What pain demands

Raymond’s POV

I froze.

My breath hitched as Jude’s words echoed in my mind, crashing against the last fragments of sanity I was clinging to.

“Suck my cock, Raymond.”

He said it so casually like it wasn’t the most obscene thing he could ask at that moment. As if it was the most natural request in the world.

I blinked up at him, heart pounding, lips parted in shock.

“I… I’m not doing that,” I managed to say, even though my voice came out hoarse and uncertain. “I already told you—I’m not into men.”

He tilted his head, his smirk fading slightly. “Don’t you want the pain to disappear?”

My heart throbbed with pain, my teeth sinking into my bottom lip. I felt as if I was on fire, but that wasn’t enough reason for me to….I couldn’t….

“Raymond.” I flinched as his voice turned dark, trembling like a tumbleweed. Even still I avoided his gaze, my brows furrowed in thought.

Do I really have to do this?

Just then, my heart lurched as if I had been bunched in the gut, a sharp pain shooting through my veins. I doubled over, panting for air as my vision blurred.

“You’re stubborn.” Jude chuckled, his arms crossed against his chest as he watched me with an amused glint in his eyes. “Should I watch how long you will last?”

I forced myself to look up at him, and he cocked a brow, his tongue darting out to lick his lips.

“So what would it be?”

“I—Aah!” I was cut off by another wave of pain, my eyes wide as I realized there was no escaping it—no escaping him.

With the last of my strength, I forced myself to muster; “I…I’ll do it.”

A devilish grin overtook his features and I gulped my spit, goosebumps littering my skin.

“Good choice.”

My eyes rounded as he pulled out his dick from his pants without hesitation.

Lord. How can he be…so big…

I stared at him for way too long, and he slapped me with his dick, bringing me back to reality.

“Come on.” His expression was neutral, but his eyes….they told a different story, resembling a calm storm.

I braced myself, my shaky hands reaching for him. The pain made me hazy, but I took a deep breath, forcing myself to focus, but…

What the hell am I supposed to do?

“Uhm….” Heat burst in my cheeks. God this was so embarrassing. “How do I….”

Jude arched a brow, his lips spreading into a mocking smirk. “Would you like some help?”

“Ye—”

Without warning, he suddenly thrust into my mouth, his head tipped back and his eyes squeezed shut. My throat stretched, and I choked, tears stinging my eyes. I instinctively tried to pull back, but he held me in place, forcing me to take all of him as his hips snapped forward violently.

I could feel him press against my throat, and saliva dribbled down my chin as I struggled to keep up. He was hard and hot, not giving me time to catch my breath.

The pain from the bite had morphed into something else, like a feverish feeling that spread through my body. His grip on his hair tightened, and the lack of oxygen made me lightheaded.

He suddenly pulled out, causing me to erupt into a fit of coughs, my chest heaving. I looked up at him helplessly, my eyes pleading.

But he greeted me with that sick smile.

“Stick your tongue out.” He ordered, and I hesitantly obeyed, uncertainly flashing in my eyes.

He slid into my mouth, slowly this time, and I swirled my tongue around his tip.

Jude froze, his brows pulled together as his smile faltered, his eyes hooded with pleasure. “Do that again.”

I had done it without thinking, but now it was even more embarrassing. I used to dream of the moment a woman would suck me off, but here I was, doing it to a man instead.

I did as he said, letting my tongue glide against his tip slowly. At the same time, he pushed further into my mouth, but not like before. My lips closed around him,

making sure my teeth didn’t graze him as I took him inch by inch.

My heart raced, and my fingers trembled as they wrapped around his base, making up for the place my mouth couldn’t reach.

Was I doing this right?

“Fuck yes.” A moan slipped from his lips, and I looked up at him out of pure curiosity. Our gazes met and something flashed in his eyes, but it was gone before I could tell what it was.

But watching him…with that expression….

Why did it make my heart skip a beat?

I felt him twitch in my mouth, and on instinct, I took all of him in. His eyes widened, and he groaned as he threw his head back, his grip on my hair tightened.

With one more thrust, he burst into my mouth, his thick cum pooling on my tongue. I tried not to gag at the salty taste. It was warm, and my cheeks flushed with embarrassment at the thought.

Jude’s breathing was ragged as he came down from his release. I thought he’d pull out, but instead, his hand found my chin, firm and deliberate, as if ensuring nothing had slipped away from his control.

His gaze was still clouded with desire, but beneath the heat, there was something else—something darker. Whatever it was, it sent a chill racing down my spine.

“Swallow.”

I did as I was told, swallowing his seed while his dick constricted against the walls of my throat. He groaned, his chest heaving slightly.

“See.” Finally, he pulled out, and I gasped for air, collapsing on the bed as my body gave out from fatigue. Just like he said, the pain vanished in an instant. “That wasn’t so bad was it?”

My throat was hoarse, but I managed to speak. “Can…can we stick to kissing…”

Jude zipped his pants and jumped off the bed. And I waited anxiously for his reply, unconsciously holding my breath. He spared me a glance over his shoulder, his cold demeanor returning.

“That’s not your choice to make.”