A Look From Another Side

Every night when I sleep, I just remember her crying out my name. In my every dream, I just remember that I was just so coward that I didn't help her. Every morning, I wake up in this guilt that due to my coward nature, she had to lose her life and, I am living a life full of freedom here. Every day, they help me, not forget the sins I've committed. Every second, they try to make me just end my life somehow. But I want to observe this world, I want to see how cruel they can be. And that day, when I'll be done, I will hang myself on through the ceiling.

Suddenly the darkroom in which I was sitting got filled with light as someone opened the door. 

'Why are the lights off?' She said and turned on the lights.

'Hey you, Leo.' She said to me.

'It's time for your treatment to come with me.' She said and dragged me out.

That nurse was not so polite. She was a fat old lady, with a small height. Her voice was very loud and deep, just l