Rejena
The Dalon Sorrin has my hand in his, shaking it and pretending to be someone else. Fine, I can play along. Instead of giving him my own name, I give him my pen name. Technically, I am not completely lying about who I am. I am Jane Carter, but only on the cover of books that can only be viewed on apps at the moment, but I am working on getting something on paper, getting it out there for the world to see. That is why I brought my typewriter that I was gifted by someone that always believed in me more than I ever believed in myself, but haven’t truly taken the time to actually write on. I am hoping that if I write on the typewriter, I won’t be able to post the books online again and I can actually take my time to finish the book and try to get it published through a company or go the self-publishing route. I know a typewriter is probably not the ideal way to go about it, but I have found a really cool app that can take scanned documents and turn it into a word document, so that is how I will be able to edit it and get it out there, but until then, I need to learn to finish a book before I put it out there for the world to see.
“At my service, you say.” He says with a teasing tilt of his lips, and I nearly melt. How I am going to keep this up and not ask him all three hundred questions I have about how it feels to drive a Formula 1 car, I have no idea. Something tells me though he needs a break from his life, and I can understand that. So, if he needs to be someone else, then I will give him the space to be someone else. I allow myself to let my eyes wonder over him, taking in the shorts and the fact that he is bare chested in front of me, sweat glistening on his very tanned skin. I wish I could run my hands up his body, but that is not what you do the first time you meet someone. He has his trusted hat on, this one without any logo’s to say that he is a driver for Maclaren. His eyes are this beautiful hazel that reminds me of a grove of trees with all different colors, but somehow when you take it in as a whole, they turn into his eyes. He licks his lips and I have to focus really hard on the fact that he was saying something and I probably need to respond. “I realize now that it sounds like I am offering myself up, but that is not the case.” I tell him, a blush staining my cheeks. I can’t remember the last time I slept with a man and honestly, every time so far has been a real bad disappointment, and I am not interested in going down that route again any time soon, not even with Dalon freaken Sorrin. “That is a shame, but I do have other ways for you to be of assistance.” He says and I really wish I could stop blushing. It is then that I realize my hand is still in his, and I slowly start to pull it out. He quickly let’s go as if only now realizing the same thing I did. “I seem to be in need of someone that is able to speak Italian as I can’t even understand more than five words of Italian and my friend and I are starving. English doesn’t seem to be a big deal around here.” He says, looking down at his hand in confusion before looking back up at me with that smile that is going to make me pregnant without even having to touch me. “Well, you are out of luck in that area. The best I can do is order you a coffee. I didn’t think much further than that when I decided to book my ticket and come here.” I tell him, which is more or less true. I know how to introduce myself and say where I am from, not that anyone has asked. Other than that, I can order coffee, tea and a croissant. I am far more efficient in French than I am in my Italian. “I could really do with a coffee.” He says, running a hand through his hair, starting to look nervous. I was making Dalon, the man who drives a car at impossible speeds around curves that would have me up against the wall quicker than I can drop my panties. Just as I am about to tell him to sit, a man comes up behind him. “Da-“ Dalon turns around quicker than he drives and stops his friend before he can say his full name. “Mario, this is Jane. She is another tourist in this very tiny town. She was just laughing at how my mother must have loved Titanic if she named me Jack Dawson.” He says, clearly trying to bring his friend up to speed about the fact that he lied about who he is. I just sit back and watch the show, and I must say, it is the most entertaining show I have watched in a while. Mario, that name sounds familiar. It clicks then that this is Dalon’s trainer and also his close friend if the news were right about that. “Oh yes, his mother was completely in love with that man. Don’t tell his father.” Mario looks like he is trying not to laugh at Dalon while also trying to support his friend. “Are you staying in the guest house?” He asks and I try not to laugh at that. There is only one guest house. Where else would I be staying? “The one and only.” I say with a chuckle. “Well, we need to head back.” Mario says, giving Dalon a look that says there is no space to argue. “It was nice meeting you, Jane.” He says, practically dragging Dalon away from me. I wave after them and then wonder if it was Dalon that I heard in the room next to where I am staying. Only one way to find out, I guess. I spend a few more hours wondering through the streets after I got my coffee. I can already feel the jetlag pulling me under, but I refuse to go down without a fight. When I start to feel like I am sleepwalking, I head back to the café and order a coffee and a cappuccino, not sure which he would prefer, and I also ask for some sugar on the side. When the coffee arrives, I make my way back to the guest house. Luckily the guest house isn’t took far from where we are staying and I can at least still keep my eyes slightly open as I make my way up the stairs. I quickly put the coffee down on the ground and for a moment I struggle to get back up. I consider for a moment just staying here, knock on the door and wait for him to open, but the wave of darkness that clouds my vision tells me that I would probably end up falling asleep against the door before he can open it. Instead of waiting, I just knock on the door and then slip into my own room. He will probably know who it is from. When I make it into my room, I fall face first on my bed, not bothering to undress or to take off my glasses. I have contact lenses somewhere in my bag. If my glasses break, I can just stick to wearing my contacts, even if the things irritate me to no end. I don’t last long enough to listen for his door opening.Dalon“How is she doing?” I ask Tiane, remembering how much weight Jena had lost the last time I had been stupid and walked away from her, leaving her in tears at that airport in Italy. She had looked hollow back then and that was when she had barely known me, had barely had time to fall for me. Now that I know how she felt about me, how her feelings had grown just as mine had, I am worried that she might be a broken shell of herself, and it would all be my fault.