Chapter 5

I took a deep a breath and....

"WHAT THE FCK IS THISSSS?!" I marely shouted on my phone with kuya "ARE YOU FCKING SERIOUS RIGHT NOW, KUYA?!" I ask aggresively to him.

I-i can't even say a word!!

Look I agreed that I will study to an public school, but not on this kind of school!!

Muddy sidewalks, rusty gate, and the worst is student's that waring un cleaned uniform!

I can't stand this school!

I'm fcking frustrated right now this is not what Im expecting, this is way too far.

"Kuya????!!" I ask him again tru video call "Goodluck baby" he said and hang up the call. 

I'm in the front gate of this school, I know kuya keeps saying that I need to keep a low profile but in this kind of place masyadong mahirap itago yung beauty ko sessh.

Wala na akong nagawa kaya pumasok na rin ako ng school ayaw ko naman malate sa first day ko, tska I'm looking forward to this day kahit na napaka layo neto sa expectation ko.

"This day will be so long" I whispered.

I took my first step papunta sa designated building kung nasaan yung room ko, Ate Chiara gives me the information that I needed.

Patingin tingin lang ako sa paligid habang hinahanap yung way sa room ko, I noticed different kind of students na first time ko lang makita.

There's such bunch of guys na nakatambay sa hagdan waring their handkerchief sa ulo and bag na hangang tuhod yung haba, they're also waring their uniform in button down style like wtf? It ain't appropriate at all!

I know my face literally looks disgust right now, but I just can't stop this kind of reaction. 

I even saw group of girls with sobrang kapal na tint sa labi that making their lips cracked, that not healty for them. It looks like that their using cigarettes, and the nastiest thing that I experience right now nung dumaan yung isang girl sa harap ko that make me vomit with her smell!! 

"Deodorant isn't that expensive." I whispered and nag madali na lang papunta sa room ko. 

Now I'm in Phase 2 building, 6th floor kaya pala halos mamatay na ako sa sobrang hingal! I need to exercise more.

I checked my watch and I still have 15 minutes till my first class start, tska I think hindi parin oras para pumasok sa room cause meron pang students na andon sa loob. We're sharing rooms...

I'm in afternoon shift kaya hulas na hulas ako kakapasok palang, pano ba naman binaba ako ng driver namin sa likod ng school kaya nag lakad pa ako then inakyat ko pa yung summit.

Imagine experiencing this kind of situation for whole damn year.

Bat ba kasi ako pumayag na mag aral sa public school?!

I just don't notice pero dumadami na yung tao sa paligid ko, I also notice na pinag uusapan ako. Baka ngayon lang sila nakakita ng kasing ganda ko sesshh.

"Sino yan?" Rinig kong bulong ng isa sa estudyante dito, "Aba malay ko, ako tinanong mo eh sabay lang tayo dumating!" Sagot naman nung babae na may makapal na violet liptint.

I saw them na lumapit sa iba  "Gago ang ganda pre," rinig kong sabi nung isang lalaki sa kaibigan nya na mukhang hito, hindi bagay sa kanya yung brace nag p-pop up yung ngipin nya he's kinda look like bungal.

Marami pa akong narinig na gossip tungkol sa akin pero hindi ko na lang rin pinansin, ilang minuto pa lumabas na yung mga estudyante na kanina ay tinuturuan pa. I think uwian na nila.

Agad na pumasok na yung ibang mga estudyante sa room kahit na may mga nag lilinis pa, I don't know how to act kaya nasa labas lang ako ng room at lahat sila nasa loob na.

Bakit ba? I don't know what to do eh tska I'll wait na lang sa teacher para kahit papa ano di ako ma op sa loob.

I just stand near the door when I saw that girl na may makapal na violet liptint, aba tinarayan ako! 

Di ko nga inaano, tas inaano nya ako aba kung anuhin ko kaya sya di yan aano sa akin.

