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The church in Greyfen was deserted under the late afternoon light. Thin stained glass colors stretched across the stone floor.

The usual small crowd filled a few pews, old women with worn rosaries, a couple of mothers with restless kids, the regulars who came no matter the day. Marcus moved through the liturgy, his voice monotonous, his hands in constant motion. He had done this for years. He loved the routined practical nature of it.

Then his eyes landed on her.

Lola stood near the side aisle with the other ushers. She had lived in Greyfen her whole life. Everyone knew her. She was the introverted deaf woman who helped at Mass, collecting the bulletins and guiding people to seats when needed.

Marcus had seen her for years. She was part of the background of the parish, always there, silent and efficient. He had never really looked at her before. Not like this.

Then something had suddenly changed.

She watched the altar with focused attention, lips slightly parted, reading the shape of the words more than anything else. When she stepped forward to help an older woman into a pew, her hands moved clean and sure with no fuss or sound. Just normal work.

Marcus felt his gaze stick. He found himself noticing the way she stood, the way her dark hair pulled back, the plain blouse that sat soft against her chest, the faint color on her cheeks from the warm air in the church.

He forced his eyes back to the missal and kept going. Where was he? Right, right. Consecration. Elevation. Fraction.

But every time he looked up, though, his eyes found her again, tracing the line of her neck, observing the way her fingers rested on the hymnal she could not hear, the small movements of her body as she shifted her weight.

Heat started low in his belly, unwanted and strong. His cock began to thicken under the cassock. He shifted his stance and gripped the altar edge so hard he was afraid he would shatter it.

He told himself it was nothing. A random human physical reaction. Priests were still men. Bodies did what they did. He had dealt with it before, pushed the thoughts down, locked them away. But this… this hit him harder than he had ever experienced.

By the time he gave the final blessing his hands were shaking, and the cloth against his cock was already damp.

After Mass he stayed longer than usual, talking with the few people who lingered, smiling as casually as he could.

Lola moved through the emptying church picking up leftover bulletins. Her steps made almost no sound. Once she glanced toward the altar. Their eyes met for a second. Something passed between them. A familiar recognition. Was it a spark of something? He could not tell.

She looked away quickly and kept working. Marcus felt it settle in his chest and stay there. He did not communicate with her. He did not trust what might come out of him.

When the last person left and the doors were locked, the light outside had started to fade. The sacristy was cool and dim. It smelled of wax, old wood, and polished metal.

Marcus shut the door behind him and leaned against it. His heart still beat too hard. His cock was fully hard now, pressing against the fabric, the head wet enough to leave a dark mark.

He should have gone to the rectory. He should have prayed. He should have forced the picture of her out of his head. He had forced unwanted thoughts away before. This shouldn’t be hard.

Instead he locked the door.

The bolt clicked loud in the quiet room.

Marcus turned toward the vestment cabinet. His hands were already on the buttons of his cassock. He pulled it off and dropped it. The collar came next.

Underneath he wore a thin shirt and black trousers that did nothing to hide the thick shape of his erection. He undid the trousers and shoved them down with his underwear until they bunched at his ankles.

His cock sprang free, heavy and flushed, the tip already shiny with precum.

He took hold of himself instantly.

The first stroke was rough. He braced one arm against the cabinet and worked his fist in a tight rhythm, eyes half shut.

The memory of Lola filled his head right away—the way her body swayed left and right when she walked the aisle, the soft pull of her blouse across her chest when she reached for a bulletin, the plumpness of her pink, glossed mouth. He pictured that mouth open.

He pictured her hands instead of his. His hips pushed forward into his grip.

“Lola,” he whispered against the wood.

He stroked harder, twisting on the upstroke, thumb spreading the wetness down the underside. The slick sound of his fist filled the room. His breathing grew rough.

He thought of her watching him lead mass, the rosy color of her cheeks, how she might look if she were on her knees in front of him right now; eyes up, lips around him. The image hit hard. His balls tightened. His free hand gripped the cabinet edge until the wood creaked.

He did not slow down. The guilt sat right there sharp and familiar, the weight of every priestly vow ringing in his head. But it only made the heat worse. Every stroke felt like falling farther, and the fall only made him harder. He said her name again, louder, the word broken by the pull of his hand.

“Lola… fuck…”

His hips snapped forward. The head of his cock was dark and wet, the shaft slick enough that every stroke glided easy and filthy. He pictured her eyes on him the way they had been for that one second in the church — knowing. He pictured her watching him do this, while he came apart for the thought of her. That was enough.

Marcus came with a low, broken sound, forehead pressed hard against the vestment cabinet as the first thick pulse of semen hit the dark wood.

He kept stroking through it, pulling every spurt out, whispering her name again and again while his cock jerked and emptied in long ropes.

Come ran down the cabinet door in slow white trails. His thighs shook. His breath came hard and uneven.

He stayed there a long moment, still holding himself, the last weak pulses leaking over his knuckles, her name still on his lips.