15 years ago
Monday is the worst day for me and it's because it's the beginning of the week hence a long transition to Friday- my favorite day into the weekend mostly because i love staying at home. If schooling wasn't a necessity or mandatory, i would totally buy the idea of staying at home for the rest of my life but education is the greatest gift you can give a child.
My parents forced that quote into my brain since i was born. They wanted me to be successful, who could blame them.
I step into the hallway and something unusual caught my eyes. People staring at me like i am the best thing since sliced bread but then again, i am no sliced bread, in fact, I'm the opposite in the worst way. Overly big glasses, braces, two sectioned cornrows, bright rainbow-colored armless turtleneck sweater, calf-length pleated skirt, and flats aren't exactly a sight to see except to make fun of which i guess they're doing but then again, even that has never happened before. I was invisible even with my appearance way before now so what changed?
Did i wake up uglier?
"April!" Iris my best friend tapped my shoulder from the back and i turn to accommodate her in sight.
"Hey, sorry i took off on Saturday, i got crushed..."
Iris cut me off
"You haven't been online have you?"
"No, what's there to see?" I take out a textbook from my locker.
"This" she shoves an image on her phone to my face
"What the hell!" I whisper in shock and bewilderment
My whole fucking love confession to Jordan on Messenger was sent to the entire school.
Unable to fight back the tears, i hurry into the toilet.
"Who did this?" I sniffle as i pace back and forth, shameful tears pouring down my cheeks.
"Did you tell him about it on Saturday?"
I think it's high time i told you about what happened on Saturday. The worst day of my life.
Prom day, an opportunity for high schoolers to dress to kill, elect king and queen, make-out session and other engagements but i, on the other hand, was on a mission to tell Jordan i have a crush on him. Call me crazy but i own a relationship podcast that encourages the need to always express your feelings to someone you like cause life is too short to be regretful. I am about to listen to my own words and follow my podcast advice.
Thanks to Iris for encouraging me to do this cause honestly, i don't think i might be able to pull this off on my own. She gave me the push i needed. I tried to look less April tonight by squeezing my body in a bandage midi-length gown that once in a while cease my breathing and my mum's red bottom ankle straps. I part my 4c hair in the center, i ditched my glasses for black contact lens but my braces were a no-no. Asides that, i almost looked like Jordan's spec. Or so i thought.
After seeing Jordan alone at the far end of the ball, it was now or never. I took a deep breath before making my way to him. Take control God.
"Hi" i slowly reduce the size of my grin after noticing it was too wide
"Hey April" he gives me his admirable dimpled smile. He's perfect, too perfect and this was a big mistake-no it's not, you're already here so go for it-ok.
I always lose to my subconscious self.
"You know my name" definitely not a question. He literally knows my name.
Now or never.
I remained silent in the awkward situation and he seemed to notice my uneasiness.
"You good? Do you need anything?"
I hurriedly grabbed his arm into the exterior balcony and without wasting a second, i kissed him. And yes you can say that was the worst decision ever cause my braces wrecked my romantic moment.
"I like you Jordan and i sent you a message on messenger to express how i feel but i never got a blue tick nor your reply and i thought maybe if i could tell you in person..." I stopped midway my rambling.
"Errrm... Okay" still shocked i supposed
And after a while of silence, i asked myself, What.the.fuck.just.happened?.
And just like that, he walked out of sight.
I didn't know whether to cry or laugh at my stupid self for thinking and comparing this situation to my podcast relationship channel. At the end of the day, i knew for sure i didn't belong here so i went home with my broken heart.
So that was what happened over the weekend and now the entire school is aware of everything that transpired. Fuck.me.
"This is bad iris" i drop my face in my palm.
"You know what, screw Jordan, screw that message and screw the entire school, you shouldn't give a damn about what anyone thinks, you were brave for telling and you shouldn't regret or feel bad" she opens her arms to hug me and i trap myself in her embrace.
But the truth is, i regret everything i did.
" Hey loser, did you really think you had a shot with my boyfriend?" Macy and her two minions walk into the restroom.
"Guess she thought she was Cinderella for a heartbeat" Maddy scoffed.
"Nice try weirdo, next time look the part before the interview slut"
She pours the smoothie in her hand on my flats.
"Oops, not sorry, there's more where that came from let's go girls."
"Iris.." I burst into tears
"Oh dear come here"
It's official, today is the worst day of my life.
