As punctual as always, the doorbell in my hotel room rang at exactly seven in the evening. I opened the door and put on a big smile as I saw this man standing in front of me. Siegfried Cohen. My righteous longtime boyfriend for seven years is finally ready to get laid with me. I stared at his perfect physique. His natural blonde hair that compliments his perfectly tanned skin always makes me aroused.
He is wearing his tuxedo that carves every muscle he has. He is as composed as ever. He is the perfect example of a gentleman. Since he hasn't popped out the question yet, he is considered one of the hottest bachelors of their batch, and rumors speculate that he is the only virgin left in the accounting department of their prestigious company.
Damn right! He is one hell of a virgin. Thanks to his moral standards. My eyebrows frowned a bit at the thought of it.
My mood suddenly changed, "But tonight I am changing the history. I will be the first and last woman who will make this gentle accountant groan like a jackass," I swore to myself.
My lips smile wide as he approaches me. He examines me from head to foot. After that, he gives me a peck on my cheek. His eyes lowered on my big bosom and I saw him gulp before starting a conversation, "You look– ",
"–Stunningly gorgeous?" I interrupted him before he could finish his sentence while throwing myself at him, intentionally brushing my breast into his hard wide chest. His arms welcomed me hesitantly and his face looks stunned.
After realizing what I've done, he distanced himself a bit, "Woah love! You are so revved up tonight."
He unlinked my arms and fixed his dress. He touched my cheeks and smiled at me, "Come on, I have something for you."
Not wanting to ruin the night, I let his no-to-physical-touch-act pass and follow him quietly until we reach the elevator. As the door closes, dirty thoughts automatically play in my mind. Instantly, I saw sexual images of Sied and me making out in this elevator.
A feeling of excitement strikes my heart. My contemplation grows continuously.
Like the one I've seen from various American series and movies, this is the moment where the guy will suddenly jump at the girl and kiss her passionately. I tuck my hair behind my ear and expose my pale neck in front of him. I gulp as I imagine my ever-loving boyfriend doing this kind of thing to me. I can clearly see myself hesitant at first but then give up as I feel Sied's lips sucking my breast. Oh, what a fiery imagination I have!
Just thinking about it gives a tingling sensation all over my body. I smiled unconsciously causing him to question my actions, "You seem so happy and excited tonight, love!"
He said in a calm but questioning voice. Who wouldn't be? This night is the night!
I lean my back on the side of the elevator across from him. I arch my body a little bit causing my dress to expose my breast and my curve. He peeks a glimpse of my breast but removes it immediately. He isn't that immune to my charisma. Shall we test the water?
I will test the water!
I walk towards him sexily and sensually utter these words to his ears, "You know what babe, I think an elevator ride is good for our first love scene, don't you think?"
He instantly takes a step back as I reach for his lips, "Avery Anderson, watch your words..." he paused and continued, " –and your actions please!" he exclaimed as he pants heavily.
He always calls me by my full name whenever the situation is getting inconvenient for him. Oh, fuck! Hell right, I make him feel inconvenient! Me and my sexy actions! The vibe has now changed.
"That's Ava for you, Grandpa!", I snapped and moved away from him. Seeing how he reacts reminded me why he is still a virgin. No matter how many times I tempt him, he always blocks it. He always gets what he wants and I am always the loser. Why the hell couldn't he compromise the way I did? My lips twitched. I could see him looking at me but I don't give a damn anymore. The perfect night as I imagine it is finally ruined. I am trying to hold back the tears of rejection. I need to at least survive this night for the sake of our 7th anniversary.
***
I find myself sitting in front of this insensitive man. Trying to survive the night, I remained silent and avoided small talks. All I could hear from his mouth are corporate terms in which I am not interested at all. Blah! Blah! Blah!
My heart still hurts because I was rejected during an intense elevator ride. I focused on eating my food which he apparently ordered for me. The food is indeed exquisite but my taste buds want something different; different from this grassy, healthy vegan salad I am eating.
I raised my hands and a waiter attended to our table.
