CHAPTER 4

Marahan kong hinawakan sa batok si Ezekiel at inilapat ang aking labi sa kanya. His eyes widened as I slowy closed mine. Lalayo na sana siya ngunit hinila ko siya ulit pabalik sa aking labi. 

I don't have any choice. Do it now and face the consequences later. 

Naramdaman ko ang sandaling pagkakatitig nila sa amin— sandaling-sandali na akala ko ay makikilala na nila ako talaga. Malaking pasasalamat ko ng tuluyan kaming nilampasan.

I thought I was going to stop. But I was wrong, I started sucking his lower lip and nibbled it. I was rewarded by Ezekiel's groan. I can now feel my heart pumping hundred times faster than before. 

His hand grabbed my waist and pulled me closer to him. Mas lalong idinidiin ang katawan ko sa kanya, while the other hand held the side of my neck and slighlty tilted my head up.

He started kissing me back. At first it was slow but the next it was so eager. I was lost at the mercy of his lips. 

He fires backed at me. He started to sucked my lips and played with it between his mouth. I gasped from the surprise and pleasure when he did that. And he grabbed that chance to enter my mouth with his hot tongue. It implored the inside of my mouth expertly— like he knew it too well. Like he was always doing this. 

A moan escaped from my mouth when he bit my lower lip. 

Now, his two hands were gripping my waist so hard. Nararamdaman ko ang katigasan ng kanyang pagkalalaki. Dahil doon ay isang ungol na naman ang kumawala sa akin. I snaked my arms around his neck and surrendered at the mastery of his tongue.

The way he kisses me does not show gentleness. Not anymore. It's rough, but needy and pleasurable at the same time. Parang hayok na hayok kami sa isa't-isa. Parang hinihintay namin itong mangyari. 

And to heaven be the glory, he could really kiss this good!

I've been kissed many times but this was the most delectable flavor I have ever tasted. It's addicting and intoxicating.

Isinandig niya ako sa pader habang patuloy pa din naming ninanamnam ang labi ng isa't-isa. His lips tasted better than I imagined. 

Bawat halik, bawat pagtikim, at bawat lasa ng kanyang labi ay nilalamon ang aking sistema. Parang droga— nakakabaliw.

I don't know how long we’ve been kissing but we just pulled from each other when we can't breathe no more.

Hingal na hingal kami. Our breathing was rugged and short. Para kaming tumakbo sa isang marathon. Our lungs slightly burnt from running out of oxygen.

His face was buried on my neck while my forehead was leaning on his shoulder. Both of his hands were propped on either side of my face, caging me. Nanatili kami sa ganoong sitwasyon hanggang bumalik sa normal ang aming paghinga.

"Uwi na tayo. It's getting late," mahina kong sambit habang tinititigan siya sa mata niyang umaapoy ng— pagnanasa?

Tumango lang ito at lumayo na sa akin. His hand runs through his messy hair. Namula ang mukha ko na napayuko ng nakitang nagulo ko pala iyon.

He looked temptingly sexy in those messy hair, where my hands were tugging and pulling a little while ago. May mga lipstick din na napunta sa bibig niya.

I just stared at it until I can't find the guts to approach him about it. Nahihiya ako.

Nang hindi na siya nagsalita ay nagsimula na akong humakbang palayo. Ngunit agad din niyang hinawakan ang braso ko at hinila ako paharap sa kanya. Muli niya akong isinandig sa pader. That’s when I saw how his eyes blazed so brigthly.

"One more time," he breathes as he grabbed the side of my neck and grazes his thumb on my lower lip.

I was going to say something but his lips were on mine again. Kung kanina ay parang uhaw na uhaw at sabik na sabik ang bawat galaw ng aming mga dila, ngayon naman ay parang hawak namin ang lahat ng oras sa mundo.

His lips were gentle and slow. It's moving in a slow erotic motion. Napahawak ang aking mga palad sa matitigas niyang mga balikat.

I sucked and softly bit his upper lip making his hold on me tightened from my sudden move. Hindi naman siya nagpatalo, marahan niya ring pinaglaruan ang ibabang labi ko saka kinagat ito. 

I entered my tongue inside his mouth. Savoring him while taking my time. Our tongues and lips dance to each other's caressing but intense movements.

Parang may init at pamamasa akong naramdaman sa gitna ng aking mga hita. I felt hot and bothered all of a sudden. I knew I was dripping wet down there. I can also feel Ezekiel's manhood poking my belly.

He groaned and pulled away from me. Parang may sariling utak ang mga labi ko na habulin ang labi niya. Mabuti nalang at may kakarampot pa akong kontrol sa sarili kaya napigilan ko ito. 

"Ezekiel," I said between my pant. 

He just looked at me with eyes hooded while his other hand was running again through his fucked-up hair.

