My head was a mess by the time I walked into the house. Only to find my Mum’s angry eyes staring at me. Yes, I had managed it again. I had pissed her off. I could win awards in that.
“I lost my bracelet when I went for a run, okay?” I explained, hoping she might at least show me some sympathy, or, if not, then try to understand the reason I had not returned when she had asked me to. “So I had to go back and look for it.”
Her big green eyes darkened at those words, her brow furrowed. “As in the bracelet your Dad gave you?” Her voice was hoarse, and already I knew this was not going to go as I hoped, so I simply nodded.
A heavy sigh slipped from my Mum’s lips as her hands fell to her sides in what I could only assume was frustration. “How could you be so irresponsible, Seren?” she snapped. “You know how precious that bracelet is! It is not like you can just get another one. Or at least not one that would hold the same meaning.”
My eyes widened at her reaction. She had to be kidding, right? Like I had chosen to lose it on purpose? My heart was breaking at the fact I had not been able to find it, and the last thing I needed was my Mum yelling at me over it. And the weird thing was the one person in the pack who hated me more than anyone else had shown me more sympathy than my own fucking mother!
“No shit!” I sobbed. “I didn’t choose for it to fall off. But, you will be glad to know while I was up there I saw King Lachlan and wished him a happy birthday. He actually tried to help me find the bracelet. So, I did as you asked, okay?” I walked away from her, wiping the stray tear that had slipped from my eye. Hating that my Mum had been so harsh over the bracelet. I felt incomplete without it, and now I had her giving me a hard time over losing it. Almost like she felt it had been intentional.
“Seren, wait!” Mum’s voice echoed along the hallway of our family home. A home that had never felt the same to me since my Dad passed away. It felt empty almost, which was crazy when there were still three of us living here. But it just didn't feel right without my Dad here.
I turned sharply as I reached the staircase, and looked back toward her. “So you can tell me how bad I am?” I questioned, sniffling the tears away.
My Mum offered me a sympathetic smile. “I am sorry for yelling, it just hurts that you may have lost the last thing your Dad gave you, Ren.” Her voice sounded a little unsteady, telling me she may be as close to tears as I was. I wish I had never told her about the bracelet now, and just took the blame for being late. Anything would have been better than the guilt I was currently feeling...
“Do you not think that is how I am feeling?” I suggested, and she nodded slowly, that same smile offered once more.
“It was nice of Lach to help you look for it. Such a sweet boy. And on his birthday too.” Mum said with a tenderness in her voice that made me roll my eyes. Both her and my Aunt Zoe, the former Luna, saw Lachlan as an additional son. Acted like the sun shone from his ass.
“Uh-huh.”
“Seren, give the boy a break. Today will be hard for him. A day he should be sharing with his Dad. His Dad gave his life so you could be here. Remember that.” My Mum’s words hit hard. She had a habit of reminding me of one of the scariest days of my life… one I would forever hold guilt over, but it was unfair to hold it over me like that.
I walked away from her without a further word. I was not about to get into this again. “Oh, Seren, get yourself cleaned up, we are expected at the training field in an hour to put the finishing touches to the party.” Mum ordered me, and again I felt my shoulders sag in anticipation of what would lie ahead for me.
Before I knew it, we were walking out of the house together, my Mum already wittering in my ear about all the things that she wanted me to do once we arrived, and then moved onto all the things they had arranged for the celebrations. They had, just as I had expected, gone to a lot of effort for Lachlan’s birthday. But, they had done the same for my brother, Cole, when he had come of age, and the same for our Alpha, Marcus, as he came of age. So, no doubt they wanted to ensure that Lachlan received the same treatment. Our pack liked to celebrate properly, and tonight, the atmosphere would be a good one. I just wish I did not have to join in.
“Can you please try to look like you want to be there, Seren.” Mum admonished me and I plastered on a fake smile, only to earn myself a frown from the woman to my left. “You are not clever, young lady.”
