I was so mistaken when I thought he would have allowed me to spend the night in his bed. Instead, he had kicked me off his bed in the middle of the night.
He ordered me to sleep on the icy floor. It was even worse than being in prison. Humiliated and used me to satisfy his desires for Milanda.
I persevered, all for the bigger picture.
Three days later, Milanda summoned me.
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Milanda’s first question was how the Master had been. It was a hard question for me to answer. Thinking of how he was careful with me while I was the ‘Milanda substitute’ but going all cruel with me when he grumbled about how Jacques was taking a long time made me weak with pain.
But I just found the power I needed to swallow everything down and withstand all his abuse. He did not limit his abuse to physical pain. I couldn’t name them all. Humiliation, slavery, bondage, verbal abuse…
“Your resistance is strong,” Milanda remarked, taking her hand off mine. I came to realise I hadn’t expected her sudden action. She continued, “Do you need anything for that pain in you?”
“No,” I replied firmly.
“That’s good. I like you, strong woman.”
I paused. “It’s been three days. I have served him relentlessly, let him perform every fetish he wishes on me, and you haven’t told me what exactly you want.”
I knew she wasn’t Sis Landa, but the witch version of her. It was no mistake of mine. Both of them wore the same clothing: bright red gowns topped with bold makeup, but they didn’t share the same personality. Sis Landa was mature and arrogant. The witch, however, was immature in her ways. She, however, seemed to care a big deal about the Master Lenard.
“I told you I want you to satisfy him.”
“Why do I have to be the scapegoat?’ I had wanted to even add, ‘If you care about him, why can’t you serve him yourself?’ but I refrained from doing so. I wasn’t clear about the motives behind her actions yet.
“Because you can.”
I didn’t understand. What was it about me, which I could do, yet she couldn’t? I tried to think rationally. Everything about this woman puzzled me.
“Wait, what is going on? Who are you exactly?” I asked, ensuring my voice sounded as harmless as possible.
She was silent for a minute before she answered, “I am Princess.”
What princess? Or who is this Princess?
I just grabbed her hand. “Whoever you are, I’ve done a lot for you already. Can’t you just be frank about who you are and what you need from Lenard Lee? What’s your connection with him?”
She flung off my hand as an icy chill hit me in the face.
“I’m Milanda’s enemy. She wants him and I want him. I won’t let her have him.”
“How will using me prevent her from getting him?” I demanded, unsure what she was going on about. She may be a witch, but without me agreeing to her orders, she wouldn’t be able to achieve what she wanted easily.
“I can tell he’s very pleased with your performance. As long as he doesn’t get seduced by that b*tch, I am satisfied.”
“You and Milanda, why do you both look alike and are you related?”
I had barely finished the question when she just collapsed on the floor of Milanda’s room, unconscious. Was she acting? What was she playing at? Questions bombarded themselves in my mind as I attempted to wake her, but to no avail.
Then she suddenly stood upright.
“What are you doing here?” The woman sneered at me, pushing me to the floor. In just a few minutes, she had evolved into the domineering sister that the witch claimed to detest. Sis Landa dusted her clothing before returning to me once more.
Her eyes shifted to the torn dress I was wearing. Pulling me to my feet, she tore open the sleeve of my dress. I retreated, attempting to shield my injuries. Cuts laced my arms, some bruises on my wrists.
Displeased, she reached for my dress. I evaded her touch, knowing what she was about to see would be even more vexatious to her. But she was stronger, and it just took one move to burst the buttons of my dress.
“Sis Landa, I…”
She was flabbergasted to witness the hickeys and bite marks on my skin.
“You…” She didn’t continue speaking.
Her findings had led to a sea of silence between us. She furrowed her brow, heading to the window, followed by a long sigh.
I eased my way towards her, clutching the remains of my dress to preserve my dignity. I was bare underneath and without the witch to teleport me, walking through the den would be a major embarrassment since she had left me with no good buttons.
“Sis Landa, please listen to me.”
“I rescued you. But you listened to the words of that shrew, didn’t you?”
I knew who she was talking about. But when the witch fainted, Sis Landa had woken up in the same body. Except one of them had magic. I suspected Milanda had a split personality disorder.
A person with a split personality or multiple identity wouldn’t admit to being that. Milanda, as far as I was concerned, seemed fine psychologically. Unless she was such a talented actress that she could fool me easily.
No matter what, she had saved me. I hung my head low, nodding.
“Then continue. Whatever she has achieved through you, I hope it works. She will never have him.”
What was going on? What was the deal between the two different parts of her and the Master I feared so much?
“Sis Landa…” I tried to probe, but she cut me off before I could even say a further word.
“Say nothing more. I saved you, so you owe me. Continue serving Lenard Lee, until I say otherwise. Or until that man named Jacques comes to remove you from this place.”
“You know about Jacques?”
She ignored my question and looked out of the window, down at the nature outside her room. I knew I wouldn’t get an answer from her, so took a few steps backward, leaving her to her devices.
