Leaving his boss's house, Sloan didn't even call one of Hendry's drivers. He decided to pull out his phone to order a ride instead. His eyes were hot from his unshed tears, he felt so stupid, every fucking time, he thought to himself.
Sloan walked to the small convenience store around the corner and bought himself a pack of cigarettes. He lit and took a drag of the cigarette while waiting for his ride. The night was getting colder and he could feel goosebumps on his arms when two guys started walking toward him.He didn't care though, it was reckless, but Sloan had been hurt too many times that he couldn't care less about the two men. He took another drag and stomped the cigarette with the sole of his shoes when he saw his ride was there. Sloan looked back and smiled at the shady-looking men before he gets into the car."Dude, you should not stand there alone. What were you thinking?" The driver greeted him with a wary expression."I didn't think," Sloan said easily and the driver just shook his head but continue driving to the appointment location."Kids these days," the older man muttered as he continued to drive.Sloan was disappointed with himself, he didn't want to go home, not yet. So he went to another club that he used to frequent every time he needed to let himself go. He paid for the entrance fee and picked out his Doms before he followed them to one of the private rooms and stripped naked.This was him, someone, who needs to feel the pain. One might say that Sloan was a masochist but on the inside, his disappointment grew strong. It was not about control for him, because Sloan craved punishment. He needed this, he needed this before he could plaster on a happy face tomorrow at work. Just like every other day. He had always been a happy guy, even to his family. No one knows what's going on in his fucked up mind. No one except himself.The day he uprooted his life and moved back to his hometown, was the trigger. He knew he needed something stronger to numb the pain. And being previously abused by his first-ever boyfriend made him a regular for the pain. Sloan had skipped town because of his first boyfriend, Jesse, though not unscathed, the bruises and the broken bones were not visible anymore, but the memories were still there."Who are you tonight, boy?" The blond Dom who wanted to be referred to as Master asked."Little mouse, master,"The other Dom who preferred also to be his Master chuckled in his condescending voice, telling him that it was appropriate for him. Sloan shuddered from the shame and was sickeningly excited about the pain that he was going to endure when he was bound to the big X in the center of the room."My eyes, please master," Sloan pleaded to the taller Dom who was standing to his back. He put on the leather eye covering that took away his sense of sight in seconds. Sloan didn't want to see, he just wanted to feel the pain.The first taste of the leather on his back made him gasp. His fingers dug deep into his palm, while his wrists were bound tightly onto the leather cuffs. Sloan groaned from the pain. Then another, and another, and another. He didn't want sex from his doms, no, he came from the pain alone. He took pleasure from the whips and the paddle smacking on his ass. Sloan know that he'd feel the pain tomorrow and that would put him in his place.The PA. Simple as that. The little mouse needs to know his place. He repeated the words in his mind, over and over again.This took him back to years ago when he was told that he was to be the perfect cumslut by his first boyfriend. Sloan was nineteen, living miles away from his hometown, studying for his degree. He was young and head over heels for his older boyfriend, Jesse, who had messed him up real good. So good that when he passed Sloan to his friends, he acted like a good boyfriend and serviced them, thinking it'll make him more loveable and make their sex life better.Sloan dived blindly into the messed up relationship, stupidly convinced that it was what gay couples do. He was with Jesse for almost three years, looking back he often wondered how it was even possible. Though somehow he knew, somehow deep inside his fucked up mind he had thought that he deserved it. That Jesse's words were all true.Months after the whole debacle with Jesse, Sloan falls back into a safer relationship with women. Sloan always liked to show people that he was normal and happy. No one needs to know the real him. He had also carefully picked men to connect with, though mostly for hookups. But he had a couple of boyfriends and girlfriends after Jesse. Sloan had also managed to be socially compatible with his partners. But every time, Sloan always pulls away when things started to get serious.The one thing that was constant was his visit to the kink club. There, he could be himself and truly let go. And that was why he knew that he was going to let his mom down, cause he understands that deep down, he was broken, sick, damaged, and not worthy of anyone.One hour later he left the club, with his cock hard as a rock when he went back home. Sloan locked himself in his bathroom, showered, and jerked off before going to bed on his back, clearly aware that his ass and back side were still very tender. He