Chapter Seven

Wednesday, January 19,2022

              5:16 p.m.

I’m still unable to understand that what is going on with me. I’m changing myself slowly and slowly. I think about him all the days and nights. I can’t figure out the feelings when I’m with him. Today I’m happy in fact I’m more happy then ever before in my life. But I’m still in confusion that is it love or it’s hormone changes. As I’m going to 18 years old in few days. Anyways I don’t know what’s this but it’s the best feelings in the world. I’m lying on my bed and still thinking about him and shying. I’m excited to talk to him. I’m staring at my phone and waiting for his call or text. I want him to be with me right now. I’m imagining him on my bed lying with me. From now onwards Wednesday is my favorite day and 19 January is my favorite date.

“Oh my God”, I exhale a deep breath. What the hell am I doing? Is this me? I’m tired of thinking about him. I can’t stop thinking about him. He is fucking handsome guy. I can’t help. I wonder if he is also tired of thinking about me.

“Enough.”

I say in an exhausted way. I stand up and walk downstairs looking for something to eat. And then I walk back to my room and start doing my homework. I’m still waiting for his call and staring at my phone again and again but he doesn’t call.

Thursday, January 20, 2022

               5:36 a.m.

I wake up early even before the alarm rings. I’m so excited for meeting Masson. It’s going to be our first date. I don’t know if I call it a date or not. But I like it to call a date. I stand up from bed, wash my face and step out of home to run. I started running. I inhale a fresh air and it seems like I’m having the best moments of my life. I wish it could never last. I finish running and walk in my home. I take a shower, look into mirror and staring at my face. I comb my hair and then let them open today. I had a little makeup on my face so that he couldn’t observe that I’m trying to impress him. I put a light lipstick. I’m totally trying to impress him. I walk downstairs to have breakfast. I’m having breakfast slowly and slowly. It tastes like really delicious. I have been eating same breakfast in this house but today is some special about it.

I finish my breakfast and step toward my father and kiss him on hi cheek.

“Is everything okay?”

He asks. He is curious about my behavior. I myself even don’t know that  everything is okay or not. I pass a smile to him and nod. I’m happy that my so called “stepmother” isn’t here to ruin my mood. I’m still not figure it out that why the hell my father marry her. How can he forget my mother and allow anyone else to enter in our life and interrupt out relationship. Anyways, today I shouldn’t ruin my day with these kind of thoughts. So I’m leaving the house and get out of home, climb in my car and going to school in such a great mood. I reach at school. I know it’s too early. There’s a lot of time in our class so I’m walking aimlessly in school. Today even this school is looking so beautiful. I can’t believe it’s the same school I hated before I met him. I get into class when it’s time of lecture. I’m waiting for him in our class but he doesn’t appear. Angel has came and is sitting along with me. Today  I love her talk even though it’s lame and I can’t believe that I’m  listening her carefully. As the time passes, I worry about him and about our date. What if he doesn’t appear. The teacher enters in class and I’m about to cry. But I swallow up the tears and try to focus on lecture but I can’t. I really can’t focus on anything. I’m still waiting for him, looking toward the class door again and again. But as the time passes I loose hope. I band my hair up with catcher clip. And as soon as the classes end, I step toward parking area to leave. I’m totally disappointed today. I didn’t expect the day it’s going on. I climb in to my car and about to shut the car. But stop when I see a brown eyes staring me. I blink my eyes twice to believe.

“Hey.”

He is here. Yes. Oh my God. He is here. I can’t believe. It’s a great surprise, I ever had in my life. He is standing beside my car, putting his hand in my car’s window and looking into my eyes seriously without smiling. I smile. I want to not but I do and he notice that. Oh God how fool I am. I shouldn’t show him up that I’m happy to see him but it’s too late. He smiles back at me and waiting for my response. Oh I forget to reply him.

“Hello.”

I say immediately and look down to my hands. I feel nervous. I look back into his eyes which are still staring me. I wonder where he was been all day. He bunked all the classes and appears now. But why he appears now when he has bunked all the classes. I want to ask him but it’s too early.  I just want him to drown into my eyes and I also want myself to do the same. Now at this moment, I feel the most luckiest girl in the world to be with him.