Innsbruck, Austria
Fate brought me in front of this huge glass building illuminated by the moonlight which directly reflects the extravagant structure of this modern architecture which is comparable to aDLERS Hotel here in Innsbruck, Austria. Unfortunately, they are already fully booked so I have to find another place to stay. As soon as I got off the plane, I took a cab and went straight to this hotel where I am supposed to stay, Zven Hotel.
Beside me are my old rose Samsonite centric luggage bag and a woven nude tote bag atop it. I blankly stared at the sky and breathed my hands that are shivering from this cold winter night. I breathed a warm breath to suffice my longing desire for love, or should I say making love. Yes. That's right. I am a lady who wants to get laid as soon as possible. Blame my hormones for it!
I am now 31 and yet, I don't have much experience with this thing called "sex". Well, thanks to my ever-loving boyfriend–a man who hasn't even flinch at the sight of my perfect body. I am now on the verge of throwing myself to anyone–literally, anyone who will find me attractive– at this very hour.
I hang my tote bag on my left forearm and carry it with dignity and dragged my luggage bag using my right hand. I marched to the entrance and momentarily stopped when I saw my reflection at the exterior of this glass hotel.
“Woah! This is one hell of a beauty”, I thought.
I stared at my reflection and literally dropped my jaw, how beautiful could I be? I raised my right hand then motioned it perfectly in the air like a princess waving at the commoners. I am currently appraising myself, a brunette-haired with subtle caramel tip highlights, a long-legged lady wearing an elegant passion red double-breasted wool winter coat that goes well with her knee-high Steve Madden crushing embellished boots, I should have worked as a fashion model and not as a feature writer.
"How could a man who is in his right mind resist this beckoning scale of beauty in front of him for ten years?" I thought.
"For ten fucking years for fuck's sake!" I emphasized and frowned at the memory of our last conversation, or more likely an argument about wholesomeness and pureness of heart. Tsk. I bit my lips out of frustration. I shrugged myself.
"Well, that's why I am here." I cheer myself up, straighten my posture and lead myself to the entrance of the hotel.
As soon as I reach the entrance, two male employees in their late twenties welcomed me while the other one assisted me with my luggage. He accompanied me to the lobby and had me wait to confirm my reservation. I instructed him to put my luggage in my hotel suite while I stay in the lobby for the meantime. My eyes roam around as I fancy this elegant place. They made it a spacious one which invites the guests to stay and relax. They have five sets of luxurious semi arc couches. Having this nude color furniture complimented their vibrant chandelier above and the glass exterior part of the hotel.I removed my coat demurely and placed it on my lap as I sit which exposed my black fitted dress with a long gold zipper on the side. I rested my back on this comfortable sofa not leaving my poise. I closed my eyes and took a deep breath.
"I really did it this time," I spoke to myself. I put out my mobile phone and turned it on. There were 20 missed calls and one message from my one true love,
"I am sorry. You know I love you but I can't give what you're asking right now. Try to understand. I hope your vacation will let you come back to your senses."
My heart retaliated at the sight of his message,
"Understand? Him? Come back to my senses? This is bullshit."
My lips twitched, "All these years that's what I've been doing. You are the one who's being unreasonable because of your twisted moral standards. We are no longer living in the 16th or 18th century and yet you are giving me this shit about preservation until marriage. Well fuck you because I'm going to fuck somebody else here", my thoughts burst in anger.
As I put my wasted mobile phone in my bag, I overheard two tourists talking about the must-visit Wine Cellar here in Austria. Hearing this made me thirsty. A good liquor can suffice my anger on this cold night. So I went to the reception area and asked for some information. I ascended to the 7th floor and made my way to the carpeted hallway. As soon as I turned right at the end of it, a cozy high-end hotel bar filled my eyes. Dimmed lights, a huge counter, and tower shelves of liquor brought out my wild alter ego. I licked my lips as I approach the counter.
"Guten Abend, wunderschöne Jungfrau", said the man behind the counter.
I smiled even though I didn't understand a thing. How am I supposed to order something if I don't know their language? I should have studied the basics at least. I shook my head and was lost for a moment when a man from behind surprised me.
"Good evening, beautiful maiden," his captivating voice sent chills to my bones, and his warm breath that touched my nape gave me a prompting notion. I turned around to meet this perilous man.