I suddenly smirk and think about a way how to make her suffer, make her beg for her life, make her cry infront of me. I want to take those eyes of her and put it in my collectio- 

"Hi," bumalik yung tuliro ko when a little girl holds my sleeve.

I don't like people glaring at me with no reason, they don't know what their looking but suddenly this girl say hi to me.

"Hi?" I answered in confusion, "Transfer ka?" She ask and I just nod.

I think her height is about 4'9?? She's under my shoulder knowing I'm nearly 5'7 in this age of mine.

"I'm a transfer student, but I know this isn't elementary building." I said innocently, I saw how she flinch dahil sa sinabi ko.

Did I say something wrong? 

"Ang bastos ng bunganga mo ah!" she said with a smile without her eyes, yeah I think I said something 

"IF TRANSFER KA TAPOS NAKA TAYO KA SA HARAP NG ROOM NAMIN AT YUNG SECTION MO SA ADMISSION CERTIFICATE AY 11 - GRAY, KAKLASE MO KO!!!" she shout out of frustration.

Then I realized s-she's just small!!! The fck I just judge a book by its cover!! 

"I'm sorry, I'm really sorry" I apologized to her, I didn't mean it.

She took a deep sigh and smile at me "Okay lang, Bea." She said and inabot sa akin yung kamay nya "Beatrix Estrella, pwede mo ko tawaging bea." Pag bubuo nya sabay hawak sa kamay ko at pilit na nakipag handshake.

"Nice to meet you Bea, I'm Hera." I introduced my self to her para hindi na rin rude kasi naging rude na nga ako kanina eh.

She looks nice but I still have a guts, I don't trust easily and somehow she's still a stranger who talked to me.

"Ano pang hinihintay mo dyan?! pasok na tabi tayo dali!" Pang hahatak nya sa akin kaya wala na akong nagawa, naupo kami sa bandang gitna ng classroom left side sya yung nasa bintana then ako sa tabi nya.

Alam kong pinagtitinginan na ako ng buong klase lalo na yung fish lip like na nasa gilid, the one I called fish lip like is yung babaeng sobrang kapal ng violet liptint mukha nang nguso ng isda kaya ayun pinangalan ko.

FISH LIP LIKE amazinggggggg 

Wala pang isang minuto pag ka pasok namin is sumunod na yung teacher, I know she's a teacher base on her outfit I think she's in her middle 30s she looks young but giving the aura of an experienced teacher.

I immediately caught her eyes and said "Ikaw yung transfer?" I just nod with an akward smile.

Cause, why not? senior high in public school especially in philippines don't allowed sit in's kaya probably I'm a transfer kasi new face ako.

"Come here." Sabi nya sa akin na halatang pinapatayo ako, I took a deep breath and start walking infront of the class. "Introduce your self nak," she said that got me confused.

Nak? Short of anak? I'm not her daugther, she's not my mother, so why? 

Hindi ko na lang muna yun pinansin at ginawa yung sinabi nya para mag end na rin to, I don't have social anxiety but I want to end this shortly.

"I'm Hera Jace Salviano, you can call me Hera for short." I said and bow infront of them to show some respect, I'm ready to return to my seat when she hold my sleeve.

"I didn't say you can go back to your seat," she smiled at me and I just be like "U-uhm, yea I'm sorry" in whispered.

"So what school do came from?" she ask that make me nervous, what should I do?Kuya said to me to keep my low profile, if I tell them that I came from Italy I'm sure hindi na ako magiging low profile

"Uhm p-province" I said randomly!! 

Why did I tell province?! Do I look like someone from province? Shiaaa I think kailangan ko na panindigan to!

"Ohhh saan sa province?" She keep asking! I just smiled at her hoping that she gets that I'm in akward situation right now.

Ms Ma'am, please I want to sit na magagalit si kuya if day 1 palang masira na yung profile na kailangan ko i maintain! 

"Okay. I notice that you're not comfortable I won't ask any further na, you may take a sit Hera." she said.