“No, I don’t suppose I am.” I muttered under my breath, just as my Aunt Zoe, our former pack Luna, wrapped her arms around me in a huge hug, almost smothering me in the process.
“Aww, hello beautiful!” she said excitedly. I looked across at my Mum in a bid for help, and she simply grinned. They were all as over-affectionate as one another. All over-friendly, and far too cheerful for my liking, but they were my closest family at the end of the day. I had to love them.
“Hey Aunt Zoe.” I smiled awkwardly, trying to extricate myself from her embrace.
“Mom, let the poor girl go!” Marcus, the pack Alpha, and my brother’s best friend laughed as he walked past. “Alright Rennie!” he offered me a hand for a high five. I hated his nickname, but he had picked it when he was about eight, and it has stuck ever since.
“Hey Marcus, sorry, Alpha!” I stuck my tongue out at him. While Lachlan and I may no longer get along, Marcus has always looked out for me. He and his mate, our new pack Luna, Amalie, often spent time with my brother, Cole, so I enjoyed seeing them.
“They roped you into setting up the party?” he asked, and I nodded.
“Unlcuky. I get out of it, because I am important.” He laughed, giving me a wink, so I shook my head at him, giving him the middle finger as he walked away laughing.
“Right, come on, still lots to do.” Aunt Zoe told me, just as Lachlan’s Mum, Alena, rushed over.
“Lachlan is already on his way!” she fusses, and instantly I felt any happiness draining from me. I don’t think I was ready for spending time with him again yet. The time spent together earlier in the forest had been awkward enough, as much as I may have appreciated his help. The way his dark eyes continued to fall upon me had made me feel uncomfortable. Something seemed different about him. Maybe it was the new wolf... the Beta aura he now possessed. But, whatever it was, I did not like it. That look was intimidating. And it scared me. He scared me.
“I will get Harry to send a pack link out then we can get everyone here. And Marcus can delay him.” Aunt Zoe said calmly, with a smile, as if she had no worries at all in the world. She was a queen at organizing celebrations, so she had nothing to stress about tonight. I, however, had everything to worry about. I was being forced to come to a party I wanted to avoid.
A party that the special guest was already on his way to. A special guest that hated me, yet I was expected to treat him like he was something special, especially today. Great…
I had done the good guy role. Going against every part of me that hated Seren. But, the part of me that knew what it was like to lose my father. The part that clung to that pain day in and day out was what made me step up and offer to help her find her bracelet. Or at least try. That had been torture being that close to her. I hate her. I truly do. But my body want her. The matebond wants her. This is nothing but a mess.Her scent was overwhelming. Enticing. Alluring. As it teased at my senses. Like it wanted me to reach for her and sink my teeth into her neck. Mark her and make her mine. Her scent had filled every part of that forest as we searched for that damn bracelet. As I did the decent thing. Torturing myself while being the good guy. Yet, we never found the damn thing, and she rushed away with tears in her eyes, and I had to ask our patrols to look out for it. Another promise to the bane of my life...Now I needed to go and party. Reward myself for being the good guy. I think
The party was in full swing by the time Marcus and I arrive, more than a couple of shots down. Seemed my friend was not about to let me leave the house having had only one. He was out to ensure I had a good night, and for that I was not going to complain.The moment we arrived to the party we were swamped with well-wishers. Most of whom I had already seen today at my birthday breakfast, or in and around pack, but I was gracious as always. They were, after all, members of the pack I had grown up in, and members of the pack I would be assisting in running once they allowed me to begin my Beta training now I had my wolf. The next stage in my life. One that I had to say I was excited about. Following in my Dad's footsteps. Earning the title he had passed on to me. One my Mum had tried hard to bring me up honourably to earn.Once Marcus and I had managed to ease ourselves away from the majority of the crowd, we noticed three women approaching. All three with affectionate smiles upon their
