On returning to the dorms last night, Lisa bombarded me with billions of questions, demanding to know every single detail about my date. Truth is, I didn’t mind filling her in, but I was in a state of total disbelief. It took me a while to realize that I’ve actually been on a date and I’ve received my first kiss in one night.
I still remember her initial expression on telling her that I had finally received my first kiss. She almost screamed. Had it not been for my hand that clasped her mouth, security would’ve come to our room, thinking that something was wrong.
I wish I can say things have been better with Josh, but I can’t because Josh hasn’t been okay at all. He can barely function due to the lack of drugs in his system. This isn’t by choice and this isn’t my plan to suddenly prevent him from taking the drug. I was slowly weaning him off it and things were okay, but apparently, Josh’s drug-dealer was arrested last Sunday, and Josh has run out of drugs. He doesn’t know where he could buy it.It’s been five days since our cooking date. We had a wonderful time together. I could tell that he was quite tired and he was doing his best to act okay; nevertheless, we did enjoy the night.
I feel the rays of sun hitting my face and they’re strong enough to wake me up. I look beside me and see Taleen asleep. She looks tired. I can tell from the bags under her eyes. I look down at my hand and see her holding it. Last night wasn’t easy for her. The last thing I remember is telling her to leave me alone. She didn’t. Did she spend the whole night nursing me? I carefully sit up and look at the nightstand beside her and see a big bowl.I kiss her cheek and gently remove my fingers from her soft grip. I look down at her again and my heart flutters. I love this girl so much. God! What did I do to deserve her? I could sit here all day and watch her. I wouldn’t even get bored.
Just like Owen has told me, I messaged Taleen a while ago - by a while I mean an hour - and I still haven’t heard back from her. Owen left thirty minutes ago, saying that he had a project to work on. Even if he doesn’t have anything and he wants to leave, I totally understand. Nobody wants to be in a constant state of stress. I’m staring at my phone, hoping to see a message or receive a call from her. I want her to talk to me. To yell or scream. She can do whatever she wants, and I’d understand.Idiot. I’m nothing but an
My brain can’t grasp the thought that I’ve agreed to date Josh. I don’t regret saying yes. I love him and I want him. As I told him, there’s no point in denying my feelings for him. I thought I can avoid dating, but it turns out that Josh is the one who moved my heart, who made me change the whole way I look at dating.When I’m with him, happiness automatically finds its way to me. He doesn’t even have to try. Just the tiniest gesture from him makes me over the moon. I never thought I’d meet somebody who would have this effect on me; not at such an early age like that. I’m just nineteen.
“Call me once you get there, yeah?” Josh says as he shoves my suitcase into the trunk on my car. When it comes to my being on the road, he is super nervous.“Don’t worry. I’m a good driver,” I assure him. He literally wanted to drive me to my parents’ place, scared that my bones may give up on me. My body has been in a good state lately, so there’s no need for him to worry about me. I’m all good now and my body is reacting well to the medicines I’m taking.“I
I’m meeting her family tomorrow. I’m really meeting her family tomorrow. Not as her friend, but as her boyfriend. My nerves are all over the place. I swear, I can feel my heart shaking in my chest. This step is too early. I didn’t plan for this. Yes, I know I’m bound to meet her family, but this is happening too soon. I’m scared that they might think that I am not the right man for their daughter. Of course, I know I’m not the one their daughter deserves, but they know nothing about my dark side. Taleen should be with another person. Somebody who won’t drain her energy. Somebody who isn’t too demanding. But she thinks I’m the best boyfriend she could ever ask for, and this breaks my heart.I will do my b
Josh and I walk inside after we bring the gifts he bought. The house is much warmer than how the weather is outside. My parents decided that we won’t have breakfast until he is here. They want him to be included through every single activity and I want that too. He is so nervous. I should be nervous since he is my first boyfriend and he is about to meet my family, but I don’t know why I am not nervous at all. I have this feeling in my guts that assures me they will love him.“Hey, Josh. Merry Christmas,” Layan says, smiling once she sees him. Layan already likes him. She has liked him since she first saw him.
Christmas this year was special. Spending it with Taleen and her family is something I’ve never imagined. It was fun and they were all welcoming. Meeting her family wasn’t the easiest thing for me, but it went smoothly. Her brother was indeed scary, and he almost made my heart drop because he appeared to hold a kind of disapproval towards the age gap between Taleen and me. In my point of view, I think it’s not huge; just three years.I’m back home now. I left on December 26th. The day I left I took Taleen out on a breakfast date. I let her choose the place since I knew nothing in her hometown. She chose a lovely place. We kept talking ab