Wahhhhhh nakahinga rin ng maluwag I think I'm on a hot sit for a moment, kung nasa Italy lang ako and sinabi na introduce ko self ko I would literally brag anything about me like.

Bumalik na ako sa upuan ko ng makitang nakatitig sa akin si Bea, what is her problem? 

Like naka singkit yung mga mata nya na nakatingin sa akin.

 "May dumi sa face ko?" I ask her but umiling lang sya, umupo na lang ako sa tabi nya pero nakatingin parin sya sa akin making me uncomfortable.

"Why?This making me uncomfortable" I said in a straight face making her to sit properly, "Ang pogi ng pangalan mo JACE~~~" She said while tingling her fingers.

Akala ko kung anong sasabihin yun lang pala. 

"Why?ano bang mga name ng boys dito?" I ask while giving her a small laugh, "Uhmm ayung banakal na nasa likod Jose pangalan nun, tapos yung isa Berto, tas yung matangkad na mukhang lolo si Pipo." pagpapakilala nya sa akin.

"Wow." Ayun lang yung nasabi ko.

Jose and Berto is kinda fine, ethic name naman sya ng Filipino's pero yung Pipo? Is that even a name or palayaw lang? 

"Pero girl meron isang guy dito na ang pogi na nga yung name and pogi pa!!" She said, halatang kinikilig I don't really give a damn but I need to give some a little bit interest "Really? Who?" I ask.

Kahit na wala akong pake kailangan ko paring makisama kahit papano, I don't care about names and I know masyadong mataas yung definition ko ng pogi kaya alam kong hindi ko ka level yung sinasabi ni Bea.

Makasama ko ba namang lumaki ang isang Uri Cloud Salviano is like a dream come true na sa buong colony ng mga kababaihan, I'm not bragging about my kuya but damnn kuya cloud was in different level of pogi that word can't even express how handsome he is.

"Waige Aiden Agacci daiiiii" kinikilig na sabi ni Bea sa akin."Pwede na." sagot ko sa kanya na ikinataas ng kilay, "Girl anong pwede na?! Waige is like yung heartrob sa mga libro dai that height, yung itsura, yung ugali, yung talino. All in one sya dai wag mong pweni pwede na si aiden aba!" Pag tatanggol nya kaya ngumiti na lang ako.

"Sino ba sa kanila si Waige?" Tanong ko sa kanya para naman di nya feel na wala syang kausap, kawawa naman. "Absent hehe," sabi nya sabay kamot sa ulo nya.

Okay? Base sa preference nya perfect guy tong Waige but he's absent, I think he's just a typical Filipino student and kaya ganto umasta si Bea kasi yung Waige lang na yun yung preference nya ng pogi.

Napa "ohhh" na lang ako sa kanya, kasi di ko na rin alam ano pang sasabihin ko.

"Pero alam mo mag iisang linggo na since huli syang pumapasok," dagdag pa ni Bea pero this time her excitement faded.

A week straight? Maybe tinatamad lang sya pumasok like a typical studentm

I didn't reply to her at nilabas na lang yung notes ko, binigyan din ako ni Ms.Faith ng copy ng mga past lesson nila para di ako ma left over and I'm thankful for that.

Gaya ng inaasahan mabagal na lumipas ang oras ko sa araw na to, and paulit ulit lang din ginawa ko. Puro pag papakila sa bagong dating na mga teacher, lahat naman sila nag bigay ng notes sa akin para makahabol ako sa mga lesson.

Marami ding nakipag kilala sa akin but all of them smile lang yung sinagot ko, they are all friendly but it's like a no. I don't need friends.

As far as I know hindi lumapit sa akin yung fish lip like pati na rin yung mga girls na kapaligid sa kanya and I'm gonna call them the Fish squad, same shades lang ng liptint yung nasa labi nila tska I saw them kanina na nag hihiram nun like It's not a good hygine .

