10 YEARS LATER
* * I stared in front of the mirror and sighed, same sigh I've had for years. It was a night to my wedding, my bachelor's party. My friends organized a "last night single" party for me, and now I have to pretend again all through like I'm happy and so excited. I got out of my house and into my car and drove off to the location. Why is my mom there?? Oh God no please no! "Hi Charlie", she said smiling so happily and hugged me. "Aren't you supposed to be having a bridal shower with their girls?", I asked. "Yes I'm on my way there, I just wanted to tell you that your friend came over, he's inside", she said. "What friend?", I asked. She smiled broadly, "Enjoy your day, and don't drink too much so you can wake up on time tomorrow", she said with a wink and then got into her Limo. I shook my head and got into the hotel. They took me down to the underground club. All my friends saw me and started greeting me and congratulating me. "Can't believe you get to marry Alice Cooper, like you are the luckiest man in the world". I wouldn't even call myself that. I smiled and they poured me a glass of wine. "Get all the alcohol you need man, tomorrow you're a brand new man", My best man Conrad said. "And ladies too, we called for private strippers", one of my friends; Joshua said. Disgusting. "Dude you'd never guess who came today, he's somewhere around, oh good here he is , Mason over here". My heart literally stopped. Mason? Mason Grey? I turned around slowly and met a very familiar face with a smirk on it. "Hello Gentlemen ", he said standing at the entrance. "Mason Grey", they said in union going to hug him. "It's been years ". "How have you been?". "You look good man" I was sitting there, staring at him. The fact that he never left my mind, not a second, not a minute, not an hour, I stalked him for years, hated myself everyday for what I said that night till I eventually grew over my obsession for him and let everything go And now, he was here, standing right in front of me, staring at me and I was staring at him. "Charlie Charlie, Look who's all grown up now", he said hugging me, my heart started racing, my body froze and I sank into his hug. He had such an amazing scent. I had to pull away. "I've barely grown", I said chuckling nervously. I can't say something for him because, Damn. He was so a lot taller now, he had tattoos up to his chest and I could see it from the f*e buttons he had undone. His hair was short and very bright blonde, his eyes, bright blue as always, the perfect charming smile on his face as always. He looked breathtaking. "Charlie", he said snapping his fingers at me, he was saying something and I wasn't listening. "What?". "I said how have you been it's been years", he said. "Yeah yeah", I said and my friends went to party with the strippers leaving both of us alone. It was like everything I buried inside me all these years just resurfaced. "So, how have you been?", he asked pouring me a glass of wine. I shrugged, "Same as always I guess, haven't heard from you in years", I said. "You moved to Greece and shut off all communication with everyone", he stated. I nodded, he was right. And the horrible part of it all was I was thinking that if I'm there I'll finally be able to live a normal life and be myself, I was so wrong, my father literally knew everyone in my college, they gave him weekly report about my whereabout, hell to even attend parties was difficult, they said they don't want me ending up like other people, and that I was different and should stand out. "Well uhm, wasn't any different there, still had my Dad's eyes on me till I graduated, thought I could finally breathe and then I come home and there's a wife waiting for me. And of all people in the world it's Alice", I said with irritation in my voice. He made a disgusted face. We both hated her, she was one of these snobbish rich blonde and she was a supermodel so of course it got into her head. "I was wondering what made you chose to settle down with her", he mumbled. "So you're really getting married to someone you don't care about or even can tolerate because your parents want you to?", he asked. I shrugged, "I don't have much of a choice" "Rebel", he mumbled with a shrug. "That's not so easy for me, and my know it". "Charlie, you're 26, I don't think you should have your family make life choices for you", he said calmly. I swallowed hard, "Less about me, more about you, tell me what have you been up to?", I asked changing the topic immediately. He said he's Running a Modeling agency, along side he's a model, he also has a Fitness center, that's what brought him back to New York, he wants to establish it here. There's a section to learn how to swim, play football, basketball and so many other things he mentioned, it's the biggest in the country. He mentioned so many other things, he's basically living the life he wants and is passionate about, and there's me. At a point I started overdrinking, maybe I did that on purpose, I don't know but I wanted to feel light headed at this moment, enjoy the little time I had before everything changes and then I suddenly became so attracted to Mason. Everything about him was perfect, so perfect. The way he talks, the way he laughs. I could swear I saw the same thing I felt in his eyes, I just can't prove it but I know what I saw. "I'm feeling, really light headed right now", I slurred. "Good, enjoy the moment now cuz you're gonna be a Dad soon and can't show up at home like this", he said. I shook my head, "Can you take me to my room upstairs? I just want go to bed", I said, my friends were drunk and had passed out, most of them still a little bit tipsy. "Sure thing", he said and held my hand and walked me to the elevator. "You're gonna be at my wedding tomorrow?", I asked. "Of course, wouldn't miss it for the world", he said as we got into the elevator. This time was different, I know I'm drunk but I'm not thinking about regretting what I'm about to do, I don't, the only thing I'm scared about is him rejecting me. I suddenly turn off the elevator and tiptoed to Mason, he has always been taller than