Chapter 4

Derek pov

I went to visit Ellie who was pregnant now with her mate's pup. She was happy but I for some reason couldn't get over her. I truly loved her with everything in me. Now it was all ruined.

"you look good Ellie", I lied cause I wanted the pup in her to be mine not her mate's pup.

"Yes, I'm wonderful Derek. Liam and I are expecting our first pup soon",she said excitedly. Wow she promised me forever and now here we are not together and she seems thrilled.

"Great",I said sarcastically. Stupid fucking destined bullshit. I don't want my mate I want Ellie.

"Derek you knew we wouldn't last, you have a mate and I do too. I'm happy and you can be too",she tried to soothe me. Yeah real happy I fumed.

"We promised to be together forever Ellie and you go off and take your mate. I don't want my mate I wanted you",I fumed. I was pissed as she looked at me sadly.

"Derek, a part of me will always love you but I am in love with Liam and I'm happy. You can have that with Anna just try it",she said sweetly. This bitch being sweet doesn't make me laugh.

"yeah what fucking ever. Enjoy your life Ellie cause you ruined mine",I hissed storming off. I went back to my mate and heard the doctor talking about her dying because of me. I was slowly killing her cause I couldn't bring myself to love her and accept our mate bond. She was weakened and her body was giving out on her.

Walking in her room she sat in a chair bundled up by the window. Music was playing and she seemed a million miles away. I sat in a chair close by watching her for a while. She looked thinner and tired.

"Anna,''I began but she didn't acknowledge me. Now she is ignoring me too. Fucking great.

"I saw Ellie",I stated. Not even a flinch as she stared out into the night. What the fuck why isn't she answering me.

"Are you hungry? ", stupid question.

She wasn't responding to me so I sat quietly watching her close. Her hands were fisting her blanket and she was shaking from being cold. She was weaker and for some reason I couldn't bring myself to care. I was still hurting over Ellie and I was lashing out at everyone here worse than others.

"she is expecting a pup soon and is happy",I started on about Ellie again. She just sat there not acknowledging me or my attempts to speak with her. I was hurting her but I still felt cheated. I didn't get to choose my own destiny and future and I was pissed. The doctor came in and Anna didn't even look at him. She was off in her own world.

"Anna sweetie it's doctor Todd I got the test results back",he began but she remained looking out the window.

"she won't respond ",I barked out. I was pissed.

"she just started this yesterday. I think it's her wolf protecting her. She is in her own mind and all attempts to reach her are futile",he murmured looking worried more than I thought necessary but he is the doctor so...

"What test did you do?"I asked, getting curious.

"her heart is weaker and her life force is fading. Your rejection and denial of feelings is killing her. I give her six months till she is gone",he said walking out and shutting her door. I was stunned by this and glanced at Anna. What the actual fuck?

"Nora, I started getting golden eyes snapping my way, can you let Anna come back?" She scoffed at me.

"Why so you can hurt her more, talk about that slut or state how you won't love or accept us? I think not she needs protection from you right now",she growled. She fucking growled at me.

"I'm ready to accept her now, Nora , if I don't she dies and the pack will lose their future Luna",I offered back.

"She is peaceful where I have her. I'll ask if she wants to come back ",Nora says gruffly.

I watch as she stops talking and everything goes quiet. Minutes later Anna comes back and shakily gets up. She wraps her blanket around her tighter and heads to the bathroom. After being in there for a few she walks out unsteady and heads to the bed. I watch her stumble but finally get there and crawl in. She rings the call light and I watch as the doctor hurries in.

"Can I have pain pills? "

"Sure sweetie be right back",he hustled away. She was ignoring me.

"Anna, I start, I decided to accept our bond",I state getting nothing from her.

"it doesn't matter now Derek I'm accepting death cause once I'm gone you're free",she whispers. I growl and stalk up to her.

"No you're not,''I growled.

"Yes, she says looking up at me, tears filling her eyes, I will not be with a mate that hates me and there won't be any love in our future",she adds.

Once the doctor walks in I watch her swallow the pills and he tells her the results. She seems okay with dying and I find myself getting angry. She seems fine with what is going to come.

"Anna please",the doctor begs.

"It's fine Todd, I will be okay",she says softly.

"Anna you can beat this all you have to do is..",he starts but she nods no.

"He won't love me and he hates the mate bond. I'm not gonna make him miserable so it's okay",she said weakly smiling. She was accepting this shit to be free and not hurt.

Like fuck she is gonna give up. I yank her to me and find the spot I need to mark. Biting down I seal our fates.

Gasps are heard as I gently lay her down and crawl in beside my mate. I marked her out of anger and I know she will never forgive me for it. I stare at the stunned doctor before dismissing him.

He leaves but I know he thinks I'm an ass but I could care less what anyone thinks. My mate isn't dying and even if I don't love her I will save her life.

After all, my pack needs their Luna. I can't run my pack without her and even if I don't want her I have no choice now.