I made my way around the party, just as my Mum asked, ensuring the food tables were stocked up, and the drink tables too. Vry much being used like staff today, to ensure the party went as smoothly as it could. Heaven forbid that Lachlan did not have the most wonderful party that ever existed. It was on one of those run arounds that I noticed the king of the hour. Beta Blockhead himself. Some slutty-she-wolf draped all over him...No surprise really, we had quite a few she-wolves in pack more than willing to do that to get ahead. My brother had been known to take advantage of his title in that way, as disappointed in him as that makes me to admit it. And, I believe, our very own Alpha, Marcus, had done the same too, until he had met his mate. I think it is just a very shameful part of being a senior role within pack. The lure of the senior title in the pack was appealing to a certain type of she-wolf, and they found themselves flinging themselves upon said wolves at every given opport
Seren’s attitude with me had ruined my mood, and any chance I had with Cara… or Zara… or whatever her name was. So, I had gone back to joining my friends, disregarding my initial plans of spending my birthday evening finding she-wolves to keep me occupied and rid my mind of thoughts of the filthy, repulsive she-wolf that fate had given me for a mate. The night had not gone the way I had hoped. But, my friends were always good company. Especially when we had a few drinks down us.The party was, as parties go, not a bad one. Plenty of laughter, and fun, as to be expected from a pack celebration where there was an ongoing supply of food and alcohol. Music playing until the early hours. Everything a person could want for a party. Yet, I headed home at the end of my party feeling deflated. Like my coming of age had been nothing but a disappointment. Nothing like I had expected.Tyr had slipped to the nether regions of my mind early in the evening, in one hell of a mood with me, likely bec
Already a week into being of age, and I had to say it sucked. I had waited eighteen damn years for this period of my life, and as it turned out, it was nothing but a big, fat disappointment. My wolf had decided he was hibernating. Or, as the case was more likely to be, ignoring me like the ignorant little shit it appeared he was. My wolf was everything I did not want in a wolf. In truth, I had hoped for a wolf that I would gain another friend in, instead it appeared I had gained an enemy. A mortal enemy with the way things were going.I was now having to dodge my friends in their requests to go for a run, both Cole and Marcus desperate to meet my wolf. Neither one having been able to on my birthday, so trying each day since to arrange a chance to train together in our wolf form or run together. There was only one issue with that, the little fucker did not want to come out to play. My wolf was being as awkward as he could be.I liked to keep myself fit, and exercise was an important pa
I stood watching Seren walk away. Her long dark hair swinging as she walked. She was in a hurry to get away from me, that was evident to see. A part of me wanted to go after her, but I stayed, almost fixed to the spot, as she strode further away. While listening to my wolf snarling angrily at me. My gut twisting, along with my heart. I knew the pain she was in. I knew the struggle of losing your father…FLASHBACK – 8 years ago.I played happily with Cole. Climbing the large tree in the garden of their home. The sun was shining and we loved to make the most of the sunshine. Any opportunity to be outside. Climbing trees was one of our favorite things to do, and the one sitting in the Bradshaw's garden was one of the many trees we had fallen from countless times before. The slightly smaller one alongside it was the tree where the treehouse sat. I believed we had fallen from that a few times too. We made a habit of falling. Always so clumsy. Too busy having fun...Thankfully, Aunt Sofia
Today had been a day I had been dreading. But as sure as the sun was to rise, it had arrived. A day that filled me with pain. A day that left me contemplating so much. Reliving memories. My eyes filled with tears. Losing someone you love is the worst imagineable loss, but when that someone is someone you depend upon… turn to… look up to… he had been my everything. Is that not what a Dad was meant to be to his little girl? I had never expected to lose him whilst I was so young. Though, I don’t suppose many people expect to lose the ones they love… and, no matter how hard I tried, I did not know how to make that loss any easier.Three years this year since he had left us. Three years since I had heard his voice. Three years since he had lovingly wrapped his arms around my Mum's waist as she made him his morning coffee, making her giggle, despite their many years together as mates. 1095 days feeling lost without my Dad by my side to turn to for
