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After Mrs. Ruddock left, I sat behind the register for a long time. Mia had the day off, so I was alone in the shop. It was raining outside, and there were no customers. The lights cast a warm yellow glow over everything.I set the jar of pickles in the corner of the counter and stared at it for a while. Then I picked up my phone and opened my messages with Chelsea.The last one was still [You're really ruthless, you know that?], sent a while back. I scrolled up a few pages and saw the messages she used to send.[Kara, we broke 4,000 dollars in sales today! Dinner's on me!][Kara Kara Kara! Get over here, I want to make you our signature drink!][Hey, Westbrook, do you think I should add something new to the menu next month?]Every one of them ended with an exclamation point, and every one of them was so warm and familiar that it seemed like we really were close friends.Yet when I scrolled further up, back before May, our chat history was blank. It was completely empty, not bec
On the last day of November, it rained. It was not heavy, just a light, steady drizzle that tapped against the windows as if tickling the glass.That day, someone I never expected walked into my shop. It was Chelsea's mother.I did not recognize her when she pushed open the door. I had only seen her once before, at a parent-teacher conference in high school. Back then, she had been decked out in gold jewelry, sitting off to the side and chatting with the other parents so loudly that the whole floor could hear her.The woman in front of me now was thinner and older, and most of her hair had gone gray. She wore a faded windbreaker that had been washed too many times, and she was carrying a plastic bag."Kara?" She stood in the doorway, her voice a little timid.I looked at her and did not move."Mrs. Ruddock," I said.She let out a sigh of relief, came inside and stopped in front of the register. She set the plastic bag down on the counter."These are homemade pickles. You used t
Another month went by, and Chelsea's name all but disappeared from my life.I did not unfollow her on Instagram, but I muted her posts and hid mine from her. I did not keep her there out of any lingering affection. Unfollowing her would have meant I cared, and I could not be bothered to prove that I cared.Mia said that way of thinking was a little twisted. I told her she was right, I was twisted. Those three years had bent me out of shape, and there was no straightening me back out."Don't say that," she said."It's the truth," I said.One day near the end of the month, business was slow, so I sat behind the register scrolling on my phone. A text suddenly came in from Tina.Tina had been in my class in high school. She was not one of the bullies, but she was not an innocent bystander either. She was the type who never wanted to get on anyone's bad side. She got along with everyone and was close with no one.[Kara, did you hear? Chelsea's shop closed.][Yeah, I heard.][Sounds
As I listened to her, I suddenly laughed."Chelsea, you think I've been holding a grudge for ten years?""Haven't you?""Then let me ask you something.""Go ahead.""In those ten years, was there a single day you ever thought about what you did to me?"The line went silent."Did you ever once wonder whether the girl you drenched with cold water got sick afterward? Whether she had nightmares? Whether she was too scared to go to school?"She still said nothing."You didn't," I said. "Not for a single day. To you, it was all small stuff. Once it was over, it was over. You forgot about it, so you figured the whole world would forget about it too.""That's not—""It is."I cut her off. My voice was not loud, but it was steady."If you really thought you'd done something wrong, the first thing you'd have said when you came to me was 'I'm sorry,' not 'Can you help me?' That's who you are, Chelsea. That's who you were ten years ago, and that's who you still are now."I heard snif
For the next week, Chelsea did not come looking for me. Her Instagram went quiet too. She stopped posting her sales numbers and photos of the line, and she did not even post selfies anymoreOnce in a while, her profile picture popped up on my feed, so I tapped on it to take a look. She had changed it to a solid black square, but her bio was the same. It still read "Coffee Shop Owner."Mia said she followed Chelsea and could see what she was posting."It looks like she let her staff go," Mia said. "Now she's running the shop by herself every day, from nine in the morning to ten at night.""How do you know?""She posted a photo of the prep counter with the caption 'Gotta keep going, even if it's just me.' She deleted it three minutes later."I said nothing."Someone commented asking what was wrong, but she never replied," Mia added."Do you think I went too far?" I asked suddenly.Mia paused, then shook her head. "Kara, did you know I was bullied in high school too?"I said not
I looked Chelsea in the eye and said it slowly, one word at a time."The second week of freshman year, you hid my gym clothes in the boys' bathroom. I spent an entire class period looking for them and, in the end, the PE teacher had to go in and get them for me. You stood there watching, and you laughed the loudest."She stopped crying and glared straight at me."That winter in sophomore year, you told me to cover your cleanup duty. I said I had tutoring, so you made me stand in front of the whole class for an entire period. The next day, someone had written 'loser' across my desk in marker. It was your friends who did it."Her lips moved, but no sound came out."That December, you cornered me in the bathroom and dumped a whole bucket of cold water over my head. It was below freezing, and I sat shivering in soaking wet clothes for three periods."That afternoon, I was sent home with a high fever. My mom went to the school to talk to your dad afterward, and he paid her 200 dollars