Chapter 2Present DayToday, I am looking and feeling like Tika Sumpter from the movie Nobody's Fool and by that, I mean short bob hair, perfectly tailored blue crepe trousers and polka dot chiffon blouse tucked underneath with black pumps to die for. The company I work for senior as editor and show host, 101 Corp is one of the biggest brands in the country owning a widely acclaimed style magazine and Radio station that mostly airs gossip shows in the entertainment industry. Ijoined the company five years ago as contract staff, working my butts off to become a prominent employee and I can tell you for free that Isucceeded.I punch in level 15 in the elevator praying earnestly that no one joins because I hate getting cramped up with people on the ride. My Prayer was almost answered until I saw someone's leg halt the complete closure of the door."....my elevator is broken, send maintenance to come check it ou
Chapter 3AprilWhatever happened last night is in the past and I won't hold it against myself for giving in to him. Today is a new day, the dawn of redemption."Good morning Jackson" I, as usual, gestured towards the security official guarding the ground floor."Good Morning Ms. April"he took a bowI mount on the elevator all smiles until what felt like a Dejavu from the previous morning emerged.Someone halting the elevator door. Crap!My panic attack almost transitioned to a heart attack and only eased down when I saw who.Always slutty dressed Zendaya. 101 Mag junior editor."Morning," she said as if forced to speak with no respect for courtesy."Morning"I take a sneak peek at her outfit and my jaw dropped."Isn't this too short for a workplace Zendaya?
Chapter 4AprilI quickly wipe my face clean of tears, clearing my throat and then stood up to exchange pleasantries. Because I'm sure he sent me those gifts earlier."Thanks for the gifts" I faked a smileHe didn't ask why I had puffy eyes or why my eyeliner smudged my eyes therefore creating dark circles beneath my lower lashes. He just pulled me close into a hug and I couldn't help what followed next. Tears. Uncontrollable tears.This was the first time since Luke that I leaned on a Masculine shoulder to vent my emotions. I didn't say a word, I just cried as he stroked my back continuously.After what seemed like forever I stopped crying."Thank you" I aimed for the exit feeling awkward.I've never cried before in the presence of someone I didn't know in fact this is the first I've cried with someone in sight.
Chapter 5AprilKing Lee meows."I wish I can take you with me too but they don't allow underaged to step into the club"Call me weird, I don't care. I like to talk to King Lee like a person even though he's a puppy.Megan, Vanessa and I initiated girls night twice in a Month on Saturdays much to the fact that it's the only time we all get to hang out as a result of the busy schedule with our jobs."See you in a bit"I halt the speed of my car as i approached the traffic light on red and then suddenly a car hit the back of my car.What the hell?!.I alight to check the damage done.I looked around to see if i can find Road officials but of course, it's too late to find any. I am just going to deal with this lady's way."I am so sorry Ma'am"
Chapter 6AprilMy reflection was lying to me.How can i feel so complete yet incomplete?So far I'd been lucky. Got a good job that pays me very well, will soon complete my mortgage payments, have amazing friends, got a car, i am happy.Though sometimes i suffer from all the symptoms of a mid-life crisis, comparing myself to my friends, wondering if I'll ever find more fulfillment in life, i am still happy and contented.Megan was right. I do need the D.I took another glance at myself in the bathroom mirror, carefully looking for where i might start wrinkling out.Are you truly happy? I ask myself."Of course i am," i answered.We both know that's a facade."I'm not talking to you anymore"Gosh, my subconscious self is so daring and nosy.
Chapter 7AprilMy phone buzzed as i finished the last paperwork on my desk.It's a group text from the girls indicating i have four more hours to get to the tarmac. I'm done With Magazine related work and I've got no show to anchor today so I'll make it to the private jet in no time."This is the issue for this week's publication" Corrine hands me a copy of the Magazine.Of course, Cavanaugh didn't rule out Zendaya's article. I sigh into my palm in disgust but i won't let this ruin the beginning of my funfilled trip with the girls. Besides, i took two weeks leave so i have fourteen days to not think about work. Fourteen days to have fun and be there for Vanessa's wedding.Corrine, of course, would have to mail things that needed my attention but she is capable of tending to thetrivial things."Its fine Corrine, book me an Uber in thirty min
Chapter 8April"Hey Mom, we are about to leave, please don't forget to take my car to the mechanic and have him fix the scratch at the back ... Love you too"I air-kissed her then hung up.Megan had gone with Vanessa to explore the master suite while the guys are having a drink. I safely secure King Lee to sleep in one of the seats close to me and then bury my head in a magazine to avoid making eye contact with you know who."Can't avoid me for long" I heard JC said as he majestically walked towards my direction."You are so full of yourself you know, just because I didn't acknowledge your message gave you the presumption whereasI have been busy, too busy to text back a douchebag" I laid emphasis by dragging the last sentence."So you saw my message" He stuffed his hands in his pockets.I felt his eyes on me and it made me hot inside but it all turned cold when I saw Megan comi
Chapter 9AprilMoney is numbers and numbers don't end. If your happiness is measured by money, do all it takes to increase the numbers to a point you don't need to work to earn it anymore.That was what I could only think of as I entered my room in the Mandarin Oriental luxurious hotel.I'd only seen photos of the 18th Century property online with the girls but I didn't expect it to look so grand in physical.Traditionally filled with cascaded history.My room had a floor to ceiling glass view opposite the large bed, heated marble-floored bathroom with tub, and a balcony that revealed the beauty outside especially the famous Milan Cathedral that took nearly six centuries to complete and the Teatro Alla Scala.I hurriedly dropped my box by the bedside to go check out the other girl's room especially Vanessa's.Jason booked a