The waiter greeted me with a smile, "How may I help you?" he asked in Czech. Sied raised his head and momentarily stopped from eating. I sense some trouble and I think I will not like whatever will come out of his mouth. Despite his gentleman image, he can be an asshole sometimes. Allow me to correct myself, most of the time, especially in times like this, with poor people like this. I just closed my eyes and tighten my grip on the fork I'm holding.
"I believe it's obvious we are Americans. Maybe you could give us a little courtesy by speaking our language?" he complained to this poor waiter. His voice and his words resound to my ear. The waiter immediately apologized to him and switched his attention to me, "I am sorry Ma'am, what can I do for you?"
His voice is shaking with his not-so-perfect English accent. He did his best. Poor thing. I gave Sied a harsh look and sighed. I faced the waiter and said, "Mohl byste mi prosím dát nějaké maso a ne jen trochu koňského jídla? Také bych chtěl dvě sklenice červeného vína."
He put out his pen and took down my order. Then he offered something from their bestselling meat selection. As the waiter left us, Sied confronted me while he put his arms crossed in front of him, "Don't you like what I ordered for you? I chose it because it would be good for you? And what's that all about? You made me look like a fool in front of him."
He is very furious. Serves you right, Grandpa!
I rested my back on the chair. I rolled my eyes at him, "Then stop being an ass. You know how to speak Czech, so why don't you show him some courtesy," I burst out in anger. "And will you please speak their language since you are in the Czech Republic, genius?", I insulted him.
He shrugs his shoulder and shakes his head in disarray, "Why do we always have to argue about everything Avery?"
"Ava!" I butt in and continue with my sarcasm.
"Fine, Ava." He gives in.
Then open his mouth and continue with his nonsense talk,
"What about the food? And the wine? If you want some, you should have just told me, I should have just order for the two of us once we get back to our hotel room."
His tone is reaching its peak.
"Oh really? The last time I check I am on the fifth floor and you are on the seventh!", I said sarcastically. "Would you please explain to me why the hell are we staying in separate rooms even though we have been a couple for seven years?" my voice raised loud enough to catch the attention of the neighboring tables. My voice battles the clanking of utensils from the other side of the restaurant. I don't give a shit, though. My face remains stiff and my attention is only focused on this exasperating man sitting in front of me like an upright demi-god oozing with arrogance.
He remained silent and looked down clenching his fist. The tension between the two of us halted when the waiter arrived with two glasses of red wine. He noticed the unyielding vibes so he immediately withdrew his presence after he informed me that my order will arrive in 10 minutes. The silence took over, so does anger. The supposed special night became an enraged battle between the two sexes. Out of frustration, I straightly gulped the first glass of wine like a crazy woman yearning for alcohol. As I was about to reach for the second glass, Sied grabbed my hand intensely that seemed fairly like a warning.
"Will you slow down? What would people think if you drink like that?" he said with a strong remark in his voice. I don't understand why his gesture felt like he is more concerned of my our image, his image than my feelings and my whole being. It has always been like this. He is really starting to get under my skin. I aggressively removed his hand from mine and snatched the glass of wine, "It is just a wine for fuck's sake, Siegfried!"
I sulkily put down the wine glass on the table.
"Language!", his voice has gotten stronger and firmer.
"I don't fucking care what they think. And the only grumpy one here is you, Siegfried! When will you give me a decent meal where I can choose what I want to eat?" this guy hit the ceiling. The perfect night that I've been dreaming of has now shattered into pieces. My world has just crumbled thanks to this dimwit.
His face looked stunned. I know he has a lot to say but he chose to remain silent. Good decision Siegfried! Because if you open your mouth again, I promise you, this so-called anniversary will become a funeral for a dead love story of two broken hearts. Though I am trying my best to facade a strong woman, my chest is starting to pound.
I never cried in front of Sied or in front of anyone; and I don't have plans to break it, not now, not ever.
So I took my leave and before going out of the restaurant, I instructed the waiter to have the food delivered to my room. Right there and then, I left this fancy restaurant alone. I never look back in his direction. I never want to see what he looks like.