Ilang minuto kaming hindi nagsalita habang iniiwas ang tingin sa isa't-isa. Hinintay namin na bumalik ulit sa normal ang aming paghinga bago siya nakapagsalita.

"We should really get you home," he said and took a deep breath.

Hinubad niya ang kanyang jacket na suot at ipinatong sa balikat ko.

"It's cold," sabi lang nito habang hinawakan ang lapel ng jacket at hinila papalapit sa katawan ko.

As I was covered by his jacket, his fresh scent filled my nostrils. Hindi ko alam kung pabango niya ba iyon o ang sarili lang niyang amoy. But it was a smell I knew I would never forget.

He looks good, taste good, and now smells good, too. Nakakatakot. Para na niyang pinapasok ang aking buong sistema. His jacket on me felt like I was being cradled in his arms. I felt secured and calmed.

Buong biyahe pauwi ay wala ako sa sarili. Ang isipan ko ay naiwan pa rin sa memoryang paghahalikan namin kanina. Marami na namang katanungan ang gumugulo sa isip ko. I am confused. Hindi ko alam kung gusto ko ba siya o ang katawan ko ang may gusto sa mga haplos at halik niya. 

I was touched and kissed by Damien and honestly, I enjoyed it. Pero ibang usapan ang kay Ezekiel. 

I enjoyed it, too. But the feeling of wanting more and needing more of him was driven in the depths of me. It's like I can't get enough of him.

Gosh, I'm fucking horny.

May hindi na talaga tama sa akin. Dalawang araw pa lang ang nakakaraan pero dalawang beses na kaming naghalikan. Gusto kong ibunggo ang ulo ko sa dashboard para matauhan sa mga ginagawa ko.

I hated this feeling of being unable to control my emotions.

Pati pagpunta sa palapag ng unit namin ay pareho kaming tahimik. Parehong malalim ang mga iniisip. Alam kong medyo naparami ako ng nainom pero simula ng dumampi ang labi ni Ezekiel sa labi ko ay agaran akong nahimasmasan.

Huminto kami sa pinto ng aming sari-sariling unit at napatingin kami sa isa't-isa. 

A short moment to stares at each other's confused, yet darkening eyes. But another fire ignited and I found myself snaking my arms around his neck and kissing fervently his delectable lips. 

Nalaglag ang jacket niyang nakasukbit sa mga balikat ko. He pushed me against the door of my unit like how he pushed his tongue inside my mouth. 

Ang malilikot niyang kamay ay umabot na kung saan-saan. I know I should stop him. But it’s hard when your body was a defiance to what your mind’s commanding you to do.

For the third time, we're tasting each other’s lips like there's no tommorow. Inalis ko ang mga nakapulupot kong braso sa leeg niya at inilipat ang isa sa matitigas niyang dibdib habang ang isa ay kinapa sa likuran ang doorknob ng sarili kong unit. 

No one's lips are pulling away from each other. Patuloy pa rin na nagsisiilan ng mga labi habang ang mga dila ay nag-eespadahan.

Nang makapa ko ang doorknob ay pilit ko itong binuksan pero naalala ko na ini-lock ko pala ito.

I distanced myself a bit from him. "Wait," I said against his mouth, panting and excited.

The electric feeling was flowing through every of my veins. It was the so much adrenaline and raging hormones that’s making my hands tremble and my knees woobled.

I can hear the crackles of electricity up in the atmosphere, too. I can feel the sparks surrounding us. It's inevitable and palpable, like how our hands and lips on each other's body.

Humarap ako sa pinto at hinalungkat ang purse na dala ko gamit ang nanginginig na mga kamay. Hinigpitan naman ni Ezekiel ang pagkakahawak nito sa beywang ko at hinila pa ako lalo padikit sa dibdib niya. I can feel the heat of his body.

He started giving feather-light kisses on my neck. Nakakakiliti pero masarap sa pakiramdam. Hindi ko tuloy masyadong mai-swipe ang keycard.

I moaned and gritted my teeth. "Wait," saway ko at bahagyang inilingat ang ulo sa likuran para suwayin siya pero nawalan na ako ng pagkakataon ng siniil niya ako ng napakalalim na halik.

Oh my God. 

Bumagsak ang balikat ko sa sobrang sarap ng paghalik niya. He sucked my lips and tugged it between his teeth. I pulled away from our kisses and focused on unlocking the door. 

“Bwesit,” hingal kong mura ng ayaw pa ding mabuksan!

Sipain ko lang kaya 'tong lintik na pinto para mas madali? 

He groaned in frustration. “Bilis, Aurora. I can’t wait anymore, baby.” He started kissing again my neck, down to my shoulder, at the back of my ear, to my cheeks, my jaw, back at my neck again.

