LOGINLola had been watching Father Marcus for weeks.
She could not hear the soft cadence of his voice during Mass, but she watched his mouth form the words. She had grown skilled at reading lips. She studied the precise shape of his lips when he spoke the prayers, the way his throat moved, the small crease that appeared between his brows when he was concentrating. She watched his hands most of all. He had long fingered hands that turned the pages of the missal or lifted the chalice with reverence. Those hands haunted her. At night, alone in her house at the edge of town, the silence that always surrounded her became somehow denser. She would undress slowly, climb into bed, and let her mind fill with him. One hand would slide down her stomach and then between her legs. She was always already wet by the time her fingers found her clit. She rubbed slow, firm circles, imagining those priestly hands instead of her own. She would push two fingers into her pussy and fuck herself with them, hips rolling up to meet each thrust. Sometimes she bit the inside of her cheek hard enough to taste copper so she wouldn’t make any sound, even though there was no one to hear her. When she came, her thighs shook and her free hand gripped the sheets. Afterward she would lie there breathing hard, still thinking of Father Marcus’s eyes, the way they sometimes lingered on her a second longer than necessary. She arrived early one Tuesday afternoon to prepare the altar for the mid week Mass. The church was empty, the late light falling through the stained glass windows in soft bands of color across the pews. She moved through the pews with the ease of long practice, heading to the door to sacristy. She pushed it open without knocking. She had never really thought of it. It really wasn’t a private room. Father Marcus stood with his back half-turned to her. His black cassock was shoved up around his waist. One hand was wrapped tightly around his cock. He was stroking it in long, urgent pulls, the head flushed dark and shiny with pre-come. His eyes were closed. His lips were moving. Lola froze. She could not hear whatever he was saying, but she could see the shape of the word on his mouth. The same shape again and again. Her name, Lola. Her pulse slammed in her throat. She must have made some small movement probably while shifting her weight, or the soft scrape of her shoe on the floor, because his eyes opened. They locked on hers. He did not stop. His fist kept working his cock, slower now, as if the sight of her only made him harder. A thick bead of pre come welled at the tip and rolled down the shaft. His chest rose and fell in sharp, visible breaths. Lola’s own breathing had gone shallow. Heat flooded her face and settled low in her belly. She was already wet, like she was last night alone in her bed. Something in her broke open. She stepped inside and closed the door behind her. The latch clicked. She crossed the small room on unsteady legs and dropped to her knees on the worn rug in front of him. Up close she could smell the clean soap of his skin and the sharper, saltier scent of his arousal. She reached up, brushed his hand aside, and wrapped her fingers around the hot, heavy length of his cock. It jumped in her grip. She felt the pulse of it against her palm. His lips formed her name again. She leaned in and took him into her mouth. The taste of him flooded her tongue. He tasted of skin and salt and the faint bitterness of pre come. She sank down until the head nudged the back of her throat, then pulled back, lips tight, tongue working the underside. His hands found her hair, holding on without force. She could feel the fine tremor running through his fingers. She sucked him harder, wetter. The soft, filthy sounds of her mouth would have filled the room if she could have heard them; instead she felt the vibration of her own throat, the slick slide of him against her tongue, the way his hips gave small, involuntary thrusts. She hollowed her cheeks and took him deeper. One hand stroked what her lips could not reach. The other braced against his thigh, feeling the hard muscle jump beneath the fabric of his trousers. He was close; she could feel it in the way his cock twitched, in the tightening of his fingers in her hair, in the way his lips kept shaping her name over and over without sound. She did not stop. She sucked him through it, swallowing around the thick pulses as he came hard down her throat. His body jerked. A low, shattered sound must have left him because she felt the vibration of it travel down through his chest and into the hand she still had on his thigh. She stayed on her knees until the last tremor passed, then slowly pulled off. Her lips were shiny. A thin strand of spit connected her mouth to the head of his cock for a second before it broke. They stared at each other in the dim sacristy light. His cassock was still rucked up around his waist. His cock, wet from her mouth, was beginning to soften. Her knees ached against the floor. Her own pussy was throbbing, soaked through her underwear, but she did not touch herself. Not yet. The air between them felt charged and irreversible. She could see the knowledge of it in his eyes. Neither of them spoke.Jonas sat on the edge of the motel bed staring at the neatly made bed opposite him that had belonged to Ruby only moments ago.He needed to check in on her. Make sure she had gotten home safe and that Arnold had not already started in on her.He reached for his phone. As his thumb hovered over the screen, he remembered.He had never taken her number.“Fuck.”The word came out loud and bitter. He opened the contacts app and stared at the empty contact list. He had only bought this phone a few weeks ago so he never even had social media to track her. The reason he had never gotten around to purchasing a phone before was because his father had always thoroughly searched his room for anything he might be hiding. Hell, the man had taken the bedroom door off its hinges years ago so nothing could stay private. If his father ever found out that Jonas owned a cell phone without his permission, he could have banned him from the house for a few days, sometimes months. Ever since he got bigger,
