LOGIN//VESPER//I came home and shut the door behind me like closing a coffin lid.The house was quiet. My mother’s soft snoring drifted from her room, oblivious to everything, and I was grateful for it. Grateful she couldn’t see me or hear the echo of my own voice still playing in my head.I locked my bedroom door and leaned against it, breathing hard, though I hadn’t run anywhere.The room was the same as I’d left it. The same sheets tangled on the bed. The same candle stub on the nightstand. The same wire under the pillow, the one that had somehow betrayed me.I stripped off my clothes without looking in the mirror. I didn’t want to see the marks. I didn’t want to see anything. I stood in the shower until the water ran cold, then stood there longer, letting the chill numb me from the outside in.When I finally crawled into bed, the sheets still smelled like him.I lay there, staring at the ceiling, and let the weight of everything press down on me. The recording. His voice. My voice. Th
//VESPER//I woke gasping, my chest heaving as though I had been running for miles. What happened? The question hung unanswered.I looked around for any sign of him—there was none. But the sheets were tangled around my legs, and I was naked. The cool morning air raised goosebumps on my skin. New marks littered my thighs and chest, layering over the fading ones he had left before. My body felt hummed out, my muscles loose and heavy in a way that made my stomach turn. I knew the feeling too well.My hand flew under the pillow.The wire was still there. I pulled it out, staring at the small device resting in my palm. I hadn’t switched it on. I remembered the internal struggle, the moment of hesitation, and then… the haze.He came. That much I remembered, and then… nothing.The memories flashed in fragments hitting me like shards of broken glass. The taste of something sweet and metallic. The sensation of being dismantled, piece by piece, by hands that knew my anatomy better than I did.
//VESPER//A hand wrapped around the base of my throat, pinning me against the mattress. My breath hitched in my chest as his mouth began a slow, wet trail across my cheek. Lips grazing the corner of my mouth while his thumb moved to my jaw, applying a bruising pressure that forced my mouth to yield. He didn’t wait for my consent. He knew too well how my body responded to him.His mouth claimed mine. His tongue didn’t ask for entry. It brutally invaded, sweeping through my mouth. I was drowning in him, my hands coming up to claw at his shoulders, but his weight crushing down on me made my lungs seize. He kissed me until the room tilted, until my oxygen ran thin and my senses were nothing but a blurred, vibrating mess. His hand fisted in my hair, tilting my head back, opening me deeper for him. A part of me wanted to fight harder. But my body was already remembering him, already parting for his tongue like it had never belonged to anyone else. I was spent, my head lolling back again
//VESPER//The bakery smelled exactly as I remembered. Mrs. Gable handed me my apron without ceremony, just a nod and a murmured, “Good to have you back, Vesper,” before she disappeared into the back room to check on a batch of croissants.I tied the apron strings around my waist and took my place behind the register. Before I left the house this morning, I made sure everything my mother needed was within reach, especially her medication on the nightstand and a glass of water. I also left her a plate of food she could microwave when she got hungry. She smiled weakly at me from her bed and told me to go, that she would be fine.I wanted to believe her.*Clink.*The door chimed and my shoulders tensing before I could stop them, and forced my body to relax. Just a customer who wanted a dozen donuts for a kid’s party, not a threat, not a monster, not anything I needed to fear.Mrs. Gable emerged from the back just as the woman left, wiping flour on her apron and nodding toward the windo
//VESPER//Four days.Four days of sitting in this plastic chair, watching her chest rise and fall. Four days of doctors offering reassurance that meant nothing because she still wouldn’t wake up.Four days of Detective Nora’s texts piling up unanswered, each one sharper than the last.:Vesper, he’s been too quiet. Are you sure he hasn’t contacted you yet?:If you can’t give us something in 48 hours, we pull the plug on this operation. And on your protection. I’m sorry, but I’m only following protocol.I read them over and over, thumb hovering over the keyboard, but what could I possibly say? No, he hasn’t contacted me. He’s vanished like a bubble popping into nothing, like he was never there at all. I have the wire. I know how to use it. I’ve memorized the sequence, practiced it in the dark until my fingers moved without thinking. But none of that matters when he won’t come.Every morning, a nurse came in and said the same thing: “Her vitals are stable. Sometimes the body just needs
//VESPER//I sat by my mother’s bed, my hand resting on the thin sheet covering her leg just as the door pushed open.Detective Nora walked in carrying a bunch of supermarket carnations and two cups of coffee. She looked less like a detective and more like a concerned friend, which made my decision to cooperate feel even more obscene.“You didn’t have to,” I said, taking them anyway and offered her the chair I was using.“I know.” She offered me a thank you smile as she settled, but her gaze drifted almost immediately to my mother’s still form on the bed. “How is she?”“Better.” I set the flowers on the windowsill, where they caught the weak afternoon light filtering through the blinds. “The doctors say she can come home as soon as she wakes up.” I paused, my throat tightening. “The medication is… we’re figuring it out.”She nodded slowly, her eyes still on my mother’s face for a long moment before turning to me. “I hear you were working at a bakery.”I blinked at the sudden shift.







