เข้าสู่ระบบTessa“Easy, Lucas! Don’t go near the shore. The waves are strong.”Logan shouted and trailed behind our over excited son who was running along the shore. The pink sky, the sun setting in the west horizon. The water looked like an ocean of lava as the sun was casting its last rays.The evening was beautiful. We were together, the three of us. A perfect family time how I always pictured but there was a storm brewing inside me.I couldn’t find the peace that I once searched.“Mommy, Dad! See what I have found.” Lucas picked something from the sand and ran to us.“Lucas, please, don’t run without us by your side because the waves are strong.” Logan sat down on the damp sand.“Mommy, I found a beautiful sea shell.” He opened his tiny palm and with excitement, he showed me the small treasure that he had secured.“It’s beautiful, Lucas. We’ll collect them in a jar but for that we have to come here in the morning. It’s getting dark now.” I said taking the piece from him.“Dad, let’s take a s
TessaTwo pink lines on the sticks left no room for any doubt.I was pregnant.I took four tests and they all turned out positive means I was indeed pregnant.“Tessa, are you okay? If you need some time to yourself then I can leave you alone.” Ruby’s low voice broke the eerie silence inside the bathroom.It was her who bought me the pregnancy test kits and insisted that I should confirm my doubts while I was constantly rejecting her assumptions but it turned out that she was right.“I am fine, Ruby. The truth won’t change.” I sighed and collected the sticks. I couldn’t risk it throwing in the restroom dustbin.It was also a special symbol because I had never taken one before because I used to be on pills and Logan always used protection before except the last two times when he left his seeds inside me.And now a new life was growing inside me.“I shouldn’t be asking you this but..are you happy?” Ruby asked with a mixture of hesitation and concern.I shook my head.“I don’t know but I
Tessa“I love you, Mommy.” Lucas kissed my cheek.“Mommy loves you too, Lukie. Now go or your teacher will scold you.” I patted his head as he was about to enter inside the gates of the school.“Are we going to the beach in the evening? Please, don’t break the promise like last time.” I asked me for confirmation.“Yes, Lucas. I promise we won’t ditch you this time.” I pinched my throat to symbolize my promise.Last time, after our heartfelt moment, we decided to go to the beach but Kevin felt sick so we had to visit him in that evening. After that both I and Logan got busy in our respective works.It was Friday and we had the weekend to find family time for Lucas’ sake.Parenting for me and Logan became like walking on egg shells ever since we told Lucas the truth about Raelynn. It was too harsh for a small kid but he took it patiently but his clinginess doubled. He didn’t let me go of his sight.I felt lighter because hiding the truth from him was also wrong.Upon reaching office, I
Logan Lucas was sitting in front of me, his head lowered and hands folded.He was an obedient boy who agreed to talk to me but I could tell that he was very upset with me and it was visible in his actions.“Lucas, for how long are you going to avoid me like this?I sighed in exasperation because it was more challenging than I thought.“Dad, I am angry.” He confessed.My boy was honest with his thoughts and opinion and never sugar coat anything.“With me or Raelynn?” I asked because it was important for me to know before I tried to do the damage control.“Both. I don’t like her because she is mean to Mom and she tries to come close to you. I am not a fool, Dad.” He replied.“Lucas, please, don’t use such strong word because there’s something you need to know about Raelynn. I and your Mom tried to tell you this but we were afraid of losing you.” I said.My heart was beating with nervousness.He finally looked up.“Dad…” His eyes showed the same fear and he squirmed on his seat.“Raelyn
Logan I felt like a weight had been lifted from my heart when I expressed what I had been feeling for a long time.I might still be in love with Raelynn but I couldn’t deny that I developed feelings for Tessa as well. It couldn’t be deciphered.This was my biggest problem because I had to choose one.Either Raelynn who had waited for me patiently, the woman who made me familiar with the world ‘love’.Or it’s Tessa, my arranged wife who silently left a permanent imprint on my life. Her actions spoke louder than her words. A woman who devoted herself without expecting anything from me in return.A woman whom I trust with my son blindly because no one could love Lucas like she did.I tilted my head and stared at the innocent beauty who was sleeping peacefully beside me. A smile involuntarily spread on my lips because Felix’s advice finally made sense to me.He was right. I couldn’t live happy if I had to imagine a life without Tessa.Her face twitched when her hair strands fell on her f
TessaMy heart was pounding rapidly inside my chest like it’d explode any moment when he said that I was his wife and our differences actually affected him.No words were needed between us. I could read through those eyes.Something had shifted but I needed to hear it from him.“Be careful with your words, Logan.” I warned him a low voice but instead of my warnings, he closed the gap between us.“I meant what I said, Tessa. I hate it when someone tries to get close to you and it had made me realise how you would have felt when you saw me with Raelynn. We’re married, no matter what the circumstances were, our relationship comes with this natural feeling of hurt and insecurity.”I looked away to hide my tears from him because it was true.“But it’s too late for this realisation, Logan. The damage is already done and I have dealt with my pain.” I said without any emotion.“I am sorry.”Three words said with depth made me speechless.“Logan, say it when you actually feel it otherwise this
Tessa Walking aimlessly in at the riverbank, rewinding Logan’s declarative words and also sinking the infused humiliation, I didn’t know for how long I blamed myself for bringing this upon myself.The young, naïve girl who wanted to marry the love of her life, who was confident that one day her lo
Logan“Logan, how’s this one? I’ll place it on the centre table of the living room.”Raelynn’s exciting voice pulled me out of my reverie and I looked up at her who was holding a marble décor piece in her hands, waiting for my opinion.“It’s beautiful. Your choice is always the best. Please, don’t
Tessa “Happy birthday, Dad!”Lucas wished his father in the happiest voice, leaping and running towards his father who walked out of his room. Logan immediately knelt down and kissed his son’s forehead and then hugged him.“Thank you, Luke. Where is Dad’s gift?” Logan’s eyes shone the happiness he
Tessa The ride back home was filled with heavy awkwardness. We didn’t stay for long at the party because Lucas was tired and he had school next day. Lucas was sitting between us so it gave me some space to breathe normally. Logan’s intense stares whenever Adrian tried to talk to me, even he was o







