realising with a sinking feeling that I had somehow fallen asleep on the grass outside the gym… wow. I have sunk to new levels, that is for sure. I don't even remember how I had got here. It wasn't even on my way home! I think it is safe to say I may have drunk too much when at my ce
I was having a lazy morning. After staying so late clearing up the night before, it was more than warranted... I had stayed in bed for as long as I was able, but it had reached the point my back was aching, and I needed to pee, so I had little choice but to get up. And once up, I had decided a coffee was needed. So, I wandered downstairs. The house seemingly eerily quiet, so I could only assume I was on my own.Cole was likely out training, or he would be working, assuming his head was in any fit state, after drinking with Lachlan last night. Mum would be across at the packhouse, where she seemed to spend most of her free time since Dad had passed away. Though, in truth, she spent many hours of her free time there when he had been alive too, a wonderful Gamma’s wife. Full of community spirit, arranging many activities for pack members to join in with, along with my Aunts. The three of them were the perfect example of a pack's senior team's wives.I was only wearing a short pair of sh
I saw Seren flinch the moment my fist impacted with the countertop, and my body flooded with guilt. She was not meant to be scared of me. Respect me, yes. Being scared of me, not so much. Tyr snarled angrily at me.My wolf may do this apparent disappearing act, which seemed to be happening on a more regularly basis of late, but he also seemed skilled in lingering between the two states it appeared. Monitoring what was happening, so he knew when he may be needed. Shame he had not done that last night when I had needed him. But, it seemed he only bothered to come back when it related to Seren… his priority was most definitely on his fated mate.I chose to ignore my wolf right now, his temper tantrums were growing tiresome, and I still had a headache, so dealing with another moodswing from an angry wolf was not something I wanted to deal with. He just needed to deal with the decisions I was making in regard to Seren. Surely he could understand why
I sat staring out of the window, unable to help but consider the inexplicable desire Lachlan seemed to have to make me think he was not all bad. It was like his own mind was in a tug-of-war with itself. One minute he felt the need to be nasty, the next he was trying to convince me he was not all bad… did he even know what he wanted? No. He did not want me, I knew that much. This was Lachlan after all. My opinion had rarely ever mattered to him.Did it really matter? I didn’t matter to him. I was part of the family he had grown up alongside. Our mothers both close friends, my father becoming a father figure, alongside our Alpha when Lachlan's father had passed away. A terrible moment for all our pack, but obviously, a devestating moment for Lachlan. I don't think he had ever been the same since. We had always been around one another. Obviously, that would change as I met my fated mate and likely left pack…“You look deep in thought, Ren.” Lachlan’s voice interrupted my thoughts, bring
I had done it again. I had allowed my matebond to take over. Having Seren so close. The scent of her was overwhelming… and before I knew it she was standing between my legs, and I was suggesting she kissed me. Or, perhaps I should say, Tyr was suggesting that… that sure felt like those words were somewhat pushed… but the thing was in that moment I don’t think I disagreed. I was curious what her lips would feel like on mine. And the look in her eyes told me she was perhaps a little curious too...Her body that close to mine felt strangely right. My fingers teasing along the soft skin of her thigh, as she trembled ever so slightly under my touch made my cock begin to twitch within my pants in a way I had not expected to happen for her… This was Seren. I hated her. I did not want her. My body was not meant to react in such a way to her. But it seemed it was more than reacting to her, it was screaming out like it wanted to her..
