*CAHIR*“Sooo –“ Aristo drawled as I tapped away on my computer. “I can tell you can’t even see what you’re typing.” I swiped the computer off the desk with red eyes. My Beta caught it before it hit the ground. “What’s up with you, man?” He asked, setting the computer back on the table. I glared at it as if it was the source of all my problems.“She’s pregnant,” I blurted out.“Yeah, I kind of figured that out myself but it doesn’t explain why you have been cranky the past week. What’s wrong with her being pregnant?” My beta asked.What’s wrong with her being pregnant, you ask? For one, the child was slowly draining her life force. Secondly, what good could a child with my blood bring? Thirdly, she was not speaking to me because of said child.My mate and I had been together for a little over three months now. We just started building our relationship. Things finally started going well and for the first time in my life, I loved someone.It is possible I may have loved my parents, that
It wasn’t unexpected, but it didn’t make it hurt any less. My mate started to pull away from me. Bit by bit, things were changing and there was no way to stop it. I went to the hospital alone to check on the baby and I came back with tears in my eyes. Why did I have to do it alone? He asked, oh, yes he asked. He asked how the appointment went, what the doctor said, how I’d gotten pregnant despite the birth control. He asked. He showed interest but it felt forced. There was no tangible reason why he could not go with me yet he refused. “Don’t think the worst, Sia,” I muttered to myself when I felt tears gather in my eyes again. The pregnancy was already tough enough, did I have to add a mate that didn’t care about the baby? That’s exactly what it was. When I fell sick, Cahir was there to comfort me, to hold my hair when I threw up, pat my back and wipe my tears. He’d always ask how I felt but there was barely any word about the baby. The bun in the oven was just four weeks and the
That night, sleep eluded me. I tossed and turned in bed, yawning and rubbing my eyes but I still couldn’t sleep. I counted sheep, blinked my eyes many times but it was already past midnight yet no sleep. My body was tired but my mind refused to shut down. I was reaching for my phone to pass time when the door creaked open and my mate came in. He paused when he saw me stretching my hand to the bedside table. “You’re awake,” he muttered in surprise. “And you’re here,” I answered without a shred of warmth in my tone. “Did you stay up to wait for me?” He asked as he walked towards the bed. I cut him a sharp glare as he got closer. “Why would I?” I knew that he got home late at night and most times he left before I woke up but after the first night of trying and failing to stay up to wait for him, I no longer bothered myself to wait. It was clear that he was avoiding me.“Why are you still awake then?” He asked. “Couldn’t sleep?” A tinge of concern warmed his tone. “Do you care?” I f
“I am not a good man – you know I deal with bloodlust. Do you think I can be a father?” He questioned me. “Do you want to be a good father?” I shot back. “And don’t lie thinking it’s what I want to hear.” “There’s no reason for me to lie,” he deadpanned. “I never wanted kids because I didn’t want to leave anything of me behind but then you got pregnant and I’ve been thinking. Yes, I want to be a good father. Your baby deserves a good father.” I pursed my lips. “This isn’t about me, Cahir. It’s OUR baby, not just mine. Yes, my baby deserves a good father but do you want to be a good father for them?” I almost snapped but I held myself. My emotions were all over the place but there were too many words that I wanted to get out and I didn’t want to risk losing my cool and ending this conversation with an argument. “I – Yeah,” he said but there was little conviction in his tone. “You know, I’ve been thinking and that’s why I’m still up by this time,” I confessed. “My father lost his
*CAHIR* My mouth was dry while we drove to the hospital with my mate sitting beside me. She said nothing, silent beside me. Many thoughts went through my head but none of them stayed long enough for me to hold on to. “This is ridiculous,” I cussed in the silent car. “What?” My mate’s gaze cut to me almost in an instant. “Nothing.” The words slipped from my lips and when she frowned, I knew it wasn’t the right thing to say. “I’m nervous for no reason,” I blurted out, focusing on the road. “Oh,” she muttered. “What can I do to help?” Her sweet voice made me smile. “You don’t have to do anything. I’ll be fine.” I’d be fine if I could silence the voices in my head. I’d never felt this way before and I couldn’t understand it. The voices in my head were urging me to react in a familiar way. To lash out at something, at someone, but I wouldn’t be Cahir Armani if I let the feral voices in my head control me. As I strengthened my mental fortitude against my inner demons, I felt a daint
My ringing phone pulled me from the dream world. These days, I slept like a log throughout the night and sometimes into the afternoon. Most of the time, I woke up to Laura shaking me awake to eat breakfast. Sleeping was a welcome symptom after my loss of appetite and fire stunt. “Hello?” My voice came out thick and tired as I clutched the phone upside down. “Sihana,” a voice breathed from the other end of the phone. It was enough to wash away every lingering bit of sleep from my eye. “How are you?” The voice shook to my amazement. “What do you want from me?” I growled into the receiver, turning the phone the right way. “Why are you calling me?” I demanded, irritation washing over me. No matter how much time had passed, the effect of this voice was the same. Anger, hatred, and irritation washed over me at the same time. “I – I just –“ He stuttered and then he sighed, “Is it wrong to call you now?” He had the audacity to ask such a question. “Kade,” I growled, pushing out of bed.
“You can’t do this to my daughter!” A woman was shouting, wagging a finger at Cahir right in the open parking lot in front of the pack dwellings. “Do you know who I am? We are a family of Alphas. You can’t!” “I’d like to see who’d stop me,” came Cahir’s crisp tone. It sent shivers down my spine and it wasn’t even directed at me. “As for who you are, you’re a worker under me. Do you understand what I am saying?”“You arrogant bastard!” The woman screamed. She’d pulled a crowd with her hysterics and the Alpha’s guards surrounded the area but Cahir looked at her with something akin to joy in his eye. “You’ll see your end soon, you bastard! I promise you!” The redhead shouted. “You’re nothing! Nothing, I tell you. Watch, watch and see how miserable your end will be!” “Unfortunately, you won’t see my end.” Was that amusement in his tone? I recognized the woman. How couldn’t I? She was the spitting image of my tormentor. Mrs Carson. The second I thought about her name, she turned around
“I – She did that and I’m just now hearing.” I pursed my lips without meaning to, fighting down the jealousy. Cahir beamed, making me self-conscious. I rubbed my arm in annoyance but the feeling tightening my guts didn’t stop. “There was no need to tell you something so insignificant.” He ran his thumb on my bottom lip. “My heart feels lighter seeing you all green with envy.” He leaned forward to whisper, his breath fanning against my cheek. “I – I am not jealous!” I exclaimed but it wasn’t anywhere near a convincing lie. “Did she – Did she come naked or what?” I remembered Beta Maria from Silver Moon and how she’d gone to hide naked in my mate’s room to seduce him. Aristo assured me then that women were more sensible than to try seducing him but now - Avalon was proud so I didn’t understand why she would try something like that. Also, she hated the air Cahir breathed and cursed the ground he walked on. She may have had ulterior motives and had to change plans last minute but still