Jonas and Ruby reached the clinic with only minutes to spare. A nurse checked Ruby’s name against a clipboard and nodded them toward the inner doors. “Ruby?” A doctor appeared in the doorway and called her name. “Come in alone for a moment, please.” Ruby glanced at Jonas. He gave her a supportive, assuring nod. She followed the doctor into the consultation room. The doctor sat across from her. “I need to speak with you privately first. Are you certain this is your decision? No one is pressuring you?” Ruby’s hands twisted in her lap. “Yes. I’m certain.” The doctor studied her face for a long second, then nodded. “All right. I’d like your partner to hear the rest. Call him in.” Ruby felt the need to correct her that that was in fact not her partner but a friend but instead she went to the door and opened it, then gestured at Jonas to come. He stepped inside and took the chair beside her. The doctor folded her hands on the desk. “We’ll be using aspiration. It’s a short proce
He cleared his throat and nodded toward the nightstand, changing the subject. “I brought you the water.” “Thanks,” Ruby said still confused at his reaction. She uncapped the bottle and took a slow sip. Silence settled between them again. After a while she set the bottle down and looked at him. “Jonas…? “Yeah?” “Can I ask you something?” “Shoot.” “What did I ever do to you to make you hate me?” He frowned, genuinely confused. “What do you mean?” She stared at the bedspread between them. “We used to be close. Then you just… stopped...” She didn’t finish the sentence, but she didn’t need to. Jonas exhaled. “Oh.” He was silent for a long moment, choosing his words. “It wasn’t anything you did. Just… after Mom died and I went to live with Dad…” He stopped. He didn’t know how to tell her about the way his father used to wake him up with a belt and burn him with cigarettes if he didn’t do anything perfectly. Or if he did. It didn’t matter really. His dad burned him if the
They arrived in Ridgehollow in the morning. Jonas adjusted the strap of his backpack and turned to Ruby. “What now?” Ruby tugged the brim of her cap lower. “My appointment’s at noon. We can just go to the clinic and wait there.” Jonas glanced at the empty street, then at the way her shoulders still curled in on themselves. But didn’t answer right away. They walked toward the curb, scanning for a cab. A few cars passed. Ruby’s stomach growled loud enough that both of them heard it. She pressed a hand against her middle, face flushing. Jonas looked at her. “Maybe we should get something to eat first.” “No.” The word came out quick. “The doctor said not to eat before the procedure. Unless you want to go grab something first?” He studied her for a second longer, then gently took her by the shoulders and turned her to face him. His voice was firm. “I think we should get motel rooms first then. It’s still five hours until the appointment. We can go there, you can rest until e
The driver glanced back and muttered something under his breath, but pulled over onto the gravel shoulder anyway. Ruby climbed down the steps with Jonas right beside her. Her body folded immediately and she puked her guts out into the wet grass. Jonas disappeared back onto the bus and returned with a bottle of water. He held it out without a word. “Thanks,” she said, still avoiding his eyes as she rinsed her mouth and spat. They climbed back on. As they moved down the aisle toward their seats, an older woman held out a small tin of peppermints. “Helps with the nausea,” she said gently. “Thanks,” Ruby answered. The woman tilted her head. “How far along are you?” The question stopped both Jonas and Ruby in their tracks. Ruby forced a polite but uncomfortable smile and kept walking. She dropped into her seat then Jonas followed. Silence sat between them for a long moment while she popped the mints in her mouth. Jonas’s voice came out cautious. “You’re pregnant?” Ruby l
Ruby hadn’t expected Jonas to be here of all people. What were the odds? On this very bus, on the same night she was leaving Greyfen, somehow the boy she used to know better than anyone else in the world had dropped down beside her. The universe had a unique sense of humor. If she wasn’t every exhausted, she would have thought it was a sign. The moment he asked if she was okay, the words rose so fast she almost choked on them. She wanted to pour her whole heart out and tell him everything. He always had that effect on her. Even after years of distance. Even now, when she had every reason to trust anyone. She’d learned the hard way that she was alone entirely. And it was all her fault. Everyone had let her down. Even herself. And God forbid if she let it happen again. The first one to let her down had been Stan with his promises of marriage after high school but instead he had run off to college and started dating her best friend Shelly. Then it has been her parents with their co







