“Do we have a problem, Corbin?” I grunt, shrugging the heavy black shirt over my head. “Because when Cass defeats Elle, I’ve suggested you should be her Beta. I’ve heard nothing but excellent things about you?”
He shook his head and gestured to the right of the fire. Dozens of men in sleeping bags, blankets, and even straw piled high. They’re living rough.“Excellent? Look at this place. We’re on the run. We are all waiting for Cassie. We believe she’s going to come through, take her throne. I’ve got a few men itching to defect for a shot at trying to find the gold she’s stashed on the coast though.”“How many?”“At least a dozen. Silver brands aren’t a personality trait, but you tell someone they’re scum long enough they’ll start acting like it.”Corbin and Raphael would find lots in common. Both are so steady and serious. No interest in gossip. I noticed Corbin’s aged, brittle chainmail over his grey long-sleeved top, his boots in need of repair. Maybe Volare can help with some things.“What else do you know about the silver branding? Anything at all? Volare has always considered brands insignificant, but now I’m finding out Kallio was correct.”“Just that after Elder Brent took charge decades ago, it all turned against silver-brands. I don’t know why. My fathers generation, we were just lazy, then stupid. Eventually dangerous. They’ve been recorded for generations, though. It was something each family line did, and then it got more official.”The fire danced between us as Corbin clenched his hands together. If this had been Cesar, Brent, or Elle, I’d consider it a dance, trying to work out the truth. But Corbin was so flatly specific.No games, no illusions. Just his grey eyes shining through the darkness, contrasting with the orange flame in a way that unnervingly reminded of the clashing visions my wolf had just shared.“Elders recording everyone?”Corbin nodded. His jaw was clamped shut, his short brown hair constantly being rubbed by his free hand. My wolf suggests I’m making him remember some unpleasant times. “As soon as Elle took over, with Cassandra being silver-branded like us, it only confirmed what every village had been whispering anyway. That we weren't good enough.”“You’ve already proven that wrong,” I offer. Corbin didn’t answer, only raised his eyebrows and looked around at the rows of sleeping, bedraggled men.“Look…what Cass thought she heard, saw, at the cliffs. It wasn’t real. She’s in Volare waiting for me now. Elle played a sick trick on us both.”Corbin didn’t answer. I guess he’s waiting for instructions from his Luna. If any of my men were in the same position, I suppose I’d want them to act the same. “She’s my mate.”“I guessed that one on my own,” he replies sarcastically.“But she doesn’t want to be Luna of Volare, even though that would be so much easier. She wants Kallio. Her birthright. To put everything right for all of you.”That did it. Corbin’s grey eyes lit up. “Well all she has to do is ask us. Apart from the dozen itching to leave, I have another eighty ready to serve.”“That’s impressive. When I get back we’ll try and get some fresh armour and weapons over to you?”“Here!” Robyn whispered merrily, tiptoeing whilst offering me beer, throwing branches on the fire. “How is Cassie? He never said anything-” gesturing at her brother. “He said she wanted to be on her own. But I never wanted her to leave, I wish I’d told her everything. I should have tracked her with you,” facing her brother with those wide searching blue eyes again. “Then Dominic running to the Kallio guards! It all happened so quickly!”“Robyn, Cass ran away because of me, not you,” I confirm.“You?”Nodding grimly, the sting of guilt in my gut is fresh and sharp. But Corbin kept her secret. Another reason to approve of him. If I use my Alpha head anyway. Rolling up the sleeves of the heavy black shirt, I sigh into the fire.“When Dominic fled to the Kallio guards, it was a huge slap in the face for all of us,” Corbin adds. “We’ve just been used, keeping him safe until he could serve Elle.”“Fuckbag, I hope they chopped his head off,” Robyn hissed and I immediately understood her and Cassandra being fast friends, concealing a smile.From her quiet, timid start Cass had described her confidence growing every day. Now reunited with her family, she was bright and engaging.“We all make mistakes, believe me. Trust…trust is tricky,” I add taking a sip of the cold beer.In my heart, I battle a growing worry. Maybe Cass would be fine if she rejected me? Perhaps, like Dominic, I am surplus to my mates requirements now she has loyal servants like Corbin to fight in her name. Are my wolf and I only a hindrance to victory?Except Cass loves me. So I need to get a fucking grip and get back. I just need to feel her in my arms again. Drown in coconut.