Chapter 3

Balqis’s POV

A month later—

“Bally, are you vomiting again?” Nirvana asked from the living room.

I flushed the stench and came out of the bathroom exhaustedly. “I really don’t know what I ate. Perhaps I danced too much last night. Can I borrow a few cents to get some drugs?”

“Go check my purse, you’ll see-“

“You’re not getting any drugs!” Mrs Kathy, my stepmom, interrupted, coming into the living room.

We both looked back. “Why did you say that mum? She has been vomiting for the past two days now”

“Are you both idiots?” The mother fired angrily and I frowned, my brow creased in confusion just like Nirvanas. “Balqis is pregnant!!” Mrs Kathy announced before grabbing the remote control.

My heart slammed immediately, currents of shock ran through my veins, “You say what mum?”

“When last have you seen your period?” She asked, casting me a mocking glance.

“But I-“ I stopped immediately I remembered that I haven’t seen my period this month indeed.

But how did I- Nirvana’s eyes and I met and we both yelled in unison as if we’re both thinking the same thing. Adonai!!!

I..I’m pregnant with Gamma Adonai’s child?

No. It can’t be. “See Mum, we can’t just jump into conclusions like that. You know-“

“Don’t give me that crap. I know better than you” she yelled, finally setting my heart in flames.

I looked at Nirvana who shook her head desperately, telling me not to involve her no matter the case.

Nirvana was bethroded to the Alpha’s son and their marriage was set for next month.

As expected of a bride to be, she should be of the best behaviour as any slight mistake could send her and her family’s head rolling on the floor.

When have I seen Gamma Adonai last? Because ever since that day, I made sure that I don’t let him meet me, as I don’t want to repeat that mistake again!

Even when he came to our house with the Alpha’s son entourage to see Nirvana, I had hid from him.

But now, I’m pregnant with his child?

No it can’t be. Mrs Kathy went upstairs again and while she was gone, Nirvana rushed to me. “Balqis, Gamma Adonai cummed into you?”

I pushed her back, “All these happened because of you! If you didn’t sleep with Julius I won’t be compelled into doing it”

Mrs Kathy came back work PT strip and handed it to me, “Go test yourself”

“Mum this is not necessary” Nirvana pressed. “Balqis can actually take care of herself even if she’s really…”

“Take care of herself by abortion?” The woman fired at her daughter again. Nirvana kept quiet and I felt I need this confirmation, or else, I’m going to loose my mind.

***

Mrs Kathy and Nirvana paced up and down, sighing simultaneously while I sat on the sofa like a lost soul.

I stared at the little device lying on the table, the message flashing on it haunting my brain the more I look at it; “PREGNANT”

After pacing for what seemed like ages, Nirvana stopped and stamped her feet to the floor. “Balqis you’re aborting this pregnancy” she concluded.

I didn’t move from my spot. I just listened with several possibilities running through my mind.

Can I take care of a child alone? No right? I don’t even have a stable job than to dance and get peanuts from Mrs Kathy.

Julius still hold on to the fact that I slept with his friend, then what will he think of me if he heard that I’m now pregnant?

“Stop talking about abortion like it’s a good thing!” Mrs Kathy fired back at her daughter. “She was impregnated by Gamma Adonai right? Then let’s go and tell him”

“Mum!” Nirvana warned. “How sure are you that he would want a child?”

Mrs Kathy stopped in her tracks and her piercing wicked eyes locked into mine. “Then she shouldn’t have laid her pussy down for him to fuck!”

Cold shivers run down my spine as she said this. Only if I hadn’t gone to his house that day to find Julius, then I wouldn’t be facing this now.

But now, I have two options laid before me. Either get an abortion or inform him.

“No!” I jaunt into the mother and daughter complaints, making them look at me with confusion.

I stood up, each word I was about to say chocking my throat like tiny little needles. “I will go and tell Gamma Adonai about this myself”

I turned to the stairs. “Mum is right. I laid my pussy for him and he should take responsibilities for this”

“Balqis” Nirvana called and I turned. For the first time, I caught a concerned gaze on her face as she asked. “Can you handle it alone? Should I come with you?”

I forced a smile, “You don’t have to” She’s the reason why I’m in this mess anyway. No amount of her kindness would make me ever forgive her.

I departed upstairs with tears running down my eyes. Why did this have to happen at my first time in sleeping with another man.

How could I not even know when he was emptying his scrotum into my womb?

I changed my dress with tears and came down the stairs but Nirvana stopped me halfway through. “Go back upstairs, Balqis”

I tried pushing my way through her, “Nirv let me go”

She held me back yet, her voice but trying to break. “For your own sake go back upstairs”

Her mum was standing before the TV frozen and this hinted me that something is happening.

“No Nirv” I argued and force my way out of her grip and rushed to the TV only to see the most gruesome news flashing.

“No” I shook my head, withdrawing. “This can’t be true”

Nirvana rushed to me and held me. “Take heart Balqis. The goddess knows the best”

“No!!!” I cried painfully wishing the news was false. “Nothing must happen to Adonai at this time!”

I yelled at the top of my voice. My chest hurt painfully from crying too much.

Showing on the TV were the photos taken from an accident scene and not an ordinary accident scene but a plane crash involving none other than Gamma Adonai — the father of the baby I was carrying right now!