Right now, all I want is to go back to my room and cry.
(Avery’s Thoughts) (Two Years After The Divorce)I am standing backstage at one of the famous morning talk shows here in NY.I don’t know why I feel so nervous, well, it is my first TV appearance nationwide.Then I look at the mirror and fix myself, “Well, I am not yet ready to reveal my personality so I think of a way to hide my identity, and that is to use a pen name and a sophisticated mask, like the ones you wear in a masquerade ball.”A staff finally reaches out to me and says, “Miss Sparks, in a minute they are going to call you on stage. And your cue is the dimming light, okay?”“Uh-huh,” I hesitantly answer.But she is there to boost and cheer me up, “Take a deep breath, relax, and remember, you are good, and you definitely got this!”The sound from the crowd suddenly dies down and the voice of the host is heard. I look up at their gigantic spotlight and wait for the cue.I take a deep breath and say to myself, “You got this, Avery. You got this!”“Let us all welcome with a ro
(Avery’s Thoughts) “Dear Avery - My Loyal Wife, When you came into my life and agreed to be my wife, that was the best day of my life. That day, on our sudden wedding day, I promised that I would cherish you more than anyone else.I swore to protect the smile on your face, a smile so genuine when I first met you at that hotel five years ago. Avery, I know you’ve been trying so hard, and you never once failed to fulfill your duty as my loving wife, even if it means putting your heart aside. You’ve been so good to me, and you’ve been faithful to me like you promised me. But sometimes kindness and compassion aren’t enough when love is forced. Eventually, the true feelings will immerse.With so much regret, I’ve seen you fell right in front of my eyes. I’ve witnessed how your bright spark faded when you married me. I’ve become the reason why you lost yourself.I let it happen. And I can’t forgive myself for that ever again. You were forced to love me. I forced you to love me. And
(Avery’s Thoughts)“Babe, did it come out now?” Jeff yells behind the door. While I am damn nervous to even peek at it. “It is only a minute, it needs another minute, babe. Please, don’t stress me out,” I yell back at him. “I’m sorry. I just feel so excited about the news. I can’t wait to tell mom and dad about our baby!” he says exhilaratingly. “Don’t jinx it!” I scream angrily. “Okay, okay, I’ll wait here patiently,” answers Jeff. I am here sitting on the bathroom floor, waiting for the result to come out from the pregnancy test kit. It has been almost three years since we got married and there was never a time that we didn’t try having a baby. But until now, there’s still nothing. I hug my knees and start crying silently, “What if it fails again? Am I infertile?” I ask myself. The kit finally ticks and now I have to face the truth. God knows we’ve been trying so hard that’s why I even ask Kendra to take full charge of the business for now. I stop all my physical activities
(Avery’s Thoughts) Our El Nido, Palawan experience was splendid. And of course, I still can’t believe it. I came there single, “And now, I am officially Avery Tales. I am now married,” I murmur as I stare at both my and his wedding ring while he’s holding my hand in his sleep. It’s been a week since we came back here to America. Of course, the honeymoon stage has just begun and Jeff wants to make love to me almost every time. And me, being a good wife, always give him what he wants. Although, right now, I think I am still a little swollen down there. I go to the bathroom to clean myself up and wash my face as I promised Kendra I’ll be meeting her so we can talk about our new business venture. After brushing my teeth, I wake Jeff up, “Hey, babe. Didn’t you say you have an interview at Kirkland’s Best?”He groans and instead of getting up, he pulls me into the bed and showers me with morning kisses. I giggle as his kisses tickle me, “Babe, stop it. We have a lot of things to do tod