That smug look lingered across Lachlan's dark features as his smirk widened. His dark eyes never leaving me for a second as he watched me move along the corridor. “Alright, Ren.” He nodded at me, before raising his coffee mug to me.Without further acknowledgement of him, I quickly continued striding along the corridor, before my anger well and truly bubbled out of control. I did not know what he was doing here, and I did not need him here. Marching into the kitchen to find my brother tossing one of the pancakes as I did, he looked up at me with a welcoming smile. The lightness in his face only to be brought down by me as I snapped. “What is he doing here?”Cole’s eyes rolled upward, like he was sick of my words. It was something I had asked him multiple times before. I hated the sight of Lachlan making himself comfortable within our family home, especially when he had his arrogant head on. Unfortunately, as a close family friend, he made
Seren had returned to her home on campus, I was aware of that, and as Cole and I worked out alongside one another in the gym, he told me she had taken her own car this time with her feeling better. Last time we had chosen for us to take her, with her having just come out of the hospital, so we didn’t think driving herself would be the best. Not to mention we wanted to check out the security of her home and the area around it. From the things Cole had said Seren seemed glad to be back.I knew that with the current situation as it was with Lachlan she found it easier to be away from pack. I don't think I could blame her, and I think, even if he would not admit it, that was why he stayed out at the cabin the way that he did. Refusing at every turn to come back home... But, for the whole, I knew that campus life was good for Seren. A little change would do her good. Learning... gaining the qualifications she wanted... all while having fun and making new friends. I was just glad she was ab
I drove away from pack, tears within my eyes. The mindlink to Lachlan remained unanswered. He had done it once again, and I was not willing to allow him to get under my skin any more.‘You know where he is, go and visit.’ Maia urged. And, she was not wrong, I did know where he now hid out. Dodging his pack duties as Beta. But I had no intention of going to visit him. My day of staying in pack as requested to ensure my heat was in fact over had been filled with my mother making far too much fuss of me, and my brother being on my case demanding details of how Lachlan had treated me.Having to go over those details had made me think of Lachlan, in turn resulting in me mindlinking him a number of times, all of which were met with silence. As were my text messages. I don't know what I wanted to gain from contacting him, but had hoped perhaps if I did he may try to reach out. Speak to me more. Explain his feelings again. But there had been nothi
Lachlan’s words meant a lot, and I could see the genuineness of them as he spoke. That meant as much to me as his previous apologies. I should have taken that opportunity to talk to him. Especially now that my mind was beginnig to feel like my own again, but my brother was sweeping me out of the cabin and toward the car before I could respond. Cole wanted me away from Lachlan, or away from the conversation that was developing. So, I was marched to the car. I had expected Lachlan to follow. Assuming he too would be ready for a break from the cabin. But, once again Lachlan did what Lachlan did best, he stayed away. Or, more specifically, he watched me walk away...I would not lie, there was an unexpected ache in my chest as I was ushered away the short distance to the car by Cole. Maia whimpered as she quickly realized the footsteps behind us belonged to Marcus and not to Lachlan. A brief glance back told me he had not stepped foot from the cabin. He was
I had walked away from their argument unable to listen any further. Anger bubbling beneath my skin. I wanted to say so much but knew it was not my place. Marcus and Cole already appeared to think so little of me, I did not need to make things any worse. So walking away seemed the better option. But I sat upon the chair on the decking looking out across the forsest. The front door remained opened and I could hear every word that was being said. Hearing Seren come to my defence shocked me to my core…The words of the man who was meant to be a friend invariably hurt, but, this was his sister he was trying to protect; and in his mind this was no more than I deserved. He believed I had treated her badly, and he wished to see me suffer. Yet Seren came to my defence time and again. Giving her brother the reasons why the things I had done were not as bad as they may seem.In truth, as I sat there and listened as our past was discussed everything hit home. Hard. It truly was as bad as it seeme
