Chapter 4

Instinctively, a smiled appeared on my face. I couldn't let her see through my pain. The last thing I wanted to do was plunge her into my suffering and cause her to worry. Thank god, I thought to conceal my dark circles while I was getting ready or she would have seen right through me.

Grandmother! What are you doing over here? Why didn't you tell me that your were coming over?” I asked as I hugged. Her body was warm and her familiar scent calmed my nerves. I ddinr realise how much I wanted someone to just embrace me.

“ Well I'm sorry dear. I know I just sprung up on you but I had to see you. I hope my dear granddaughter in law is happy to see me.”

She smiled, looking at me as lovingly as she always did. I suppressed the urge to just fall apart and tell her everything. I can't break her heart so for now, she will just had to believe that I am happy and there is nothing wrong.

“ Don't be silly, grandmother. I'm always happy to see you. In fact, you haven't been visiting me enough. I thought you were forgetting about me,” I teased her trying to lighten up the mood.

We walked inside laughing.

I prepared some tea and snacks for

grandmother to enjoy as we talked. By the looks of it, grandmother must not be aware of what Marcus was up to with Anna. She would have asked me but she hasn't even mentioned anything about it to me. I don't know if it's a good or a bad thing. I suppose it is a good thing. For her health, I hope she doesn't find out.

“ Dear, do you know what I came to visit you, today.”

“ I figured you missed me just as I missed you,” I joked.

“ Yes, I missed you a lot dear but I'm more worried about you and Marcus.”

At the mention of Marcus, I struggled to keep a neutral face and not show any bad reaction.

“ What do you mean, grandmother. What is there to be worried about?”

She took a sip of her tea and sighed.

“ I have been trying to talk to Marcus about this but you know how stubborn he is. Even when he was a little boy, he didn't like being told what to do. So it has been difficult to get through to him,” she said, placing her cup down. I could already sense where this was going.

“ As an elder, I can't just sit back and let things be. I took it upon myself to intervene. My dear, Marcus and you have been married for 3 years yet in all these years, both of you have yet to make me grandchildren.”

How I wanted to tell her the truth. Under normal circumstances, I would have told her the news she was dying to hear to make her happy. Unfortunately, I can't tell her without talking to Marcus first. I'll just tell her what Marcus said to her. I have no choice.

“ Uh, grandmother, you are right. Marcus and have not been trying to have a child. As you know, he is always busy with work and is hardly ever home. I just thought it's okay for him to work on his career and focus on business right now. So I never brought up having a child and I don't think it's the right time. He is under pressure and I just don't want to add to that.”

I was lying to her face, although not everything is a lie. Marcus and I never talked about having a child and we were not trying to have one. That much is true.

“ I know that but you are not getting any younger. It's not that I am trying to tell you guys what to do. You are adults and know what you are doing but I just want to say, you are not getting younger. The longer you take, the harder it will be for you to conceive. Besides that, both of you are only children. If anything happens to either of you, no one will be left to carry on the family legacy.”

I bit my lip to prevent myself from saying anything. I can't tell her. I just can't. I hate that I am lying to her becuase she had been nothing but an angel in my life. Without her, I would have nothing in my life. I would have not met Marcus and I would not be married to him right now. I am always thankful that she took me in and treated me with nothing but love and kindness.

“ Don't worry grandma. Marcus and I will get there. Just give us more time. I'm sure in due time, Marcus will understand you and by then, he will be ready to do the right thing. He just needs a little more time.”

“ I trust you dear. As his wife, you will be able to get throuh to him, one way or another.”

I could only force a smile and nod. Get through to him? I thought I would be able to but now, I'm not so sure. I'm not even sure where Marcus and I stand. So much has happened in such a short span of time and I barely had time to process it. I wish I had the confidence grandma had in me but as things stand, I can't be sure of anything.”

Grandmother scooted closer to me. My hand was shaking and I tried to clench my fist to stop it from shaking. Grandma put her hand over mine and gave me her sweet smile.

“ You don't have to worry about anything, dear. Marcus will come around. I will make sure of it. I made a promise to always take care of you and make sure that you have a good life. You don't have to endure my grandmother's tantrums by yourself. If he ever gives you a hard time or mistreat you, don't hesitate to tell me. I will set him right.”

Grandmother stayed for an hour more before she left and I was alone again. All that baby talk was overwhelming. I had no one to confide in about my truth. I just felt so alone despite grandmother's support. It's been a while since I felt this way and now I miss my parents dearly. I miss them more than ever at this moment.