Chapter 22

Chapter 22. Pick a movie from Netflix.

The scariest part isn't the feeling of loneliness or the darkness surrounding the intense pain or even the depths of ignorance. 

It's the realization that you have intentionally surrendered yourself to isolation, deprived yourself of emotions, lost the ability to smile and sold your soul to agony. 

And I had lost the ability to smile. I had lost the ability to feel anything except for that creeping hollow of pain in my abdomen and the strong waves of loneliness in my heart.

I just lay there, in the dark, staring at the blank ceiling. No matter how many times I tried, no matter how many times I called, no matter what I messaged, the response had been the same – none.

I didn’t have tears in me anymore, I wanted to cry. I did. But I was empty. I had cried too much, the pillow had stains all over it and so did my Panda blanket. So instea