Chapter 3 - Disappointment

Amelie POV

“It was not Kate’s fault,” Colby said, trying to reduce the rage that was flowing inside of me. “So as a result of someone not liking Kate, my wolf has to suffer?” I asked bluntly. “It was not that simple,” Colby replied. “It is true Amelie. We thought where you had signs of being an Alpha, that your wolf would surface and there would be no side effects,” Kate said.

“But there are side effects aren’t there Kate?” I asked snidely. I cannot help the anger inside me and how it is projecting. “It seems there are some baby girl,” Kate replied. “Do not call me that. I am not a baby any longer. I no longer know what I am,” I said to them both turning away from them. “You are a strong young woman, Amelie. You are an Alpha in this Pack. We will figure out how to help heal your wolf,” Kate said.

“And how are you going to do that Kate? Have you got some secret power up your sleeve that will release my wolf from whatever hell it is in right now?” I asked. I am scared for my wolf. When wolves are stagnant, they go crazy. Would I go crazy? Would I lose my mind as my wolf lost its mind? What about Jaxon? Why did he not come back and see me? I needed him here to help assure me everything would be alright. I mind-linked Jaxon but realized he still had blocked me. What did that mean, I wonder.

Kate moves behind me, turning me towards her. “Come back with us, Amelie. We will figure out what is going on. I will contact Miranda and ask her to come at once to see if there is anything she can do,” Kate promises me. I know Miranda, or rather Aunt Miranda as I refer to her, would only be able to help if there was something wiccan involved in me not having a wolf. Miranda was a powerful witch who was mated to Beta Rick, from the Black Shadow Pack. If anyone could break a spell, she would be able to.

“I thought this was a result of the wolfsbane and not a spell?” I asked, confused but wanting a drop of hope. “We will try everything Amelie, to get your wolf to come out as she should,” Kate promise me. As we turn to head towards the Pack house, Jaxon comes out of the trees. “Amelie, can I have a word with you?” he asks.

I smile in relief nodding and telling Kate and Colby I would meet them back at home. Jaxon was what I needed. Kate and Colby moved off smiling at both of us. Jaxon was not smiling at all. He moved forward and I met him in the middle, wrapping my arms around his waist. He wrapped his arms around me lightly before quickly pushing me back away from him. I looked at him confused.

“Amelie, what happened?” Jaxon asks quietly. I looked at him, “I do not know,” I told him. I also shared with him what Kate and Colby just shared with me. About the wolfsbane poison and the belief that the poisoning has something to do with my wolf. “I am sorry to hear that Amelie,” Jaxon said as he turned away from me. I know he has more to say, and my heart is breaking at his lack of connection to me. I need him right now. I need him to tell me everything will be alright. That he will stand by me.

“But?” I asked trying not to sound bitter. “But I cannot be with someone who does not have a strong wolf,” he replied as he turns around. There is no emotion in his eyes. No sadness. “I explained to you I have a wolf, she is just slow coming to the surface,” I reminded him trying not to sound desperate but knowing there is desperation in my voice. Tears coming to my eyes.

“You do not have a wolf Amelie. You have a mangy mutt worse than an Omega wolf,” Jaxon replied as he turns away. I grab his arm, “Please, just give it a chance Jaxon. I love you. I need you,” I said to him begging him not to leave me like this. He shakes my hand off, “Just don’t Amelie. I am embarrassed for you. A strong Alpha has a strong wolf. You are not an Alpha; you are no better than an Omega!” he yelled at me before he turns and walks away.

I fall to my knees in the wet grass feeling it soak into my clothes. It does not matter. Nothing matters but the betrayal I feel by everyone. Kate, Colby, the rogues who destroyed my wolf and Jaxon. I fall to the ground and curl up in a ball crying and screaming my pain. Nobody was here so I could simply stay like this and maybe the Moon Goddess would take my life now. I could get pneumonia and simply die. I knew that was a hopeless wish. Wolves did not get sick. And if I did, Kate would do everything she could to save me and bring me back to my now pathetic life.

I do not know how long I laid there before I felt the gentle hands of Colby scoop me up in his strong arms. “Come on baby girl, it is time to go inside,” he said as he cradled me like I was a baby. I continued crying in his arms as he carried me back to the Pack house. I assumed he must have advised everyone to clear out as there was nobody around, which was unusual. I was grateful nobody was around as I needed the space to grieve.

Jaxon had basically dumped me. What were Pack members saying about me as they had stared at my neglected wolf? Would they remember I was poisoned, or did they even know? And if they knew, would they have an easier time accepting me? I wondered about my best friend Jessica. I had not seen her tonight for my first shift. I was not certain why, but I hoped I would see her first thing tomorrow. I needed my bestie to help me get through the worst time of my life.

First my wolf and then losing my boyfriend … I could not handle anything more. As Colby reached my bedroom Kate was there to help me change. She sat with me just holding me until I fell asleep. I could feel the pain both Kate and Colby were experiencing but I could say nothing to help ease their burden. I had my own demons I was dealing with.  And I had very little idea what those demons would turn out to be.