wanted to feel the pain. Needing it before he let his tears fall and grabbed his pillow and sobbed into it. Hard. He was trash. Stupid, incompetent cum hole. Jesse was right. Sloan just needed to align his thoughts and stop having expectations of himself.He was tired when he finally falls asleep. Alone, always alone, and never hoping for more."Morning, honey, you looked tired." His mom put a hand on his battered back and Sloan smiled sweetly at her as he felt the pain rushing through his skin."I'm okay mom, didn't sleep much but tomorrow is the weekend. I'll take you out shopping then we can lounge all day, maybe I can even take a nap afterward." Sloan expertly convinced his mom as he had always done over the years, and she smiled at him telling him that it was a good plan.Sloan left the house an hour later after taking a hot scalding shower, making sure he had numbed all the pain and pushed his tears away.He thought he was ready when he plastered on his happy smile as he stepped out of the elevator. But he was not ready when he saw his boss all handsome and perfect, standing by his desk, already waiting for him."Sloan, my office.""Of course, let me get your coffee first and we'll discuss your schedule for today." Sloan smiled professionally, just like he always does since the last two years he'd been working as Hendry's personal assistant. His boss raised his brow but didn't say anything further as he walked into his office and waited for him.Sloan took his time in preparing Hendry's coffee, he even gossiped with Nat from the front desk. But he can only delay for so long or he'll mess up Hendry's schedule. So he pulled himself together and walked into Hendry's office with his tablet in one hand and his boss's coffee in the other."Lock the door behind you,""Excuse me?""You heard me, I said to lock the door behind you." Hendry rests his fine ass on his large desk and crosses his arms in front of his chest. Clearly challenging Sloan to do exactly the opposite. Which Hendry knows he wouldn't.The assistant bit his lip, weighing his options before he eventually relent and do as he was told. That made Hendry smile at him the second Sloan turned his back around to face his boss."Come here,"And just like the good little mouse, Sloan walked into his arms and let his boss kiss him. And Sloan kissed him back when Hendry's arms wrapped around his backside and made him remember the pain.His PA. Nothing more. Stop dreaming. Stop hoping. Sloan chanted those words as he gets lost in their kisses.Callie was not sure how women in her new circle feel good about themselves. She needed her old friends, though, with her stupid hectic schedule, she rarely saw them when getting to them would take her two hours of driving. And so she stayed with her parents on the other side of the city, away from her previous social surroundings. Since her dad's tech company succeeded and broke the market within the AI industry, everything had dramatically changed. Her dad's company had been attending trade fairs for Artificial Intelligence for years until he finally made it. Aside from being a genius within the industry, Callie's dad knew he needed to break the market, and having a solid team behind him had managed him to do so. And in less than ten years he was finally at the top, at least one of the best in the country which then boosted their lifestyle to what Callie would say was a spectacular shit show. And no she did not like the change, but she adapted, doing so because she loves her parents
Brody felt like he was on top of the world on Monday morning when he entered his office. Last Saturday night went great, Callie came over and they spent the night kissing and making out. They both agreed to leave sex until their next date. Well, it was her idea, obviously. His princess wanted both of them to think things through before going all the way. Brody knew she considered it knowing about him and Hendry, though Callie also knew that it didn't work out between them. What she didn't know was how Brody was still in love with his ex-housemate.So, maybe postponing sex was a good idea after all. Though on that same day when evening came, Brody knew that he would jerk off in the shower the second he saw Hendry who looked perfectly handsome walking into his home like he owned the damn place. It was true that Hendry had been there too many times before. The man even had his own key. But when Hendry told him on the phone that he was bringing dinner, Brody was not expecting that he sti
It has been two weeks since the last time he saw Brody. Hendry hated that he has been missing him, but he had agreed to give him space because Brody wanted whatever they had between them to stop. And so he had asked Sloan to fill his schedule to the brim, jammed-packed to the last minute. His assistant didn't ask why he just stepped up and back to being professional. The man didn't even flinch when their eyes met. It was as if nothing had ever transpired between them. Months back Hendry might enjoy the casual hot kissing session with the hot PA, but now... somehow he felt like it didn't sit well with him. Hendry was tired and missing his best friend, badly. Then, Sloan pointed out that he had been working himself to the ground for the last two weeks. But Hendry couldn't care less. He needed the distraction."... let's see, you've been here before seven and leave after nine. Don't ask how I knew, because I'm not making this up. I have people on higher ground. Yep, I checked your ID b
