Semua Bab I know what you taste like : Bab 1 - Bab 10

10 YEARS AGO***It happened like a dream, because it was my dream come true.It was 7 pm that day , rain was pouring heavily, it was my graduation night, everyone was out parting, mom even begged me to go out with my friends and party."You've done so well Charlie, we're proud of you, go and have fun you deserve it".But I didn't go, I didn't want to, I sat on my bed looking at all the awards I had bagged earlier that day.My entire life has been so planned and predictable, best grades, top in class, get all the awards and graduate as valedictorian.I got all that, so why do I not feel fulfilled?They said they were going out for dinner, they invited me to come with them but I declined.I just wanted to stay back home and reflect on my life. I got a bottle of alcohol, I started consuming it.An hour later there was a knock on the door, I wasn't expecting any visitors, honestly I never even had visitors.I managed to stagger downstairs.I went to the door and opened it, I swallowed

10 YEARS LATER **I stared in front of the mirror and sighed, same sigh I've had for years.It was a night to my wedding, my bachelor's party.My friends organized a "last night single" party for me, and now I have to pretend again all through like I'm happy and so excited.I got out of my house and into my car and drove off to the location.Why is my mom there??Oh God no please no!"Hi Charlie", she said smiling so happily and hugged me."Aren't you supposed to be having a bridal shower with their girls?", I asked."Yes I'm on my way there, I just wanted to tell you that your friend came over, he's inside", she said."What friend?", I asked.She smiled broadly, "Enjoy your day, and don't drink too much so you can wake up on time tomorrow", she said with a wink and then got into her Limo.I shook my head and got into the hotel.They took me down to the underground club.All my friends saw me and started greeting me and congratulating me."Can't believe you get to marry Alice Cooper

When I woke up, I sat on the bed for a full hour and I told myself I wasn't going to marry Alice, I just couldn't.I'd rather get into a Lavender marriage instead because there's no going back.I'm fully gay, the way I felt with Mason last night I've never felt that way with a woman, it's embarrassing to say but I don't think I can be with a woman anymore.For the first time I'm not thinking about what my parents are going to say, or what the world is going to think I don't want to be with a woman, I want to be with Mason.I know I might sound insane because this is just a one night stand, a fling to him maybe but it's much more to me than that.He was so different with me last night, we were up for hours, talking and cuddling and kissing and I've never been so myself before, I don't know what to say but all the feelings I've buried for Mason was back.Younger me would be so Intrigued to find out I had sex with Mason!I've liked him since we were kids, at first I thought I just loved

CHARLIE * * I headed down for breakfast and started eating, a couple minutes later Alice walked down and looked at me, with a shocking expression. “What?”, I asked wondering if there was something on my face. “Why are you fully dressed in a tux?”, she almost shrieked. “Uhm, what am I supposed to wear? A bikini or something?”. “Where are you going to?” “Work”, I said. She looked like she was going to cry “What about our honeymoon?!” “Oh Im not coming with you, there’s no way im staying off work for two weeks, but Dont worry Ive got you covered, I got you an all expenses paid trip to any country you want, and the best part is, you get to bring 5 friends, have a good time, a good girls trip and-“ “Charlie I don’t fucken understand you, it’s supposed be be a honeymoon, you and I and not some girls trip, what are you even saying?”. “Mr Hearth, the car is ready”, my driver told me. “Alright “, i said standing up. I went to Alice and kissed her forehead, “Have fun on your girl

CHARLIE * * "You're... you're trying to discover your sexuality in a strip club?", he asked honestly surprised. "Where else do you find half naked gay people to turn you on?", I asked giggling. "Are you drunk?", He asked.I shrugged. "Just a little bit", I said smiling. "Charlie, this is risky for you to be seen here and you know it more than I do". "I know I know, that's why I came alone, I even snuck out and used a cab". "What? what if someone had seen you or worse kidnap you? that's really dangerous ". I sighed and rubbed my temples, "I know, I know , I just... I needed to know what's wrong with me okay? I just needed to". "What's wrong with you?". "I can't stop thinking about you, I honestly can't okay, push me away as much as you want to, I honestly don't care but it doesn't change how I feel about you, it doesn't. And I don't know if I'm just attracted to you or I actually don't like women, and this might made me realize, I actually crave men more than I do with w