[Addison]
The door to the car clicks open.
An expensive Italian loafer is followed by the pinstriped leg of an elegant and sophisticated man. He towers over me, at least 7 inches taller and twice as wide, his strong arms and shoulders barely contained within the jacket of his well-tailored suit. From the Rolex at his wrist to the studs in his ears, and the ring gleaming on his hands, everything is diamond bright, as sharp and fine as the cut of his square chin and the angle of his high cheekbones.
“Excuse me,” his smooth voice, deep and rich, rumbles through my body, as he removes his sunglasses and looks at me with eyes so blue they appear almost black. “I can take her from here.”
Holding out his hands, his cold facade melts as he looks at the little girl with such love and concern that I find myself melting as well. But she doesn’t go to him, she clings to me even tighter.
“Mom,” the little girl murmurs, burying her head into my chest. “I found my mommy.”
“You little monster!” An out-of-breath young woman pants as she rushes up to us, her bobbed red hair falling in front of her freckled face. “You ran off again! Just wait until I tell…”
She reaches out to grab the girl but pauses when she notices the man standing next to me. “Mr. Grant, I, um, I can explain.”
“You’re fired,” his tone is blunt and cold as he dismisses the young woman with a hard glare.
The young woman’s eyes widen, tears rolling down her cheeks as she backs away, tripping over her own feet. “Mr. Grant, Sir, I can explain I…”
“Leave,” his tone remains flat, his anger almost palatable as he stares the girl down. “Now, Ms Watson. Do not expect a reference.”
Bowing, the young woman scuttles away not once looking over her shoulder.
“I’m sorry you had to see that,” the velvety-voiced gentleman apologizes. “I can take her from here, Ms….”
It takes me a moment to realize that this ruthless, mysterious man is speaking to me. I pull my attention away from the fleeing nanny and find myself face to face, with this powerfully handsome man.
He reaches out for the girl again, placing his hands on her waist. “Come here, Livy, let’s leave the nice lady.”
The little girl. Livy shakes her pigtails and holds on tighter.
“Olivia Grant,” his voice is stern but kind as he insists she lets me go. “I’m sure the busy lady has things to do.”
“No,” the first word she says is murmured into the space where my neck and shoulder meet. It reminds me so much of Jayson when he was this age that I want to hold her forever. I miss this warmth and devotion. She reminds me of how it feels to be a mom.
Which brings my thoughts right back to that hospital room.
“Since Olivia is so fond of you,” the man speaks catching my eyes once more as I manage to pry the sweet girl off of my neck and place her into his waiting arms. “Maybe you could come eat with us. I know a nice place around the corner.”
Looking at the sweet domesticity of the two of them together, the love and kinship of a true family connection, an unsettled pang in my heart makes me warm and sad all at once.
“No,” I say a bit too quietly, lost in my melancholy mood. “But thank you, Mr…”
“Grant,” he turns his warm smile towards me. “Hunter Grant.” He pulls a business card from his suit pocket, shifting the little girl’s weight as she settles into his arms, sucking her thumb as she leans against his chest. “Are you sure you won’t change your mind, Ms…”
“Mrs.,” I correct him. “Mrs. Stone. Addison Stone. And yes,” I look back at the hospital one last time. “But I wish you the best. I’m just glad I was here for Olivia when she needed me. You don’t owe me anything.”
“Addison,” he repeats, my name resonant and melodic on his tongue. “I hope I will get a chance to see you soon.”
As he tucks the little girl into his car and settles himself next to her, his words feel more like a promise than a hope. Watching them drive away, I head on my path, walking home so that I can clear my mind. So much has happened. I’m at a loss.
Should I leave Michael? Is it time to get a divorce? I don’t believe that there isn't anything happening between him and Evelyn.
The jingle of my keys as I pull them from the door sounds loud in the quiet, empty house. Closing the door, I pick up the remnants of our scattered rush from the house, scooping up discarded toys and carrying them up to Jayson’s room.
Placing one of his stuffies on his bed, my eyes land on a framed picture on the nightstand next to the cupcake he never ate. The picture is from the day his adoption became official. He is still a small baby, only one year old, held in my arms as his father stands next to me, the two of us smiling
Family. We are a family.
Something vibrates on the hardwood floor beneath his bed. Peering underneath, the glowing screen of his tablet catches my attention as it vibrates again, informing Jayson of an incoming message.
“What’s that doing under here?” I pull it out, “Playing games at night when you should be sleeping, little man,” I smirk, looking for his charging port. That should be…”
In glowing white letters, the message says it's from the same number I recognize from earlier, the one that had sent the birthday pictures.
The note reads, “From MOM: Jayson, I am so sorry. I made a mistake. Next time, I will get you something extra yummy. Please forgive me.” It is signed with several heart emojis and the name “Mama Evelyn.”
It is signed with several heart emojis.
“I love you, Mama Evelyn.”
A flash of images, of moments from the last two days flutter through my mind. The way Evelyn looks not only so much like me, but like Jayson who shares the same white blonde hair and bright golden eyes. The way he calls her mama. The way Lauren treats her as if she were the daughter-in-law instead of me.
What if she’s more than the one who got away? What if she’s Jayson’s real mother?