“Dominic is dead. But can we keep that quiet for now?” I add with a whisper. I don’t know and almost don’t want to ask what plans Cass has for that head.“Of course, where is Marcus, is he back in Volare?”“He is. In fact the reason I came over the river here was to ask Robyn, if you would come back to Volare with me?”“How? The bridge is up!”“We’ll swim. Shifted, it’s doable. I’ve done it twice now. Cass and has done it too.”Robyn didn’t wait a second. She put down her beer and turned to her brother. “I’ve got to go! You know how worried I’ve been about her. It’s not like we’ll lose each other again. Marcus too…I mean…I'm so sorry I jumped you Ayr. You don't even smell similar!” beginning to blush, Corbin wraps a huge arm around her. Pulling her along the wooden log until she is nestled in the crook of his arm.“You know you can do whatever you choose, Robby. Like you say, we won’t lose each other now. Never again. Stop worrying," planting a kiss on the top of her copper hair. As she beamed into his armoured chest, I got his hard grey stare of warning.Plan agreed, we didn't waste another minute.Robyn trekked us west, back to the river. With limited supplies and no weapons, we hiked around the outskirts for a full day. My wolf had wandered much further than I ever realised.Robyn soon told me everything about her life in Pemberton. Her violent ex, the bars just for the silver-marked. How the gossip rags were starting to suggest Elle had thrown me out for violence towards her.After just a day of travelling together, Robyn already feels like my own little sister. Meaning, she badgered me into revealing more than I ever intended.About how Cass and I found our bond, the shoreline. At every snippet of information she would coo. Then, dozens of questions about Marcus and Volare followed.Considering they know they're not mates, they seem pretty set on esch other. Marcus must have some hidden depths besides the sex he normally brags so constantly about.How much of our Volare life would change if Marcus left? He would inevitably be based in Kallio, alongside his girl and her brother.For Corbin and Robyn are Cass’s allies, not mine. It was a selfish response, but I'm already having to accept my mate not wanting to reside with me.Dawn marked a week since I left. It’s not good. We’re taking too long.As the sun rose, I stretched and growled myself out of exhaustion only to find Robyn already awake, staring ahead.“I was thinking Alpha…”“You know you can call me Ayr, we’ve been over this?” I reply, rubbing my eyes.Tomorrow, I wake up with Cass. Maybe I'll tickle her awake and risk another maiming. Or throw a bucket of water and watch her go ape about it, only to subdue with her with furious kisses until she laughs into my chest.“Anyway, I think…We’re leaving all these clothes at the river's edge anyway? We can cut hours off if we just go for it now. I think I’d like to shift. It’s been years since I last did it.”“Let’s do it. One second-” before handing her the rest of the food. “Hunting is a bit foul. We might as well start with full stomachs.”Corbin is the first to arrive, urgency in his steely eyes. He and Ayr now share the dubious honour of matching neck scars. I imagine his lower chest is even more grisly after the attack on him “Is everything okay? It’s so fantastic to see you,” enjoying the sweep of his huge, iron-like hug. The sweet scent of warm baking is the only soft feature about this hardened leader. “When they set up a room for me to recover in, they found this. I thought you should have it,” withdrawing a thick envelope from his jacket. “It’s written by your mother.” I stare at the aged paper and wonder just what I will gain from reading her drunken rantings. “What made you bring this? She must have hundreds of letters, I know she kept a diary too.”“She addressed it to you. It’s the only one with your name on it. No diaries found.” "Go on, I’ll greet everyone else. It will only irritate you if you don’t read it now, " Ayr suggested "Corbin and I need to talk bridges," as the pair grinned. I took the letter