She was probably a deranged person. But knowing Jacques was the answer to my freedom, I just prayed hard he would make it to take me away.
As long as he took me away, I knew I would give him all that he wanted. No matter what it was.
I thought about Jacques’ words to me as I spent the next three days in seclusion at the safe house. Lenard frequently sent people to visit me and ensure I was fine, and knowing he wasn’t coming, I just felt gladder. The discomfort in my body from sharing a bed with the person who hurt me in the past, plus how I was being used by Kaiser for his needs and then, slept with my ex, tended to make me dizzy.I had to strike eventually. Lenard and Lee Jung were why I was in this sorry state. If not for what happened to me, I would be living a happy blissful life with Syl now as his woman. Thinking of Syl, I recalled his dismayed face after we had intercourse. He wasn’t in love. I was just a fragment of his past affection for the easygoing and spirited Piper who was the best buddy of Sherry Summers.Not to forget that I now wished she was dead.
“What happened? Why am I here?”I fought the blanket, struggling to move from the bed. I don’t remember what happened after Lee Jung threatened to record the video. All I wanted was to get away from him, to escape. He had pointed a knife at my neck to make me do his bidding, gloating at me like how Kaiser Klef used a gun to force me to have sex with him.I am now in an unfamiliar bed. Some young men and women are attending to me. A girl wipes my forehead with a damp cloth and another scans my temperature with an infrared gun. Some are watching over me, and two men are guarding the door.“Is anyone listening? Why am I here?” I raised my voice, wringing my hands to get attention. The girl wiping my forehead cowers and retreats, stammering nervously from a distance.“Miss Piper, please don’t get mad. You were found in a disarray in a ditch, soaked to the skin and unconscious. You were also running a high fever.”I scrutinised the girl, unsure whether to believe her words. Lee Jung had us
Syl looked at me sympathetically as I told him about the agony I suffered at Kaiser’s hands, starting from the interview up to bedding his brother-in-law and then being sent to serve Lenard Lee. “I shouldn’t have trusted him.” I said, not allowing myself to shed any tears. “But I did, and I made the wrong choice.” “Piper,” he heaved a long sigh and took me into a bear hug. “I thought you were going to hate me for all I did to you then.” My heart numbed. If only I knew the truth, would things have turned out differently? I was still infertile and could never give him biological children. This was why I had left him in the first place, and things could never go back to the past. “I don’t hate you, Syl,” I answered after a short pause. “I just know we… can’t.” “Why not, Piper? After how I opened up to you about my secret of being an undercover agent? You still can’t trust me? Are you still mad about how I treated you then?” “It’s been so long, Syl. Of course, I can’t be still angry a
“What’s up? You’ve been quiet all day.”Lenard Lee glanced at me as I finished my food silently. My lower abdomen hurt like hell. I don’t know what beast the man I loved before had turned into after he consummated his relationship with Erica Gao. I regretted moving here, even though it was where Kaiser was allegedly from. What I thought to be a new start between us, turned out to be a total nightmare.Even my tormentor had turned into a different person overnight. I was clueless about what was happening, and why he had a strange side to him, but it wasn’t until the last two months that I discovered his considerateness. He had been rather harsh when Kaiser sent me there, but it wasn’t until I discovered he was seeing therapy himself, that I realised what was the reason behind his change of personality. His sweetness was starting to dissolve the hate I had for him, although I still feel inclined to have my revenge. I felt lost like I no longer had my sense of direction. From the day Ka
I was discharged over the weekend. Lenard sent his men to get me, and I reflected on Kaiser’s words during the silent car journey. “We can torture her further. You just need to know you’re worth more than them. And how to execute your plan right.” Would he say the same about his wife? I watched the man guarding beside me flip his newspaper. There was an article about Kaiser Klef and Erica Gao. On the outside, they looked like any happy couple. But Kaiser hadn’t been going home for weeks now, and Erica probably was sick somewhere. I hoped that she was being kept at some mental institution because she deserved it. Not that I was any happier doing what I did. Lenard had been nice to me while I was in hospital but it didn’t change the fact I was not going to be his wife. I was his possession and sex slave. A lover was just a fancy word considering it was with someone who raped and broke me. I could never bring myself to be a lover of that monster. “I hope you’re better now that that j
After Kaiser left, I stayed for one more day in the motel, staring aimlessly towards the ceiling before I finally found the courage to return. It didn’t take me long before Lenard Lee’s men captured me and took me back to see him.I didn’t say a thing. They were very polite, but when I passed the main hall flanked by his best guards, what bothered me was not the sight of blood, but a woman being disrespected. The irony was this was the same woman who had lost me in the streets, Freya. Some cuts ran over her thighs and dried bloodstains over her back.But noticing how the men pleasured themselves with her body was more than I could stand. It was bringing back the traumatic past in me. I whirled around, screaming as I relived how Lenard’s men had used me like an object three years ago. How they shared with me and treated me like I was garbage like I deserved it. I hadn’t asked to be captured. I hadn’t asked to be raped. I just couldn’t fight back at that time because of the weakness in