Welcome To Hell

I settled at the back of the car and Zain settled on his side. Mum Tasha and Moris stood by the side and watched me. I smiled at them and waved.

"Mom see you soon, we will get in touch on the phone"

I said and Zain drove out of our compound with my memories behind. I knew I was definitely going to miss my neighborhood. I have literally grown up here and have never left here for a long while, this is my first time, more like the second time I am leaving here. The first time I left was just for a while but I didn't feel like this because I didn't have anything to worry about. Now I have something to worry about and that is being under the same roof with Zain, my worst nightmare, someone that chose my sister over me, my ex-boyfriend and now my sister's husband. The guy my heart could not stop beating for, the guy who does something to my soul, the guy who knows the right button to press when it comes to me. This guy, though he doesn't love me but I love him very much with everything I have got in me and being under the same roof with him, it's going to be hell for me.

I felt my eyes hurt and I realized that I was crying. I was crying because I was betrayed by the two people that I love most in my life. I can't blame my sister but I would blame Zain. I knew that it's not everyone that comes into your life that stays with you but Zain makes me complete. He brought out the best in me and the worst in me, he showed me the world more like anyone could ever have done. He made me realize that I could do things without considering anyone. He was my world. When he left to marry my sister he took that world with him and every day that dawned, the thought of him haunts me.

I wiped my tears and sniffed back the ones that were threatening to come out.

I just have to stop being miserable for him because he does not deserve me.

I put on my headphone and rested my head on the headrest and closed my eyes.

Zain's point of view….

Right from the moment we left her house, she has not been herself. I had to watch her from the rear mirror and to be honest. She was hurting. She does not want to be in the same space as me and it's understandable. I made her hate me.

Hopefully, there would not be a reason for us to speak to ourselves.

I remembered the incident that happened back in her room when I was making my way to their dinner.

I know that the guy with them this morning is her boyfriend but I can't stop thinking about the words I overheard them say, about having sex over the phone. Have not really heard that before yet I claim to be a pro when it comes to sex. And that sex phone stuff, it made me what to do that with Jenny but then I remembered that I am married, I am not only married but married to her sister. I have done enough harm already, and I don't want to do another one so I killed the thought or I thought I did because as I looked at her as she lay defenceless in the back seat. I thought of the things I could do to her. I thought of how it would feel like having her scream my name under me.

Her lips parted and I felt myself getting hard at just the mere look at her. I have been in self-denial for so long. She is me but I don't know if I am still her. We had the most beautiful relationship ever. I was so clouded by her sister's beauty that I did not realize that Jenny was the one for me. I missed her so much every day for three years now and I could tell you that it's my idea to have her with us for a while to know if seeing her would make me stop feeling this way for her.

It was not going to be as easy as I thought. My attraction for her grows every minute and I don't know how long it is going to be before I reach my limit.

I sighed and breathed in

"Jenny"

I called softly but she did not respond. I checked on and that's when I saw that she was fast asleep, snoring softly like the cute baby she is. My baby.

I smiled at the thought even though I know it's a sin to think of someone aside from your wife but what can you do when you are helplessly in love with the person?

Since she is asleep, I focused on getting us to Reben Castle.

In less than an hour, I drove through my apartment.

I was thankful, it was an uneventful journey and Jenny slept throughout the Journey. I tapped her to wake up. She stirred and flicked her eyes open then stared at me.

Jenny's point of view….

I felt a light touch on my lap and I opened my eyes to see Zain staring at me. I was confused at first about what he was doing in front of me when I remembered that I was right inside his car going to Reben.

Does it mean that we are at Reben already?

"We are here, get down and get your luggage out then find yourself inside the building"

I heard him say and he left almost immediately.

I was mad for a second. Back home, he was nice and now he is being mean. What was I expecting? Someone that left you for another can't ever be nice to you, they can only pretend but not forever. The story of my life.

"Welcome to hell, Jenny"

I said, ready to face what will come with staying here.