Gusto ko na lang din murahin si Ezekiel dahil paano naman ako makakapag-concentrate kung ganyan ginagawa niya sa akin?

Kailangan kong ibuhos lahat ng konsentrasyon na mayroon ako para lang mabuksan ang pinto. I never knew I could want a man this much. 

When I finally open the door, I quickly faced him and pressed my lips against his. I threw my purse and snaked my arms around his neck.

He grabbed the back of my thighs and lifted me up. I snaked my thighs around his waist and gasped when I felt his manhood so alive. Nanggigil niyang nilamas ang pang-upo ko.

My dress hiked up above my legs. Konti nalang at makikita na ang panty na suot ko. I gasped even more when I felt the bulge on his pants poking directly at my center. It felt warm and big. 

I wonder how long and big he is. 

We kissed and sucked each other’s lips as I ran my hands through his hair. Gigil na gigil niyang hinahawakan at minamasahe ang pang-upo ko. 

Well, well, someone likes my ass. Halos matawa ako sa naiisip.

I felt aroused and hot, my raging hormones aren't stopping. Para akong dalaga na dumadaan palang sa puberty stage. 

Hindi ko namalayan na nadala niya na pala ako sa bedroom ko. Umupo siya sa paanan ng kama habang nakaupo ako sa kandungan niya. I sighed at the contact of his erection against my already wet entrance. Kahit my telang pumapagitan ay halos mabaliw na ako sa pakiramdam na iyon. 

I started to remove his shirt forcefully and threw it somewhere. I don't know what is happening to me, but I want to give him myself tonight willingly.

Willingly.

Nawawala na ang inhibisyon ko sa sarili. Nilalamon na ng alon ng sarap ng haplos at halik ni Ezekiel. Every part of me craves Ezekiel's doings. He was slowly stripping my sanity out of me. 

Anong meron kay Ezekiel na kaya kong ibigay sa kanya ang katawan ko sa loob lang ng dalawang araw? Na wala kay Damien na naging karelasyon ko sa loob ng dalawang taon?

This is unfair. I've felt lust but not these aggressive and intensive. Not this wild and uncontrollable.

One of his hands traced my bare back gently. The other grabbed my nape and tilted my head to looked up and then he started sucking and kissing my neck.

My entrance was soaking wet and I felt it throbbing— seeking for a release. 

I want him now. Kahit na gusto kong kumawala at lumayo dahil isa pa siyang estranghero ay hindi ko magawa. My mind tells me not to do this but my body is rebelling. 

I can't fight the pleasure that he's giving me.

The nipples of my breasts hardened under the spell of our making out. He reached for the strap of my dress and slowly pulled it off my shoulder. Akala ko itutuloy niya ang paghubad sa dress ko pero bigla siyang tumigil.

He groaned and pulled away from our kisses. He looked at me with eyes so dark of carnal hunger.

He suddenly hugged me tight and buried his face on my neck. Napaawang ang bibig ko. 

"Let's stop, Aurora. Please baby," his breath brushed the skin on my neck.

"W-what? Why?" Parang bata kong tanong. 

I thought we will do it. I am ready for it. Sa buong buhay ko ay ngayon lang ako na-disappoint... at napahiya ng sobra-sobra. I want him really bad. 

Dahan-dahan niyang inilayo ang kanyang mukha sa akin at mariin akong tinitigan. His eyes are brown but it's still beautiful even if it's not in the color of gold. Andiyan na naman ang titig niyang nakakaakit. 

Mahabang minuto niya pa akong tinitigan bago ko napagpasyahang umalis sa kanyang kandungan. 

I ran my hands through my messed-up hair and tried to steady my breathing.

Unti-unti na akong nilalamon ng kahihiyan sa ginawa ko. I was about to give him my virginity for Pete's sake!

I hugged myself and looked anywhere in my room except his face. I am embarrassed and sad at the same time. I can't face him like this. Ano na lang iisipin niya? That I'm easy? I'm cheap?

Bakit ba kasi ako nagpadala sa bugso ng damdamin? Edi sana hindi hahantong sa ganito! 

I was a fool. I don't know if I'll be glad that he rejected me or my ego would be crushed because he did.

"You're so beautiful," he whispered but I heard it so clearly.

Bigla namang bumilis ang tibok ng puso ko at nanghina ang aking mga tuhod. Dahan-dahan kong ibinaling sa kaniya ang aking paningin. 

The emotions in his eyes does not contained lust anymore. It's more on... appreciation? devotion? amazement? I'm not sure. Parang sinasamba ako ng mga mata niya. O baka namamalikmata lang ako.

Bigla ko uling gusto itapon ang sarili ko sa kanya at hayaan siyang gawin ang gusto niyang gawin sa akin. 