“She looks happy. Free even, if that makes any sense. She is here, you know.” She says, and I stop breathing. Here? In Italy? I didn’t even know Tiane was here. We had agreed to keep a distance until the media had died down, but she is here, and so is Jena.“The two of you are together?” I ask, confused. I knew that they were talking, that Tiane had reached out to apologize to Jena, even thought she had nothing to apologize for as this was all on me. According to her, Jena forgive her without much fight and she even talks to
Rejena“Are you sure you still want to do this?” Dan asks, sitting in front of me, looking like his same old self, but there is an exciting buzz around him, mixed with sadness. “He is with someone else, Jena. You don’t have to leave here.” He says and I know he isn’t trying to hurt me, but his words cut deeper than a knife.“It has nothing to do with Dalon, Dan. I am doing this for me. You know I enjoyed working on the social committee more than I ever loved the numbers. I am a creative person that had to become someone willing to settle in order to survive. I am done just living for a salary and going home only to do it all over again every single day. I found myself, regardless of what happened between Dalon and I, and I am not going back to what I was doing. That isn’t living. You have your beautiful wife and daughter to go back to every night. I have my dogs, yes, but that is it. I want to see what life has to offer and I am sorry to say this, but I am not going to find what you h
DalonI fucked up, big time. There is no denying that. As I pace up and down in my hotel room, Tiane lying on the bed that I won’t be touching again, even if she is lying there fully clothed, reading the book that I haven’t been able to read because I stopped going to school when I was fifteen and couldn’t split my focus between my racing career and attending classes and studying for exams. I did get my GED, but even that was by pure luck. I can read, but it is a struggle, and I wish I had just told Jena that from the start instead of pretending that letters didn’t get mixed around in my head and what would take the average person minutes to read a passage would take me half an hour.After Jena left the restaurant, nearly getting hit by a car in the process, I went back to Tiane and asked her for her help. I need to know what Jena said in this book. As Tiane reads the book out load, I start to feel more and more sick by the second. I read the first six chapters, but that was basicall
RejenaI didn’t have something that I would consider classy, so after I sent my resignation letter, informing HR that I will be doing my exit interview in three days, I decided to go out and find something that will hopefully knock the breath right out of Dalon. Tonight, I am going to tell him exactly how I feel. No more beating around the bush. I want a life with him and I want to be by his side as his woman, not as a friend or a potential partner. I want to be his partner, his cheerleader, his biggest supporter. I don’t want to wonder if we will ever be more, or if he might not truly be as interested as I think he is. I want to know, and I want him to know. He might have read my book, but I can understand if he might not be sure if I still feel the same.I choose a daring black dress that sits on me like a second skin. The front drops low enough to show cleavage, but still decent enough that the girls will stay in place and not look ready to slip out and flash the public. At my thig
DalonJena didn’t even realize that I had walked in on her conversation. Admittedly, I only heard the end of the conversation, but it was all I needed to hear. She is going home, and she isn’t giving me much warning. She is doing exactly what I had done to her when I had left Italy. She might give me last-minute notice, but that is it. Did I read too much into last night? Did I scare her off by sleeping in the same bed? Or was it the fact that I brought her to my home?Instead of trying to figure out myself what the hell I had done wrong, I call my group chat for advice. Yes, I know how bizarre it is that I have a group chat, but we practically see each other ten months out of the year, we were bound to for a bond that very few would understand, and if anyone is going to be able to give me advice on what to do, it will be the drivers that I have spent the past five years with.“Really Dalon, this early in the morning? You know, unlike you, we were actually at the party last night.” Ca
RejenaThere is only an hour time difference between the UK and South Africa, but still I sit at my laptop at 4am, trying to get a head start on all my work in the hopes that I can log off early and spend some time with Dalon. Waking up, wrapped around him, his hand holding onto my knee protectively as if he is afraid to hurt me even in his sleep, has made this yearning for him grow tenfold. I no longer just want to see where this will go, I want this to work more than anything else. The only problem is, I miss my life, my dogs, my parents, my sister and brother. I can’t say I particularly miss my friends, as we have all drifted apart after Collen passed away and I had poured myself into my work.My phone vibrating on the table next to me, has my nearly jumping, not expecting anyone to call me this early in the morning. When I look at my phone and see that it is Dan, dread floods my system. It is never a good thing if he calls me this early in the morning.“Good morning Dan, isn’t it