CHRISTY:Too bad my husband did not love me at all, and this was one of the saddest things that happened in my relationship.“I am certain that these feelings will fade away in a matter of months. Like how it happened to my previous boyfriends,” I muttered which was a lie of course. “Bear with me, husband.”Removing these feelings? Stopping a flood was much easier than making my feelings for Everette disappear.I was certain this would not disappear at all. My feelings for him had already rooted in my chest and they wouldn’t be uprooted just like that. I needed something. A big reason why I should stop loving him. And I could not find anything at all. Everette was almost perfect, except for loving Eden until now. Everette straightened himself and shifted his attention to the window.“You are an amazing woman, kitten. I wanted to teach myself to love you. Aside from Eden, but…I don’t know. The thought of me loving someone else causes my heart to bleed.”I heaved a sigh and closed my
CHRISTY:My heart was bleeding and if only the blood could be out in a basin and be weighed it would weigh a lot. Everette never even filtered his words. The truth was...when it came to Eden, he looked like he was another person. And it fucking hurt a lot when he never considered my feelings when it comes to Eden.Why did all the men I chose to love were so complex? Could I love someone with a less messy life?“I never said that I want your love or you should reciprocate your feelings to me, Everette,” I said quietly. “I want to be clear on that.”His touch which brought peace to my chest became acidic, burning my body, and causing me a lot of pain. Still, I never bothered to break away from his touch.He heaved a sigh. “Just don’t... don’t order me to forget about her. It makes me mad. I’m getting sick of hearing it from my family and I did not want to hear it from you either, kitten. I brought you here because I thought you would understand what I felt.”You brought me here to infli
CHRISTY:May I cry now? May I scream in anger after hearing what my dear husband had just said? Awesome how Everette did not want to divorce me right away, but when it comes to Eden, he would. Without a doubt.I looked up and stared at the blue sky. How could I have missed it? It turned out, Everette was not that perfect. He had his own set of flaws which I only realized now. And everything was about Eden.“You will divorce me?” I asked, in disbelief. “Are you sure, my husband?” My voice was full of sarcasm.What was painful was that he never thought about it a couple of times. Which also meant he would rather want to lose me than Eden.In the end, I was replaceable. Always. “I will if it means shutting your mouth. My family was already giving me a hard time, kitten. I brought you here because I trusted you. But what are you doing? You’re breaking my trust, kitten.”“And because of that, you’re going to divorce me even if you already know my feelings for you? Even if I want to di
CHRISTY:Raven looked at me with a weird expression before asking, “Christina. You already have a husband, yet you’re still jealous of some random woman? Don’t tell me you still have feelings for me.”I gasped. “Jealous? Why would I?” I stared at him as if he had grown some pair of horns. “Are you freaking kidding me, Raven? Did you forget I was the one who broke up with you?”“It was me who initiated the breakup.”My forehead knotted. “It was you?” And I did not remember. Wait. What happened to my memories? Was it messed up already? I really believed it was me who broke up with him.Raven gave me a blank look. “You were the jealous type. Before. You wouldn’t even let me text my female friends.”I bet my lower lip. “Did I do that?” He broke up because I was the jealous type? Raven pocketed his hands. “You were like that and because of you, I never had another woman scared that she would be as jealous as you.”I mentally counted the last time we broke up and my eyes bulged. “You mean
CHRISTY:The car was filled with tension while I was fuming inside. Damn him! How dare he!Did my husband believe I was also happy ordering him to forget about his beloved Eden? No! I did not want to be the antagonist in his life. This was also difficult for me! Why cannot he believe that?Why would he when he clearly believed you were the only one who would benefit if he would forget about his feelings with his beloved Eden? It was not true!“Hate me all you want, Everette but I won’t stop ordering you what you should be doing,” I answered. “I don’t care if you believe I am an antagonist in your life as long as I should be doing what should be right.”“I thought you would be the first one who would understand me, kitten.”“Don’t use my feelings, husband. For six months, I have the right to dictate to you since you are my husband,” I clarified.He smirked in the mirror. Glancing at me and back on the road, he said, “You were the one who kept on reminding me that this is nothing but
CHRISTY:If my husband ever agreed to this divorce, I did not know how I could heal my heart. It would take maybe a couple of years or maybe forever to heal the wound from our breakup. “I could not give you the answer right now, kitten. Give me some time to think.”“What's there to think when you are already weary of me? My pen is always ready to sign the divorce papers.”His lips pressed into a thin line. “Why are you always in a haste to divorce me? Does it have something to do with the mayor? You love him that much?”I leaned on the seat and smiled bitterly. “Do I look like I still love Raven?” I inquired.Long silence flowed and I thought that he would never answer me, but he said, “Your happiness was genuine when you were with him. You have feelings for him and you also told me about it. Loving two people at the same time.”Oh. I did say that. But unknown to him, I was only lying to him at that time. “I was only having a good time with him,” I explained. “We never had the cha
CHRISTY:My phone rang again and without making Mom wait, answered it. “What’s going on?” I asked. “Was that a prank, Mom? Or is this some kind of joke?” My voice trembled in the end as I held my phone close to my ear.My throat went dry as I waited for my mother's reply. “A prank? Is that the result of watching nonsense videos? You think your Dad's life is some sort of joke?” Mom snapped on the other side of the line. Fuck. Oh, gahd. My heart hammered against my chest. Dad and I had no great relationship, but…he was still my parent. I…I did not want anything bad to happen to him. “Didn’t you read my text? I brought your dad to the hospital. You give me money for his hospital bill. You pay the hospital bills,” she reiterated. “Why?” I asked, trying to contain my fear. Outside, my husband had been trying to talk to me, but I no longer had the time to focus on him. Right now, my dad was more important. “Is this serious, Mom, or you are only using Dad to ask for money from me?”I
CHRISTY:It had been three days since Dad's wake. It was supposed to be only a day, based on Mom’s decision, but it was I who insisted that we should do the wake for three days. That would be enough for me to prepare myself to say my goodbyes and memorize Dad’s face. I wanted to look at him even for the last time until I was satisfied. Until I forgive and accept that he won’t ever go back. His dead body was brought to my parent’s home and tomorrow was the day of the funeral. All his siblings had already gathered together except my brother who did not even show his shadow or his family. No one talked about him. It felt like there was an unwritten rule that no one should be mentioning about my brother. Ben.Will he not really see Dad? I understand that he might have ill feelings towards our parents, but those were never enough so that he wouldn't see him for the last time.I closed my eyes for a moment, then opened it again as I continued watching the casket in front of me. My eyeli