This is so fucking confusing! And embarassing!

"Wag mo akong titigan ng ganyan," ani ko at ibinababa ang laylayan ng dress na suot. Napatingin siya doon at bahagyang nagtagal ang tingin.

“Pakiusap Ezekiel. If you’re going to say no to me like this, stop tempting me.”

Gusto ko nalang tumakbo sa sobrang kahihiyan.

"Dapat lang kitang titigan ng ganito. You are quite a beauty. You think I don't want you? Look at this," sabi niya at tumitig sa pang-ibaba nitong kasuotan.

Napakagat-labi ako at lumunok. It's still hard and from the looks of it, it’s like a monster is ready to spring out anytime out from his pants. The bulge was big— making my throat dry.

"Aurora, hindi mo alam ang mga senaryong tumatakbo sa isip ko ngayon. Baka hindi mo kayanin," dagdag nito kaya napatingin ulit ako sa kanya.

Para siyang nahihirapan. The veins in his forehead became visible as his jaw clenched and unclenched repeatedly. Mukha nga siyang nahihirapan sa pagpipigil.

"Try me," hamon ko at seryoso siyang tinititigan.

He licked his swollen lips. "I want to peel you out of that dress and fuck you here in this bed," He said and tapped the bed. "Until you scream my name in so much pleasure," he whispered but enough for me to hear it.

"I want to bend you over on that railings in that veranda and fuck you senselessly from behind until your knees give up," sabi niya habang ang tingin ay nasa veranda.

There's a sweet pull down my belly making it ache from the inside. My entrance began to throbbed again as different erotic images of him taking me pops up in my head.

Sumasakit na naman ang puson ko na hindi ko naiintindiham kung naiihi ba ako o ano.

"I want to taste you and touch you and lick every part of you. I want to fuck you against the wall, on the floor, in the shower and bathtub, on the counter island of your kitchen, on the sofa, on my own study table, in my library, on my bed, too. Lahat ng dapat na tikman at kainin sayo ay gusto kong gawin. One night would not be enough for the things I want to do with you." His eyes were back to blazing with so much passion.

"Then why are you stopping yourself? You want me, I want you. So, why?" I crossed my arms. 

"Because I think it's just the alcohol and the shock that you had earlier from the club. Masamang pagsamantalahan ang babaeng nakainom,"

I rolled my eyes. "Hindi ako lasing,"

Kumunot naman ang noo niya at nagsalpok ang mga kilay. "That's what confused me the most. Kung hindi ka lasing, why are you so eager to give yourself to me? To someone like me. Isa akong estranghero at kapatid ko si Damien," 

Hindi man lang ako nag-atubili o huminto para mag-isip ng sagot. Kusa nalang lumabas ang mga salita sa bibig ko. 

"Because I felt secured with you. Alam kong hindi ka katulad ng karamihan sa mga lalaking kilala ko. Matapos ikama ang babae ay itatapon nalang agad na parang walang nagyari. One look at you and I know you're different," 

He laughed sarcastically and looked at me like I'm crazy. "How would you know? You don't even know me, the real me. I’m not a good guy, Aurora."

"I just know," 

"How can you be so sure? May ebidensiya ka ba? O kahit ano na magpapatunay sa mga sinasabi mo? Because I'll tell you, I'm the opposite of what you're saying," malamig nitong saad.

"I can give you evidence," 

Napataas ang kilay nito at napatitig sa akin na may mga matang nagtatanong. "How?"

"Fuck me and take responsibility," 

Whenever I wanted something to be mine badly, I have the tendency to be bold and fearless and reckless in order for that something to be mine.

Napapikit siya ng mariin at napahugot siya ng malalim na paghinga. His knuckles turning white because it's tightly fisted. 

“You will be the death of me,” he hissed.

Napangiti ako ng wala sa oras. He really was struggling to control himself. And he looks more beautiful with only his pants on... and with a hard on.

His fine muscles and lean body make him more desirable than ever. Call me pervert, but hell, he was worth having a fantasy with.

"I have to go. Baka pag tumagal ako dito ano pa ang magawa ko sa iyo," sabi nito saka pinulot ang damit sa sahig.

I licked my lower lips when he moved and his muscles flexed perfectly. This is why painters and artists called the body of human beings as the living artform.

Sinundan lamang ng aking paningin si Ezekiel na papalapit sa akin hanggang huminto ito sa harapan ko. 

Kinakabahan na naman ako at mabilis na tumitibok ang aking puso. I'm anticipating for what would he do next. 

Inilapit niya ang mukha niya sa akin at tinitigan uli ako ng masinsinan.

"You're so beautiful," he whispered. 

I thought he was going to kiss me but I was surprised when he gave me a soft kiss on the forehead and left me with my mouth hanging open.