Life is very different in Volare these days. Leo is almost two. Wonderful in every way, his pouty lips and blue eyes making it almost impossible to tell him no. I flit between wondering what my mother would think of my own material efforts. Praying I make better choices than her. I still don’t know what the hell was on her mind when she died. Was it out of love for me or hatred of Elle? Staring at Leo, I will never understand how she stood by all those years in silence. It has taken some serious organising but tonight, finally everyone is going to be reunited. A celebration of friendship. Raphael and Robyn have been sorely missed. Almost eighteen months without any visits between us. Corbin had requested all bridges go up for our own safety for a period. He was attacked in an uprising in the centre of Pemberton. Touring a pack and hit in the chest with a cannonball. Quite how the fuck a group of rebels got hold of a cannon is something Raphael is furiously investigating. The nigh
She’s dreamed of me? Even as my head spins in a frenzy of pure desire, I need to delve into that conversation more. Women are clearly my blind spot. No pun intended. She’s guiding me along the wooden wall, “I‘m staying in the packhouse, come on,” she breathes, and I’m so close to just being swept along. But this is serious. Flashes of Imelda cross my mind. “Jessica, Jessica, come on, what do you mean dreaming? What colour are your eyes?” as she drags me into the packhouse. Where I once snuck in order to shave in Ayr’s fancy bathroom. Her hand feels so tiny in mine. In fact, everything about her is petite. I’m almost stumbling, and I secretly love the way she doesn’t give a shit I can’t see. She’s taking me to her room regardless. “How about you just trust me?” she whispers before placing a kiss on my open chest. Shit that must be how tall she is. When she first kissed me, she must have been on her tiptoes. What the hell is this? “If you know who I am, I don’t…I’m not going to b
Jessica never appeared at dinner. It was a shame, I totally thought her and Marcus might hit it off, but there will be more opportunity. She’s got that daring confidence that I thought might spark his interest. When the lightning flashed and rain descended, everyone jumped in the packhouse. Ayr ran out to find Marcus. Check he hadn’t got caught in the storm and lost his bearings, but he was nowhere to be seen. His blue gauze was trodden into the mud by the packhouse door, though. “He’s not answering his link?” Ayr said, rubbing his chin. “If he wants us, he will,” Matthew answered steadily. “There’s a line of how much he’ll ask for.” Ayr reluctantly agreed, and the evening continued as planned. Drinks consumed, food eaten, I sat in our bed and watched Ayr as he stripped down. I know how long he stays awake at night reading to me. I also know how the instant he thinks I’m asleep he switches from pirate adventures to love sonnets. My dreams are warm, full of summer sun and happiness
The day I stop opening my eyes and searching for a flicker of dawn will be when my wolf stops trying too. Not once did I stop believing. Now, finally, after almost five years, something has happened. Since Ayr told me their silver wolf has vanished from the heavens, the constant blackness has started to part. There are shadows and hints of grey and white in my peripheral vision. I can’t see shapes, but there is lightness where once only pitch black existed. My first instinct was to call out to Berrybrow. But then I shut my lips and breathe sharply. This is for me to know. My secret. For if it turns out, all I can see are the shadows at the edges. What has been gained? But maybe, just maybe my purgatory is finally ending? I already know my irises have turned to jade. Mrs Berrybrow was sweet to sell it kindly, maybe as proof that my wolf is still trying to heal me. Ayr has since said he doesn’t give a fuck, that I was exactly the same man to him. Except hearing how the others hav
I secretly bought a set of jangling bells, but thankfully, they weren’t necessary. I did once tie them to her and woke up to a barrage of jangling cushions to the face. Then she pinned my wrists to the mattress as best as she could before wrapping her mouth around my semi-hard early morning dick. Confusing, briefly terrifying me and making me want to explode all in the space of five seconds. Perfection. Now, such spontaneity has been briefly retired. Instead, she has to choose from a pile of leatherbound books instead of leaping onto my groin. Holding out a selection of hardbacks, I mock-grumpily bark. “Pick one then,” before helping to place the covers over my hugely pregnant, half-glowing, half-irritated mate. We’re in the final stages of this miracle of a pregnancy, and somehow, my plan worked. “You always know which one I’ll choose,” she smiles back softly, her stunningly soft figure draped in an emerald green silk nightgown before choosing the same one she’s had for the pas