It's already 8 pm ng matapos ang klase namin, hindi ako nag lunch ngayong araw kasi nasa first floor pa yung canteen masyadong troublesome kaya mas pinili ko na lang di kumain.

I'm on my way na sa para bumaba ng nakita kong nakatayo sa likod ko si Bea "Why?" I ask her tska lumapit sa akin "Sabay tayo," she said innocently. "Saan?" tanong ko ulit pero nakasimangot na sya ngayon, "Syempre pag baba, ang dilim na kaya nakakatakot!! kung binilisan mo mag ayos ng gamit edi kanina pa ako nakababa hmp!" she said na parang kasalanan ko pa.

"Bilisan mo naaaaaaaaaa!!!" sabi nya pa, kaya wala na akong nagawa at binilisan yung pag aayos ko para makalabas na rin ako.

Ngayon ko na realize kung bakit hindi pa sya bumaba, dahil sya yung may hawak ng susi ng room hindi nya ma lock kasi nasa loob pa ako...

"Sorry, hindi ko naman alam." I apologized pero ngumiti lang sya sa akin after na masarado yung pinto ng classroom.

Sabay na kami bumaba and she's right madilim na nga and parang ghost building na rin tong lugar and ang layo nya kapag daylight. Ginamit ko na yung phone ko para maka sagap ng light kasi patay na rin mga ilaw dito.

"Una ka na dadaan pa ako sa office." Sabi ni Bea bago umalis I just nod, and ginawa yung sinabi nya totally di nya na rin naman kailangan sabihin kasi yun rin naman gagawin ko.

Magisa na ako na naglalakad ngayon palabas ng gate, medyo may mga ilaw pa naman sa paligid kasi bukas parin naman yung mga tindahan pero hindi ako dito susunduin kaya wala akong nagawa kundi umikot sa likod ng school. This will be my daily routine.

I'm about to take my turn ng makita kong nakatambay sa gilid yung Fish squad, di pa ba sila uuwi? I don't really care kaya nilampasan ko na lang sila kasi baka mag hintay na rin yung driver ko.

"Hoy!" sigaw sa akin nung fish squad leader nila, I turned around with a fake smile "Yes?" I ask. "Kanina pa ako naiinis sayo," dagdag nya para mas lalo akong mapangiti.

Hindi ko alam kung anong dahilan nya para ma feel yung ganon sa akin, kasi wala naman akong ginagawa sa kanya.

"Ako nga dapat mainis sayo eh," nakangiting sabi ko. "At bakit?!" Inis na tanong nya sa akin, nag si tayuan na rin yung buong fish squad sa likod nya. "Pano bang di ako maiinis e mukha kang tuyong isda." Nakatawa paring  sabi ko bago nag simulang maglakad paalis at kinawayan sila.

Ayaw kong makipag away pero that's true kanina pa ako naiinis sa mukha nya, simula nung tinarayan nya ako.

"At san ka pupunt-" pagpigil nya sa akin kasabay ng pag sampal ko sa kanya, "I bet you can't touch me." I said while smiling.

"Di mo ata kilala binabangga mo?!" Galit na galit, na tanong nya sa akin. "Wala akong pake kung sino ka." Nakangiting sagot ko sa kanya.

This is the reason kung bakit hindi ako nakikipag usap sa mga low class, ayukong inaastahan ako ng di ko deserve kasi nawawala ako sa sarili.

She's about to grab my hair when suddenly I released my knife and stab her all the way thru her lungs.

"Oh boyyyy." I said, hindi ko alam but that blood flowing from her stomach make my heart tingling.

I saw the fear out of her friends they about to shout when I shot them with silencer, one by one.

"I hope na hindi tayo magkita sa next life." I said sabay ng pag dukot ng mga mata nila, this is perfect for my collection!! 

They're shouting in silence make me tear up, this is so beautiful to watch.

If you're wondering sa finger print ko maybe I'm too lucky to be born with

andermatoglyphia a genetic disorder for not having fingerprints...

I leave a mark of mine in every body I got,

S.