I sat by the pool taking the night in and staring deep into nature .I didn’t know if I should be feeling this way but I knew what I did was what I couldn’t understand, for the past few days I haven’t been able to understand my emotions and my way of thinking, I just did everything that I did out of my own state of mind and it was kind of weird like really weird that I had to do that much for a lady who was not into me.“ but you were wrong with what you said to her “ my inner voice taunted me .“ I know but that doesn’t mean that I have to do all of that to her like she serves it , the last time I made sure that I ordered everyone out of the shop just for her to be alone and I made sure I bought her a ring , I wanted everyone to see that she was already married and off the martlet and lastly ,I said some harsh words to her that I knew that I shouldn’t had said to her and that got me to get her friend to come over and then talk to her .Whatever this woman was doing to me was obvi
The ride back to the mansion was the most quite one that I could ever imagine .I actually found it so hard to believe that I said such hurtful words to him and when I did , I never he hesitate to say it to his face and I knew the reasons why I did that , all the time when I was talking about there was just one person stuck on my head all along and I wished that it didn’t have to be him but there was nothing that I could do, it had always been him all along .“ Do you hate him that much that you had to say that to his face , for goodness sake you could see how hurt he looked but you never bothered to look back or even at least stay with him and make him happy ““It seems like you are forgetting that he is still your friend no matter how it turns out ““I do not want you running the beautiful friendship that you both had , that’s the last thing I would ever do “I actually do not see any reason why it should be that way .I turned to Bella , I didn’t know why I was so mad at her f
I stood outside my apartment obviously waiting for her .I didn’t need anyone to tell me that she is going to return .I knew I am the crazy one to have done something as crazy as that , but what could I do .I had to do something to make sure that this relationship of mine never goes to waste .After waiting for about an hour , I went into the house since it was already cold .I knew that wherever Bella was , she was cussing me out right now .I know her too much to think that she wouldn’t just let things go just like that .The woman that I know would never do that , but instead , she’s going to hurt me for leaving her , I knew that .“ you didn’t do what you did right , tell me Ryan , what more can I do to show you how much I love you “ The voice of Bella echoed in my head and when I turned I didn’t see anyone .For the first time in years I could feel the fears go down my spine .I knew I wasn’t one to be scared of stuffs like this but I knew that I had hurt her and de
For the past hour , I walked along the road with so many people giving me that weird look .If I was in their positions , I would have also given them that look .Just some days ago , I had been in the news that her new husband had taken her to shopping and even had the mall closed so that no one could disturb her shopping but right here I was thinking about what I am going to and when I was going to get home because the one person that I think really cared and loved never loved me as I thought and had the guts to drop me off on the road .The fact that she even called me a bitch pained me to my soul , it only showed me how bitter she had been towards me all this while but had just been trying to hide it in her heart .I hated her to the core and I am not going to deny that fact but what could I do? There was absolutely nothing that I could do at this point but to mourn my lost friendship that I knew had already been lost .I didn’t need anyone to tell me that she never lov
Chapter 38 The next few days Passed by as quickly as it could with the house being quiet .None of us had dared to say a word to the other , we tried all our next to make sure that we gave ourselves that privacy that we really deserved .What could I say , there was absolutely nothing that I could say at this point , all I knew was the fact That we tried our best not to run into each other while we maintained good morning and afternoon greetings at the dining table .Evrything was so weird and I knew that but for some good amount of reason this was exactly what I wanted I just wanted to be away for as much as I could because I had no fucking reasons to kiss him , like why should that happen in the first place .I didn’t know what had gotten into me but the last thing I knew was that the peck is the most stupidest thing that I had ever done and I really regret doing it and I shouldn’t have done it but the deed had been done and there was literally nothing that I could d
When we stopped at the dentals restaurant , I couldn’t help but smile at how beautiful it was .I actually wanted us to get here earlier because sitting in the car with this man all this while made me wonder if I was literally doing the right thing .I knew that whatever we both had was just because of the papers that we both signed and for nothing in this world , I didn’t want to get too attracted to him .Right now , I have no friends and I was just alone so that is the only reason why I decided to stay with this man. If not I would have been on my way earlier . Fred came out of the car the moment that he had stopped and he rushed to the other side of the car and opened the door for me with a big smile on his face .I knew that I had never seen him this happy in a while but it is a good thing that I am the source of his joy and if I stood a chance to make him happy all his life that’s exactly what I am going to do and I do not care how much it would have taken to do it , I j
"Home sweet home, "I thought to myself the moment I stepped out of the plane. The first thing that hit my skin was the cool breeze, it felt like it was a welcome back for me I walked through the airport as I dragged My traveling box along . I knew that a lot of things had changed when I left but never did I think that it was going to change this much. Australia had always been my home. It was just one year ago after I got married to my husband .Though the both of us had been dating for more than five years but it was after we got married that I got a call for the program that I had been waiting for my whole life It was a year-long program and so I had to be away for that long. All those while I made sure that I kept in touch with my husband . We called each other daily on video call and he made sure that I was always five , . I knew that we hadn't consummated our marriage before I left ,the program was more important to me and it was a good thing that Darren supported me and
My tears didn't stop as I sat in the taxi that I had stopped while going to my parent's home . My heart held so many things ,I wondered what my parents would say about it I told them I hated her , it was clear that she never really liked me but they never listened ,all they did was try to cover her up all the time I had been the one doing all the work in the company all these years ,clara Couldn't do anything ,all she did was walk around I tried to think about what to do ,I need to calm down I knew that I couldn't go in there ,I had just returned home and I needed time to thinkFor a second I wondered why my parents never really came to meet me at the airport even knowing that I was coming back After being away all this whileI paid the cab man off and with that, I walked into the familiar black gate that I grew up in Everywhere looked so calm and arranged and not even a thing had been changed and for a moment I wondered why it was still that way I knew that mom loved changing