Words escaped my mouth as our eyes met. His green eyes with the shade of hazel gold melted my heart; its deep-set shape make his simple stare turns into a consuming glare; his square jaw as the representation of masculinity; his full flat shape eyebrows that heighten his facial feature; his nose that is as perfect as of Ryan Gosling and his thin upper lip and full lower lip that makes you want to devour it the moment you are an inch apart.
"That's what he said," the gorgeous man added. I gulped ending my fantasies and removed my eyes from his face. I saw a glimpse of a smile on his face. At that moment I felt so embarrassed.
"Is that so?" I uttered as I recover from fantasizing about him.
He motioned me to sit on the high chair and grabbed my right hand to support me. He then sits beside me. His eyes which are locked on me make me feel nervous. He breaks the silence once again, "Mind if I join you?"
I looked at him even though I'm already sweating and I tried to keep my composure.
"It sounds more of a statement rather than an inquiry, Mister," I said sarcastically.
His eyes brightened as he ignores my sarcasm, "Lovely, aren't you?"
"I take that as a compliment," I unknowingly tapped my fingers and avoided his gaze.
"Let me buy you a drink," He offered and spoke to the bartender in the German language as I remained quiet. When his attention is back at me, "I guess I don't have a choice since I am badly needed for a company and a walking dictionary," I sighed.
His laughter caught the attention of the red-haired tourists at the other end of the counter. Then, I noticed that most of the ladies are almost ravaging him in his sexy silver suit. I scrutinized his perfect physique from top to bottom while creating dirty thoughts in my mind. I hurriedly gulped the liquor as soon as the bartender put it on the counter,
"Damn, I guess this tour of mine is worthwhile," I said to myself. I wear a mischievous smile,
"If he will be the man who will salvage me from my innocence, so be it," and desperately swore to myself.
(Avery’s Thoughts) (Two Years After The Divorce)I am standing backstage at one of the famous morning talk shows here in NY.I don’t know why I feel so nervous, well, it is my first TV appearance nationwide.Then I look at the mirror and fix myself, “Well, I am not yet ready to reveal my personality so I think of a way to hide my identity, and that is to use a pen name and a sophisticated mask, like the ones you wear in a masquerade ball.”A staff finally reaches out to me and says, “Miss Sparks, in a minute they are going to call you on stage. And your cue is the dimming light, okay?”“Uh-huh,” I hesitantly answer.But she is there to boost and cheer me up, “Take a deep breath, relax, and remember, you are good, and you definitely got this!”The sound from the crowd suddenly dies down and the voice of the host is heard. I look up at their gigantic spotlight and wait for the cue.I take a deep breath and say to myself, “You got this, Avery. You got this!”“Let us all welcome with a ro
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(Avery’s Thoughts)“Babe, did it come out now?” Jeff yells behind the door. While I am damn nervous to even peek at it. “It is only a minute, it needs another minute, babe. Please, don’t stress me out,” I yell back at him. “I’m sorry. I just feel so excited about the news. I can’t wait to tell mom and dad about our baby!” he says exhilaratingly. “Don’t jinx it!” I scream angrily. “Okay, okay, I’ll wait here patiently,” answers Jeff. I am here sitting on the bathroom floor, waiting for the result to come out from the pregnancy test kit. It has been almost three years since we got married and there was never a time that we didn’t try having a baby. But until now, there’s still nothing. I hug my knees and start crying silently, “What if it fails again? Am I infertile?” I ask myself. The kit finally ticks and now I have to face the truth. God knows we’ve been trying so hard that’s why I even ask Kendra to take full charge of the business for now. I stop all my physical activities
(Avery’s Thoughts) Our El Nido, Palawan experience was splendid. And of course, I still can’t believe it. I came there single, “And now, I am officially Avery Tales. I am now married,” I murmur as I stare at both my and his wedding ring while he’s holding my hand in his sleep. It’s been a week since we came back here to America. Of course, the honeymoon stage has just begun and Jeff wants to make love to me almost every time. And me, being a good wife, always give him what he wants. Although, right now, I think I am still a little swollen down there. I go to the bathroom to clean myself up and wash my face as I promised Kendra I’ll be meeting her so we can talk about our new business venture. After brushing my teeth, I wake Jeff up, “Hey, babe. Didn’t you say you have an interview at Kirkland’s Best?”He groans and instead of getting up, he pulls me into the bed and showers me with morning kisses. I giggle as his kisses tickle me, “Babe, stop it. We have a lot of things to do tod