Lachlan opened the door to the cabin, by brother and Marcus strode inside. Neither one looked happy to see him, nor did they acknowledge him as they passed him by to stand inside the living area. I had not wanted them here, but Lachlan had taken it upon himself to assume that I did. He had not answered my question, instead choosing to tidy up and avoid me at every opportunity. Which considering the size of the small cabin was quite a task…His eyes had expressed a thousand words the moment they met mine, which I think is why he had quickly averted his gaze, and moved away from me. He knew that I would be able to read his thoughts from his eyes. I knew Lachlan too well. In choosing to rush around the cabin occupying himself he was only silently allowing more secrets to be revealed. More things had been said between him and my family, I was sure of it, and one way or another, I would get to the bottom of it.“Aww, Ren, you look better.” Marcus offered
Seren was acting oddly. No. Not oddly, sultry. Needy. Not that she hadn’t been acting like she wanted me the past few days, because she had. She had been in heat. Wanting me was all she had had on her damn mind, but this seemed different. The alteration in her tone told me her wolf was pushing forward too. My own wolf had done that enough in the early days, I knew what it meant...Tyr may have been lingering here and there while Seren was here, but he was not back. Not fully. So he was not able to communicate with Maia I didn’t think, so maybe Maia was hoping to connect with me? Either way she appeared to want her mate.But her wanting to encourage the two of us told me something was off. She had always been quite supportive of Seren’s choices, but it seemed right now she was defending me. She was pushing for things to work for us. And while I would understand a wolf wanting it's mate, she knew how bad I wad for Seren. She knew the things I had done.
I woke with a start, shocked to find Lachlan looking down at me, an unreadable expression upon his face. He was leaning against the wall of the cabin, his arms crossed, and those big, beautiful dark eyes of his were watching me intently. Should I be freaked out he was watching me sleep? Maybe... yet oddly, I found it almost reassuring... I rolled over on the bed to face him, stretching slightly as I did, and his eyes observed every slight movement of my body“What is wrong?” I questioned, noticing for the first time since my arrival here that the rush of heat upon waking had lessened. I had to hope that could only be a good sign...Lachlan offered me a questionable smile, before shrugging slightly. “Nothing, Ren. Why would something be wrong? I just came to check you were okay. You have been asleep a while.”I nodded. That seemed plausible. I had no clue how long I had been asleep. It felt like sometime since I had come
I walked back through the now familar trees surrounding the cabin,my phone to my ear. "So you don't think it was as strong?" I questioned.The supply drop had been completed a short while earlier by Colton, but I had waited until Seren was resting until Ileft the cabin to go and collect, as I had done each time previously. I did not want to leave her when she needed me, nor did I want any other wolf in close proximity to my mate whilst she was in heat. But, from what my friend was telling me, that may not be too much of an issue now."The scent has certain dissipated. I think another day and it will have gone. Is she feeling any better?" He asked.I chuckled. "I don't think she would tell me either way, Col, she is making me guess at best. Anything but admit she is struggling. Shows weakness, right? Seren will not let me think she is weak." I told my friend, who in turn began to chuckle too."Damn, that sounds like somebody I know. Hmmm,
Pain. Heat. Tenderness radiated through my body. As did warmth. No, not warmth, boiling, temperatures. Hours? Days? I did not know now. I was in a state of confusion. Agony. Discomfort. Sobbing. Screaming. Crying one moment, yelling the next… I did not like this. How was this a normal state for anyone or anything to be in?!‘Why won’t he help us?’ I wailed to Maia. She was our wolf, why could she not talk to his wolf? Surely he could convince Lachlan to surrender to the matebond again. He had done it before. This good-boy image did not suit him. If he would surrender to the matebond we could ease this pain. Put an end to this suffering. It may even bring us closer...‘We have gone over this. So many times.’ She snapped, and she was right. I had begged her so many times, and I had argued this point with Lachlan too. He was not about to give in to me. He was determined to do the right thing. Why he deemed this the ri