I was. I pushed his head down and kissed him. He didn't kiss me back for a second there and I thought I've really messed up. And just when I was about to pull away, he held me and stuck his tongue into my throat.I knew Alice was going to be back today and I honestly was waiting for her, we had a lot to talk about. I got back home and went straight into my office to gather the files, she realizing I was back came to the office to see me. “How was your trip?”, I asked. “You mean our honeymoon that you ditched me for?”, she asked still sounding pissed. “Oh cmon, pretend like you didn’t have fun”. She rolled her eyes, “So when are we having our actual honeymoon?”, she asked. I chuckled,”Have a seat Alice, we have a lot to talk about “, I said calmly. she did so and I threw a bunch of papers of the table in front of her." First of all, our marriage is a contract agreement between your parents and I and honestly I don’t want to go into the details, so we need to set this ground rules. 1) I have no emotion attraction whatsoever to you, none at all, I will take care of you and cater for every single one of your needs and wants till the day we divorce or one of us dies, and I will also prote
CHARLIE * * "You're... you're trying to discover your sexuality in a strip club?", he asked honestly surprised. "Where else do you find half naked gay people to turn you on?", I asked giggling. "Are you drunk?", He asked.I shrugged. "Just a little bit", I said smiling. "Charlie, this is risky for you to be seen here and you know it more than I do". "I know I know, that's why I came alone, I even snuck out and used a cab". "What? what if someone had seen you or worse kidnap you? that's really dangerous ". I sighed and rubbed my temples, "I know, I know , I just... I needed to know what's wrong with me okay? I just needed to". "What's wrong with you?". "I can't stop thinking about you, I honestly can't okay, push me away as much as you want to, I honestly don't care but it doesn't change how I feel about you, it doesn't. And I don't know if I'm just attracted to you or I actually don't like women, and this might made me realize, I actually crave men more than I do with w
My hands were literally shaking, whenever i decided or choose to do something out of my daily routine, i dont know how to explain how it ends but I usually regret it. There was this Queer club that opened down town and I wanted to explore it, see if I really have a thing for men like that or it’s just all in my head. This is the riskiest thing I’ve ever done in my life. I couldn’t go with any security because I didn’t want this leaking out by accident, i even snuck out of my own house so no one would notice Im gone, i even had to use a cab to take me there. The thing I liked about there was, everyone wore as mask, unless you didn’t care to so, yeah I was safe. I got in and paid for a VVIP section where no one would be around, just me in my table away from everyone upstairs. The club had two sections, the Lesbians section and the Homosexuals section , I was taken to the gay section. They started with a strip show, and then they sent strippers to me, I had to get myself high beca
CHARLIE * * I headed down for breakfast and started eating, a couple minutes later Alice walked down and looked at me, with a shocking expression. “What?”, I asked wondering if there was something on my face. “Why are you fully dressed in a tux?”, she almost shrieked. “Uhm, what am I supposed to wear? A bikini or something?”. “Where are you going to?” “Work”, I said. She looked like she was going to cry “What about our honeymoon?!” “Oh Im not coming with you, there’s no way im staying off work for two weeks, but Dont worry Ive got you covered, I got you an all expenses paid trip to any country you want, and the best part is, you get to bring 5 friends, have a good time, a good girls trip and-“ “Charlie I don’t fucken understand you, it’s supposed be be a honeymoon, you and I and not some girls trip, what are you even saying?”. “Mr Hearth, the car is ready”, my driver told me. “Alright “, i said standing up. I went to Alice and kissed her forehead, “Have fun on your girl
CHARLIE * * * The person I hated the most was myself, I’ve never felt so stupid, everything that happened today felt like a shadow, i didn’t even realize it until the end of the day . I was just in the room but I wasn’t there. Everyone around me kept telling me to smile for the camera, I couldn’t even fake that one thing I do everyday. I was so drained. I didn’t see Mason throughout, I saw him briefly at the after party when he came to say hello to my mother. We exchanged glances briefly and he left. I don’t know if this is payback for what I did to him before but this broke me, completely, he said it was a fling and I shouldn’t throw away my future for just a fling, now I was going to live with that scar for the rest of my life. The wedding was over finally and it was time to go back home with Alice. My mother said we should spend the night at my house and then we can go for our honeymoon by tomorrow. I sighed. On our way back Alice kept on talking nonstop about the wed
When I woke up, I sat on the bed for a full hour and I told myself I wasn't going to marry Alice, I just couldn't.I'd rather get into a Lavender marriage instead because there's no going back.I'm fully gay, the way I felt with Mason last night I've never felt that way with a woman, it's embarrassing to say but I don't think I can be with a woman anymore.For the first time I'm not thinking about what my parents are going to say, or what the world is going to think I don't want to be with a woman, I want to be with Mason.I know I might sound insane because this is just a one night stand, a fling to him maybe but it's much more to me than that.He was so different with me last night, we were up for hours, talking and cuddling and kissing and I've never been so myself before, I don't know what to say but all the feelings I've buried for Mason was back.Younger me would be so Intrigued to find out I had sex with Mason!I've liked him since we were kids, at first I thought I just loved