“Oh God,” Suddenly sick, I rush to the bathroom and vomit what little bit I’ve eaten as the world spins. Unable to breathe, unable to think, I fall forward, my head hitting the wall as everything goes black.
[Jayson]I'm bored and I don’t want to be here. This stupid suit itches."Stop it," Mama Evelyn swats at my hand as I reach up to scratch my neck underneath the jacket. "Stop fidgeting.""But I'm BOOOOOOORED," I whine, holding up my tablet that keeps blinking at me. It's almost out of power and I tell her that. "The new Samsung has a 7 hour battery and..."I know she's not listening, but I keep going on anyway. The room is too bright and the words make no sense and the wifi sucks. I can’t play my favorite game, and my video keeps glitching. If I'm this uncomfortable, she should be too. “Fix it,” I grump as I shove it on Mama Evelyn’s lap slamming it down hard on her round belly. She looks like a pink flower watermelon the way the dress stretches over it. I told her that this morning and she almost slapped me. Mama Evelyn gives me a very stern look, the one she usually gives me right before she says, “I'm done with my bullshit” and wants me to “shut the fuck up.” She'd never say that
[Addison]Dear God, what should I do?This is one of those moments where the decision I make right now, in this moment, can affect the rest of my life. Pivot one way or another, there will be consequences and lost possibilities. Either way, I'll need to decide soon, before all of my options are gone. Frowning, I take a seat in a thickly cushioned chair. Staring at the pills in my hands while absently listening to Tracy remove all traces of what happened here, I feel like I'm gazing down into a dark abyss. I'm so untethered. How do I make this choice? A baby is something I've wanted for a long time--ever since I was a child I knew I wanted to be a mother someday. Pregnancy is a marvel. Creating new life from an act of love, and then spending the rest of your life taking joy as you watch that little life develop into someone new and unique. Jayson is my son, and no child born of my body would change that. He won my heart the first time I held him after Michael found him abandoned in
[Addison]My best friend hands me a little plastic cup. “I brought my medical kit,” she explains. “I didn’t want there to be anything to trace back to you. We can easily flush or burn a test strip, but one of those little plastic wands are impossible to destroy. Once you pee on them, it’s like they never go away.”She’s right. If I were to use a traditional test strip and throw it away, the press would find it. If I put it in my purse, it could be discovered during a search of my belongings. Even if I managed to get it home, it would only be a matter of time before it was discovered by somebody, maybe a servant or a security guard needing a bit of extra cash. And once the press, or even worse, the enemy, got hold of it, the damage that knowledge could cause to my family is immeasurable. Our image has already been tainted enough between the speculation swirling around the house fire and the press coverage my divorce has brought onto Grant Corp, with the gossip about our relationship sp
[Addison]What should I say? How can I make sense of the last 4 months of my life? “Let me handle this,” Reggie places a gentle hand on mine and his warm smile reminds me that I have people who love me on my side. “It’s what I’m here for. To defend you.” “I can do this,” I insist. I am a lawyer after all. Part of what I do is defend others. Why shouldn’t I defend myself?“I know you can,” Mr. Carter nods. “You are a very capable litigator. But this is your life, your family. Your emotions may be high.”Looking across the room I see my son sitting next to Evelyn in the seats just behind Michael’s. They look like a family. Seeing Evelyn smugly patting her belly, the diamond on her hand flashing as she glares, bothers me more than it should. “Do you trust me, Addison, to do this for you,” Reggie slips from his usual professional demeanor, his face drawn with worry. He wants to respect my rights and autonomy, but he's also concerned. He's a good friend, and an excellent lawyer. I trust
[Addison]Except for the faint faint snapping of cameras and the dull buzz of whispering the crowd goes silent as I turn to face an all too familiar speaker. Turning, I found myself face-to-face with someone I knew I’d have to see, but didn’t look forward to facing. Michael Stone, my ex-husband and the one I’m here to negotiate with for the love of my child. Leaning on Michael’s arm, with a very familiar diamond on her hand, is Evelyn, her round belly near bursting, proof of his infidelity. How dare he come here accusing me of things when he is the reason our marriage fell apart? I wonder how long he waited after our divorce was final before giving her my ring. Not that it matters. I’ve moved on and so have they, apparently. I just…it’s one thing to know everything is over and it’s another to see the commitment someone else had for you shining on someone else’s hand. Looking at her smile as she makes the light shine on it just so, I know she did this on purpose, maybe to set me off
[Addison]No, that doesn't make sense. If Mr. D wanted to poison us, I'd be dead right now not questioning whether or not he had done it. Poison isn't his style. He prefers a more direct approach. But the last time I felt this sick I...No, impossible. That's almost less likely than poison. I was told I'd never conceive again, or at least my odds of conceiving would be the same as anyone conceiving on birth control because my uterus was so damaged by the miscarriage. But what if they were wrong? With everything else that happened, I never went in for a second opinion, nevermind a follow up visit. And Hunter and I have been having unprotected sex for weeks. Lots and lots of unprotective sex. "Oh God," my hands are shaking as I slowly stand. Holding onto the wall I barely keep from falling over. I feel so weak. Last time this happened I knocked myself out and ended up in the hospital. No, I need to be careful in how I proceed. Because either poison or pregnancy, it doesn’t matter–ei