I can't love you

I sat by the pool taking the night in and staring deep into nature .

I didn’t know if I should be feeling this way but I knew what I did was what I couldn’t understand, for the past few days I haven’t been able to understand my emotions and my way of thinking, I just did everything that I did out of my own state of mind and it was kind of weird like really weird that I had to do that much for a lady who was not into me.

“ but you were wrong with what you said to her “ my inner voice taunted me .

“ I know but that doesn’t mean that I have to do all of that to her like she serves it , the last time I made sure that I ordered everyone out of the shop just for her to be alone and I made sure I bought her a ring , I wanted everyone to see that she was already married and off the martlet and lastly ,I said some harsh words to her that I knew that I shouldn’t had said to her and that got me to get her friend to come over and then talk to her .

Whatever this woman was doing to me was obvi