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9: Friends have their ways
"The conflict between the will to deny horrible events and the will to proclaim them aloud is the central dialectic of psychological trauma."
~Judith Lewis HermanRogue's POV
"When are you going to be done?" Groans Lare loudly from the bedroom.
Lare whine from outside the bathroom where I currently am, trying to get my hair into its perfect form. Lare came in a while ago and insisted that I come with him to his restaurant/bar which is officially opening today and though we've discussed finance and responsibilities of owning and running many months ago, I lost track of how far they'd gone after my life went to shit many weeks ago. I am delighted that Lare is archiving one of his many dreams and when he came in to invite me to the formal opening earlier, although not really in the mood, I had to show support to my dear friend and also because I knew he
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