Memories

Gianni Summers

Christmas has come and gone, and so has new years. Half of both those days my son was with his father's family and the other half with Sophs family and I.

Honestly it was the hardest thing to do. Shit just reminded me of why I first wanted to meet the right guy, get married and then have his babies for this exact reason. My children having to spend their special days with their parents separately.

I'm living with Soph and Jacob while I look for an apartment. I need to hurry up though because my crying and depressing state just dampened their holiday cheer and everytime they mention his name I burst into tears.

God why does this shit hurt like this. I keep replaying the scene over and over in my head and cry. Keep replaying our favorite memories of us, reading our old text messages, looking at our pictures together. It all just hurts so bad.

Elijah doesn't make it any easier when he bangs on my door and begs for me to hear him out every second day when he picks EJ u