(Avery's Thoughts)Even though the wedding is sudden, Jeff managed to pull it off, and he has planned it all along. So after the wedding ceremony, we stayed for a little bit, I got to finally meet his parents. And for the longest of times, I once again felt the warm embrace of a parent. It made me cry because I knew that I am no longer alone, and no longer an orphan. Because now that we are married, his parents became my parents, too. And I can’t deny, my heart is full. After that, we stayed to talk to our guests for some time, and then we ate and enjoy the party, too. And now I am here standing on the balcony staring at the moonlight, while Jeff is still cleaning. I don’t know why. It isn’t the first time we are going to have sex, but for some reason, now that we are married, there’s this tension inside me, a feeling of hesitation, a feeling that I am officially owned by him. And unexplainably, I feel afraid. And now, my heart almost stops as I hear the gushing of the water fina
(Avery’s Thoughts) Later this evening, all four of us will meet Jeff’s parents. And because of it, I am so dead worried and I can’t get this nervousness out of my system. So while Jeff is away meeting his parents ahead of time, I rush downstairs and go to our neighboring villa. I knock ceaselessly, but Kendra and Nik aren’t coming out. I move back to look up, and I see that the light is on, it means they are there, so I continue to rampage on their door. “Kendra, Kendra,” I knock nonstop, “Open up, please!” I scream a little loud. Then after five minutes of almost breaking their door down, someone finally opens the door for me. “Thank God you finally come out, what took you so l–” I am about to complain but when I see her glaring at me with her hair a little bit frizzy and wrap in a blanket, I know that I should be more careful with my next words. Then later on Nik comes down with a little sweat on his forehead. “Uh-oh, definitely bad timing, Avery,” I say to myself. Then Kend
(Avery’s Thoughts) “Hey, we are going to be late for our flight!” I yell when I notice Kendra still struggling with how to put all her stuff in one big luggage. “Wait up! This stupid luggage just won’t listen to me!” she frustratedly yells back at me. Kendra is not a patient and she hates dealing with this kind of stuff. So I go to her room to check up on her. And there I see her leg wrestling with her luggage just so she can close it up. “Stupid-little-luggage!” she yells and kicks before she pounds it hard in the end. And then she sits beside it looking at me with so much energy wasted. “Help me out, A?” she begs. I smile at her and then gently hit her on her forehead. “That’s why I’ve been telling you to pack a week ago,” I nag at her a little and she sticks her tongue out for a moment. “Hmm, let’s see what unnecessary things you put in here,” I tease her. Then I begin to take out some clothes and things she can’t wear to our destination. “Nope!” “–But I need it.” “–It’
(Kendra’s Thoughts)Then a slight touch on my shoulder and a breathy apology are enough to get hold of the situation, “I am sorry, Kendra. Let me fix this,” is all he says. And even without looking, I know this one is definitely Dmitri’s voice since it triggers the hatred hidden deep within my bones.And as he passed by me, he steps up and grabs the arms of that tallest guy, “Let go, Luke, please,” he calmly says.Then the man who fell suddenly stands up continuing his tantrums like a child, “Why are you siding with them, Dee? He punches me first, you should get mad at that bitchy Heather’s husband” then scowls at Dmitri. But Dmitri is true to his words for the first time in his fucking life, he is trying to fix the situation. He glares at him and Luke, “I said Let go, Luke. Don’t make me say it for the third time, and you, I told you to be more careful with your words, this is my city, they know me here as a businessman, you should have thought of me more before creating a scene. T
(Kendra’s Thoughts)Avery finally got discharged from the hospital and in the meantime, I invite them over to stay in my apartment instead of wasting all their money paying for a hotel room. I have two more spare rooms in my apartment so I guess it is fine. Kervin is still here, so they will look after him while I go out with Nik and enjoy our anniversary. I am about to finish dolling up when A enters my room. “Hey there, gorgeous,” she says while leaning on the side of the door. I am currently wearing my earrings when my side zipper comes undone. So she goes to me and says, “Here, I got this,” she says and helps me out. I can’t stop smiling. I am just happy to know she’s here. I am happy we get to do this again. I hear the zip sound finishes, “Okay, you are good to go, sexy K. Are you going to bring the house down tonight with your fiery red velvet bodycon dress?” she pokes my side. “Oh god, no. We will just eat and then go home since that bitchy wife already knew our annivers