Laying in bed with his boss who was holding him like he was an anchor was giving Sloan goosebumps. He knew that he had to keep his feelings in check. He had a crush on Hendry for the past two years now, hell, he was calling it a crush as if he was still in high school. In truth, his emotions were all over the place every time the man stepped into his personal space. Which Hendry carelessly does more often than he'd like, not that he opposed his behavior. Just like now as Sloan held the man who was emotionally wrecked because of his best friend.Sloan always thought that it was stupid when people be the third wheel. Yet, there he was and he was being that stupid person who was pining over his boss. But when morning came, he didn't realize that he fell asleep the whole night. Truthfully, he knew that it was the best sleep he had in years. "Sloan?" His name was hoarsely whispered by the handsome man who stirred awake in his arms. "Morning, boss, um...I didn't mean to oversleep. Uh, I s
After Brody got back from dinner at Callie's parents he remembered Hendry's call, also his short text telling his best friend that he was at dinner with Callie's family. But it was not until Brody got home and saw the takeaway bags on his front door that he realized Hendry had left in a hurry. He could've easily left them in the fridge, he has keys to Brody's house and that was when he knew that he had hurt his best friend's feelings.It was late and the damage had been done, so he decided to wait to patch things up the next day. Brody decided that he was going to bring Hendry's favorite coffee and bagels for brunch. And that was how the next day when he lets himself inside Hendry's apartment, Brody found not only Hendry was still in his bed, but he was naked. His limbs tangled with his assistant's, looking like they had thoroughly fucked themselves to exhaustion.Brody should've left the second he saw them. It was not the first morning he saw Hendry naked in his bed with one of his c
It has been three weeks since Callie helped Brody with his frustration. She loves him on a deeper friendship level she knew she'd do anything for him. They've always had that certain kind of relationship, even when there was Hendry between them. Callie knew that they belonged together. She was confident that their friendship will last more than any relationship she'd have. She had understood how both were struggling with one another. She wanted nothing but to be his best friend in his happy place.She knew being with Hendry would make him happy. Callie also knew that marrying Brody will be a whole lot of messy conflicts. She knew that there was no way in hell that her love for her best friend would trump Brody's love for Hendry. And at some stage, she had accepted it. That was also why she kept on getting back and forth to go all the way with her best friend.She wanted him, the man was sexy. Callie had seen glimpses of how the man was blessed below the belt. He was thick and hung. Go
"For your information, I didn't want to attend this stuffy convention in the first place," Hendry grumbled, though he was at least glad that he have Sloan to accompany him."You have to make an appearance. This won't take long. People need to kiss your ass and you need to play nice and listen while I'll collect some business cards for your marketing team. We've done this dance before, you weren't this annoying when we were here six months ago."Sloan knew that his boss is usually a pleasant person, he'd try not to be one of those uptight titled executives. But Hendry had been sour-faced and hadn't been himself since the day Sloan rescue him from the side of the road after coming back from Brody's."Okay, I guess, I can pretend to be nice for a couple of hours if you promised to kiss me and make me feel better after this." Hendry made a dramatic sigh while Sloan smiled and his cheeks flushed."I can certainly do that," he batted his eyelashes making his boss laugh, then Sloan pulled ou
It was lunchtime with Vera that made Sloan head out early, leaving his desk and walking to the small restaurant one block away from the office. She was already there when he arrived. Vera said that she had an appointment nearby after lunch. It was why she had called her brother the night before for their lunch date."Mom told me that she worries about you," Vera asked when the waiter left the table with their order."Was there even an appointment, or is this your way of butting into my life?" He drinks his glass of water trying to calm himself down. Sloan knows that his family meant well and he needs to keep his cool."Sloan, you're my only brother. I care about you. Are you seeing someone?" Her eyes locked into his, just like they did when they were kids and she wanted him to tell the truth. Those days it was as simple as how she had made him promise that he wouldn't tell Mom and Dad when he saw her kissing their hot next-door neighbor who Sloan had the biggest crush on growing up.