Chapter Ninety

Eura Claire Ibañez, that's the name I gave to my baby girl with Eugene. I'm just stunned here' in her crib, watching her sleep for hours. She is eleven months now, it's funny that she looks like Loki and Thor. Eura is also a female version of Eugene.

Both of our papers and the things we will bring home from the Philippines have been arranged. I want Eura to have a birthday with her older brothers and her daddy. I'm still nervous about how Eugene and the twins will react. What if they are angry specially the twins? I left them without saying goodbye, I abandoned them.

At that time, I was not in the right frame of mind, all I knew was that I was in pain, I wanted all the pain to go away, and the only way I could think of to escape the pain was to stay away from it. I didn't plan to be away for a long time, my plan was only for a month or two, but it happened that I found out I was pregnant so I was away for almost two years because of fear that I will dissapoint my husband again if the