ASA
" Don't say that." I say. Ramona is so close right now. And this feels so wrong. Her tits are nearly touching my chest and I want to move away from her.
" Why? I'm not allowed to voice out how much I missed you and how I couldn't stop thinking about you. God, Ace you don't know how many nights I stayed awake hoping things would have turned out different." She says and she's about to sob. Something I can't stand. A woman's tears.
" So now we're talking about you. What you went through and all that. What about me?" I snarl at her.
" I want you, Ace." She whispers, her hand cupping my cheek as she stares into my eyes.
I sigh and shake my head as I remove her hand.
AVAI leave Asa's bedroom and shut it with the keys I took from his nightstand. I'm still exhausted. I crave a good bath and food. I turn to look at Nick's bedroom. I haven't seen him since yesterday and I'm still feeling guilty. We need to talk. I need to talk to him and apologize. I guess I fucked up real bad. Maybe I wasn't really supposed to give Asa my virginity. But he was who I wanted.I walk to Nick's door and knock. There's no response. I knock again, this time I push the door open. His room is dark and the drapes are drawn closed. I enter and shut the door. I see Nick on his bed. Shirtless with just his sweatpants. His hair kinda looks messy and he looks like he's asleep." Nick." I call his name.He l
AVA"...happy birthday dear Asa, happy birthday to you." I finish singing and Asa is still laughing." Duh, I know I'm a bad singer." I say and shrug.He chuckles. " What? Fuck, no, you sing great." I roll my eyes. " I'm not fucking teasing you, you're great." He winks at me.I giggle and smile. My thoughts are still crowded with what Asa said to me earlier. How I was a special present to him. My heart won't stop skipping beats." So what do you always do on your birthdays?"" Nothing. Smoke, get high and maybe get a hoe. And that was like four years ago. Now I don't do much."" Why
ASAI wrap my arms around Ava's waist as we walk into the cinema. Not in a million years did I ever think I would watch a movie in a cinema. Thanks to having a family who's involved in illegal shit. But since Ava walked into my life, things haven't been the same. I do stuff I never thought I would do.And watching that blond douche talked to her annoyed the shit out of me. She is mine. Mine to look at, and mine to keep. I stare down at her as she talk about how we're going to enjoy the movie we're about to watch. I don't really care about the movie she wants to watch. As long as I'm watching it with her, I'm okay.As she continues to talk on our way to the cinema, I can't take my eyes off of her. How her lips move when she pronounces the simplest of words a
AVA " Who the fuck is this?" I stay put on the counter, trying as much to disappear from her cold and hateful glare. I totally forgot the first day she barged into Asa's penthouse, she didn't see me. She was busy trying to seduce Asa and reminding him of whatever past they shared together. I roll my eyes and scoff. My eyes scan her outfit, a red tight dress that's too revealing. Obviously, she's here to seduce Asa. I wonder who is she? How they managed to know each other. She doesn't look like 'Athena' kinds of girls. Obviously she's not from a Mafia family like the Xavier's and I'm wondering who's she. She looks like these rich girls. These girls who think the world rests on their shoulders. I know she's rich and I won't deny the fact that they look perfect for each other. She's beautiful, classy, well fit, and from a wealthy family. Maybe they met at a party. Or maybe a club. I am jealo
AVA Stepping out of Asa's penthouse, I'm regretting that I shouldn't have left. I had doubts. Maybe I should have stayed and talked about things with him. See how I can possibly help him. But at that moment, the best thing to do is to leave. I guess that's the best option to help both of us. I walk into the mansion. Surprisingly, it's busy. With different henchmen going about their daily business. I walk past the kitchen to my room but stop when I see Nick climb down the staircase. I run my fingers down my arms and watch him approach me. I'm surprised he is smiling at me. I thought he was mad at me." Are you okay?" He asks and stops in front of me. He looks like he's about to go out because of the way he's dressed. A Black two piece suit with a white dress shirt. He looks really sexy and I'm reminded of my broken heart, Ramona and Asa." Yeah. Happy late birthday. S
AVA I hear Valerie's bitter laugh. God I fucking hate this bitch. I look out the window and they're gone. Except his car that's parked outside the restaurant. I know what we had wasn't a relationship but we own each other. He doesn't get to sleep with other women, especially his ex." I'm not surprised you sold yourself to the Xavier's just to live like this. Clothes?" I turn to look at Valerie. She's scowling at me. Fuck this shit. I've had enough of this bitch." Look at you, you're fuckin' older than me and you're fucking dumb. You couldn't even do good with your life. You're a fucking stripper Val."" Yeah and I'm not ashamed of it. You have nothing Ava. You and I know you were sold to the Xavier's, you fucking thief." I clench my fist. I badly wanna ram fist into her fake cheek right now. I bite my lip in anger. I don't have time for this." You remember in that storage room in Cunningham's bi
ASAMan, fuck this shit. I pull out a cigarette from Nicholas's pack and light it. Taking in a long drag, I stare at the ceiling and spur out the smoke. This is hard. Falling in love is hard. It has always been hard and I hate myself for forgetting so soon. Nick sits back as he watches me with his shit eating grin. What did I get myself into?" What did she say?" Nick asks. I don't wanna talk to nobody. Thinking about the look on her face, I wanna punch something. Someone, anyone at all. I fall back on the couch and run my hands down my hair as I inhale the cancer stick. Why did I tell her I was in love with her? I couldn't help it. I guess it was time to finally tell her how much I feel towards her. That I was tired of pretending the sex we've been having is meaningless, when all this time it meant a lot to me. And the minute I opened my mouth to tell her I
AVA" I knew you were going to hurt me, but I didn't realize it was this soon."His words continue to ring in my head every passing day. The hurt in his eyes burnt deep cuts into my heart every time I closed my eyes. How did I fuck this one up again? I can't sleep at night. I just can't. The guilt is eating me up and I want to see him again. To apologize and pour out all the feelings I've been hiding, locking away. I feel like shit and I hate myself for hurting the one man who treated me like I'm the only girl in the world. Who made me feel like a queen even if I don't deserve it. Why did I do this? Maybe he's right, I'm no different from Ramona. It's been one week, one week since he told me he loved me. One week since he opened his heart and confessed how much he felt about me and how he wanted to keep me. To make me his. And all I did was stare at him. Because I don't deserve him. All I've done was hurt him and used him to satisf