My birthday was fast approaching, and I honestly could not wait! The birthday when a wolf comes of age is one of the most important days within a werewolves lives. That and meeting their fated mate. But, I doubted that would happen anytime soon, and I was in no rush for a mate. So, right now I was purely focused upon coming of age, and finally meeting my wolf.I hoped she would be fiery and fun. I needed a wolf to offer me support and understanding too as well as the courage and bravery a wolf was meant to bring. The day I met her could not come soon enough. But, of course, my mother was not going to let the day just slide by unnoticed. Oh, no! She had to have something to plan... and not a little something either... much to my dismay.I was sitting in the large lounge of the packhouse, along with my Mum, my Aunts, my friends Ayla and Thea, and a couple of omegas. All sitting with large mugs of coffee, plans laid out on the coffee table as my Mum and my Aunts took the lead on trying t
Having recovered from the many drinks I had somehow indulged in during my celebrations of becoming Beta, I was now in the full swing of being pack Beta, and loving it. Not that it felt too difficult right now. But, in truth, this was something I had trained for, for a long time. And, I was working alongside my two closest friends and they too were trained well for their roles. We worked well together.And, we were able to sneak out for the odd game of basketball here or there when work became a little boring, or even went out for a drink or two. Life was good… well, as good as it was likely to get for me. Marcus was settled at home with his fated mate, and Cole, while looking for his fated, was enjoing the bachelor life. I, however was stuck. I had the life of a bachelor, but a wolf that did not allow me to enjoy it anymore... not to mention I knew just who my fated mate was, and knew there was no future there to look forward to.Tyr was still
I had barely slept, but I think that had been more excitement than anything. Today was my birthday. I knew that my wolf could make her appearance at any time. And I wanted to be ready…I had heard many tales of friends being woken in the early hours with their wolves desperate to be allowed out to shift. And, a small part of me had hoped that may be the case for me too, but frustratingly, there had been nothing. I tossed and I turned, hoping and waiting, but there was simply radio silence… so, I lay there until sleep had found me, until it was time to get up and enjoy the day my family had planned for me.I trudged down the stairs only for my Mum to begin singing the moment I reached the bottom. Cole sat at the breakfast bar, a big grin on his face the moment he had seen me walk into the kitchen, listening to Mum singing happy birthday to me so out of tune it hurt, the way she did every single birthday.“Happy Birthday sis!” He stood to
I had wasted no time in leaving the cabin after I had spoken with Marcus and he had chosen to follow. Hearing everything he had to say had given me clarity. The smile upon his face when I had told him I was to go to Seren and try to fix the mess created by myself had been proof he was behind my decision. This was the right thing to do. I just had to hope that Seren thought so too.“You know it is the right thing to do, Lach. Fight for your mate.” He urged, and hearing that I knew that I should. I knew that I was willing to fight for her. I had been so close to losing her, and that pain was crushing. I needed her back...We had driven out of pack soon after, not wanting to waste another moment. This had been waiting long enough. Heading toward her campus nerves took over my body. What if she turned me away? What if this time it was her that rejected me?"It will be fine, bro. I can sense your nerves from here." Marcus reassured me. "She came to you, remember. She wants her mate, deep d
I had shocked myself just how much I had enjoyed the football game. Beforehand I had spent a little time finding the tutors I needed to speak to, apologising for my unexpected absence, and thankfully they had been very understanding when I simply mentioned it was due to illness. I should easily be able to catch up with the work I had missed with a little determination, and I was without a doubt determined. I had rushed home then to hurry myself to get ready for the night ahead... a date? I was unsure, but oddly I had been looking forward to it. Settling back in to my home was going to wait...I did not have much freedom within pack. Having a very protective Father as I grew up. And then once Cole got older, a far too protective older brother too who stepped into the lead protector once my father had passed away. Add into the equation Marcus and Lachlan who had been like two additional protectors, it was like I had been guarded. Anything I wanted to do was al
I sat upon the decking staring out to the forest ahead, music playing on the speakers inside of the cabin. It was peaceful today. The sun shining, and cloud low within the sky. The only sounds other than the music was the birds singing and my breathing. I was growing used to my peaceful little haven…I had cleaned the cabin. I had done my work out and my run. That was my daily routine all but complete. I knew that this could not continue. I had duties I had to attend to. I was a Beta. And a Beta could not live this life. But, at the same time, I did not know the sort of Beta I could be. I had no motivation. No determination. No fight. And, as things stood, I was certain I may well be on the way to having no wolf too…In the time since Seren had left, the lingering presence of my wolf that I had begun to sense again had slowly begun to fade. It was as if without her here he could not continue. He needed her energy to survive. Seren was no
