He's not mine

JERALD

I hurried after Adam, my heart throbbing loudly and aching badly like it was going to shatter at any moment. This wasn't the plan. It was meant to be, go to ..., play the game, make Benjamin jealous and score the goal and not loosing Adam.

“Adam, wait.” I caught him by the hand as he turned, jerking the hand off with a brutal force, almost making me lose my balance. “Look, it's not the way you're saying it.”

He scoffed, “Oh really, well why don't you tell me what it's all about.”

I breathed down heavily. At least he's giving me a listening ear.

“Benjamin and I,” I began. “We had a thing in the past or maybe I thought we did but then he shows up one evening with someone else claiming to be his boyfriend and...and I felt betrayed. I really thought something was really gonna happen between us, but he just ruined it. And everytime, when I try to pretend like it doesn't hurt, he's always there, with his fling, making it hurt the most.”

I paused briefly, stylishly staring at Adam to know if he was flowing with me and truth be told, he was actually. That really made my heart flutter.

“And that was when I decided to leave. I really wanted to clear my head, to make a fresh start. So I came to Seattle and I met you and everything felt nice. I promise Adam, Benjamin and I, we're nothing. I broke up with him before I left. And whatever shit he's got going on, it's none of my business, I don't give a fuck. What I really care about is you and the game but most especially you.”

He chuckled softly, earning a smile from me as I clicked my tongue and wiped my imaginary tears.

“I’m sorry.” He muttered. “I shouldn't have acted the way I did, I guess I got jealous.”

Wait, what! Adam got Jealous. Fuck.

A stupid smile slowly crept onto my lips. “You were jealous?”

He rolled his eyes, but I caught the blush on his face. “It’s not that much of a big deal.”

“Yes, it is.” I blurted. “I mean, you just admitted that you were jealous over me.”

He stared at me for a moment, his gaze soft. “I saw the way you looked at him during the game and thought that maybe you still wanted him.”

My smile flattened, disappearing from my face and now filled with a disappointed look. “I really don't want Benjamin. I just...”

My voice cracked as he stared at me.

“Then why did you use me.”

I stared up at him, my mouth open but no words were coming. It was like as if I couldn't speak for a moment.

“I just wanted to make him jealous.” I whispered softly. “I wanted to make him see that I've moved on.”

“And have you?”

“What?”

“Have you really moved on?”

“Ye...yes...”

He scoffed and moved closer, close enough for his breath to fan against my face. A smirk appearing on his face. “I don't think so.”

“Wh...what?”

“Yes, Jerald. Because from where I'm standing, it doesn't look like you have.”

I stared at him, my hearts loosing it's stamina. And before I could open my mouth to speak, one of the players called on him.

He stepped back, staring at me one last time like as if I was carrying some infection or something. “You really shouldn't have.”

Then he walked out, leaving me to stand on my pain, bearing it alone.

Slowly, hot tears began to fall from my eyes, my knees wobbled and almost gave way to the ground but someone caught me before I could fall.

“You don't look good.”

Sarah!

I turned, pulling her into a hug. I've really missed Sarah. Sarah has been my best bud from day one, always out looking after me and offering the best advice ever. She's my special adviser. And I know I'm definitely in for a long talk today.

“I missed you.” I squealed, pulling out from the hug and before I knew it, she flicked my forehead.

“Ouch!” I winced, “that hurts.”

“Yeah, it should.”

“I’m sorry.” I pouted.

She hissed, folding her arms over her breasts. “Really? You think that's gonna end it? I mean Jerald, you left ... Abs and you didn't call me, you didn't pick my calls, no SOS messages. That was really bad of you, Jerald.”

I knew it.

I breathed out, staring at her with a frown. “I know and I do have a possible explanation.”

“Of course you should.” She said. “But first, who was the guy you were with earlier? And why does it seemed like you were about to cry few minutes ago?”

I sighed heavily, staring down at the grass and battling my lashes so the tears won't fall off.

Sarah understood my problem, then she pulled me into a hug. That was exactly what I needed. And Sarah was definitely the best person I could really rely on right now.

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Few hours later, I came out from the bathroom. Just had a good shower and it felt so nice and sweet. I had explained everything to Sarah and of course she didn't support my idea of using Adam to make Benjamin jealous. And speaking of the devil, I was back at the Stilinski mansion. Mom was really happy that I was back but that was after a few smacks on the head and I'm so grateful the house is quiet cause the devil isn't around.

Arghh...the night is gonna be so good and warm.

I tied my robe properly and fell on my bed, my mind slowly drifting off to Adam.

Should I give him a call? Would he answer it?

Maybe Sarah was right. I shouldn't have used him. Adam's nice and kind and sweet and...

The beeping of my phone brought me back to reality.

I sat up, clicking on the message that popped up.

My eyes widened and my heart throbbing loudly as I stared at it.

“Come to my room, now.” ~ Benjamin.