(Avery's Thoughts)Even though the wedding is sudden, Jeff managed to pull it off, and he has planned it all along. So after the wedding ceremony, we stayed for a little bit, I got to finally meet his parents. And for the longest of times, I once again felt the warm embrace of a parent. It made me cry because I knew that I am no longer alone, and no longer an orphan. Because now that we are married, his parents became my parents, too. And I can’t deny, my heart is full. After that, we stayed to talk to our guests for some time, and then we ate and enjoy the party, too. And now I am here standing on the balcony staring at the moonlight, while Jeff is still cleaning. I don’t know why. It isn’t the first time we are going to have sex, but for some reason, now that we are married, there’s this tension inside me, a feeling of hesitation, a feeling that I am officially owned by him. And unexplainably, I feel afraid. And now, my heart almost stops as I hear the gushing of the water fina
(Avery’s Thoughts) Later this evening, all four of us will meet Jeff’s parents. And because of it, I am so dead worried and I can’t get this nervousness out of my system. So while Jeff is away meeting his parents ahead of time, I rush downstairs and go to our neighboring villa. I knock ceaselessly, but Kendra and Nik aren’t coming out. I move back to look up, and I see that the light is on, it means they are there, so I continue to rampage on their door. “Kendra, Kendra,” I knock nonstop, “Open up, please!” I scream a little loud. Then after five minutes of almost breaking their door down, someone finally opens the door for me. “Thank God you finally come out, what took you so l–” I am about to complain but when I see her glaring at me with her hair a little bit frizzy and wrap in a blanket, I know that I should be more careful with my next words. Then later on Nik comes down with a little sweat on his forehead. “Uh-oh, definitely bad timing, Avery,” I say to myself. Then Kend
(Avery’s Thoughts) “Hey, we are going to be late for our flight!” I yell when I notice Kendra still struggling with how to put all her stuff in one big luggage. “Wait up! This stupid luggage just won’t listen to me!” she frustratedly yells back at me. Kendra is not a patient and she hates dealing with this kind of stuff. So I go to her room to check up on her. And there I see her leg wrestling with her luggage just so she can close it up. “Stupid-little-luggage!” she yells and kicks before she pounds it hard in the end. And then she sits beside it looking at me with so much energy wasted. “Help me out, A?” she begs. I smile at her and then gently hit her on her forehead. “That’s why I’ve been telling you to pack a week ago,” I nag at her a little and she sticks her tongue out for a moment. “Hmm, let’s see what unnecessary things you put in here,” I tease her. Then I begin to take out some clothes and things she can’t wear to our destination. “Nope!” “–But I need it.” “–It’
(Kendra’s Thoughts)Then a slight touch on my shoulder and a breathy apology are enough to get hold of the situation, “I am sorry, Kendra. Let me fix this,” is all he says. And even without looking, I know this one is definitely Dmitri’s voice since it triggers the hatred hidden deep within my bones.And as he passed by me, he steps up and grabs the arms of that tallest guy, “Let go, Luke, please,” he calmly says.Then the man who fell suddenly stands up continuing his tantrums like a child, “Why are you siding with them, Dee? He punches me first, you should get mad at that bitchy Heather’s husband” then scowls at Dmitri. But Dmitri is true to his words for the first time in his fucking life, he is trying to fix the situation. He glares at him and Luke, “I said Let go, Luke. Don’t make me say it for the third time, and you, I told you to be more careful with your words, this is my city, they know me here as a businessman, you should have thought of me more before creating a scene. T
(Kendra’s Thoughts)Avery finally got discharged from the hospital and in the meantime, I invite them over to stay in my apartment instead of wasting all their money paying for a hotel room. I have two more spare rooms in my apartment so I guess it is fine. Kervin is still here, so they will look after him while I go out with Nik and enjoy our anniversary. I am about to finish dolling up when A enters my room. “Hey there, gorgeous,” she says while leaning on the side of the door. I am currently wearing my earrings when my side zipper comes undone. So she goes to me and says, “Here, I got this,” she says and helps me out. I can’t stop smiling. I am just happy to know she’s here. I am happy we get to do this again. I hear the zip sound finishes, “Okay, you are good to go, sexy K. Are you going to bring the house down tonight with your fiery red velvet bodycon dress?” she pokes my side. “Oh god, no. We will just eat and then go home since that bitchy wife already knew our annivers