Seren had returned to her home on campus, I was aware of that, and as Cole and I worked out alongside one another in the gym, he told me she had taken her own car this time with her feeling better. Last time we had chosen for us to take her, with her having just come out of the hospital, so we didn’t think driving herself would be the best. Not to mention we wanted to check out the security of her home and the area around it. From the things Cole had said Seren seemed glad to be back.I knew that with the current situation as it was with Lachlan she found it easier to be away from pack. I don't think I could blame her, and I think, even if he would not admit it, that was why he stayed out at the cabin the way that he did. Refusing at every turn to come back home... But, for the whole, I knew that campus life was good for Seren. A little change would do her good. Learning... gaining the qualifications she wanted... all while having fun and making new friends. I was just glad she was ab
I drove away from pack, tears within my eyes. The mindlink to Lachlan remained unanswered. He had done it once again, and I was not willing to allow him to get under my skin any more.‘You know where he is, go and visit.’ Maia urged. And, she was not wrong, I did know where he now hid out. Dodging his pack duties as Beta. But I had no intention of going to visit him. My day of staying in pack as requested to ensure my heat was in fact over had been filled with my mother making far too much fuss of me, and my brother being on my case demanding details of how Lachlan had treated me.Having to go over those details had made me think of Lachlan, in turn resulting in me mindlinking him a number of times, all of which were met with silence. As were my text messages. I don't know what I wanted to gain from contacting him, but had hoped perhaps if I did he may try to reach out. Speak to me more. Explain his feelings again. But there had been nothi
Lachlan’s words meant a lot, and I could see the genuineness of them as he spoke. That meant as much to me as his previous apologies. I should have taken that opportunity to talk to him. Especially now that my mind was beginnig to feel like my own again, but my brother was sweeping me out of the cabin and toward the car before I could respond. Cole wanted me away from Lachlan, or away from the conversation that was developing. So, I was marched to the car. I had expected Lachlan to follow. Assuming he too would be ready for a break from the cabin. But, once again Lachlan did what Lachlan did best, he stayed away. Or, more specifically, he watched me walk away...I would not lie, there was an unexpected ache in my chest as I was ushered away the short distance to the car by Cole. Maia whimpered as she quickly realized the footsteps behind us belonged to Marcus and not to Lachlan. A brief glance back told me he had not stepped foot from the cabin. He was
I had walked away from their argument unable to listen any further. Anger bubbling beneath my skin. I wanted to say so much but knew it was not my place. Marcus and Cole already appeared to think so little of me, I did not need to make things any worse. So walking away seemed the better option. But I sat upon the chair on the decking looking out across the forsest. The front door remained opened and I could hear every word that was being said. Hearing Seren come to my defence shocked me to my core…The words of the man who was meant to be a friend invariably hurt, but, this was his sister he was trying to protect; and in his mind this was no more than I deserved. He believed I had treated her badly, and he wished to see me suffer. Yet Seren came to my defence time and again. Giving her brother the reasons why the things I had done were not as bad as they may seem.In truth, as I sat there and listened as our past was discussed everything hit home. Hard. It truly was as bad as it seeme
Lachlan opened the door to the cabin, by brother and Marcus strode inside. Neither one looked happy to see him, nor did they acknowledge him as they passed him by to stand inside the living area. I had not wanted them here, but Lachlan had taken it upon himself to assume that I did. He had not answered my question, instead choosing to tidy up and avoid me at every opportunity. Which considering the size of the small cabin was quite a task…His eyes had expressed a thousand words the moment they met mine, which I think is why he had quickly averted his gaze, and moved away from me. He knew that I would be able to read his thoughts from his eyes. I knew Lachlan too well. In choosing to rush around the cabin occupying himself he was only silently allowing more secrets to be revealed. More things had been said between him and my family, I was sure of it, and one way or another, I would get to the bottom of it.“Aww, Ren, you look better.” Marcus offered
Seren was acting oddly. No. Not oddly, sultry. Needy. Not that she hadn’t been acting like she wanted me the past few days, because she had. She had been in heat. Wanting me was all she had had on her damn mind, but this seemed different. The alteration in her tone told me her wolf was pushing forward too. My own wolf had done that enough in the early days, I knew what it meant...Tyr may have been lingering here and there while Seren was here, but he was not back. Not fully. So he was not able to communicate with Maia I didn’t think, so maybe Maia was hoping to connect with me? Either way she appeared to want her mate.But her wanting to encourage the two of us told me something was off. She had always been quite supportive of Seren’s choices, but it seemed right now she was defending me. She was pushing for things to work for us. And while I would understand a wolf wanting it's mate, she knew how bad I wad for Seren. She knew the things I had done.