Throughout the whole week, Avery’s words kept replaying in the back of my mind, making me question every single detail about my friendship with Josh. Is it really worth it? Am I willing to put myself through this nerve-racking journey? Why am I even willing to do that? Billions of questions are rushing in my head and I don’t know how to answer any of them.
I brush every single thought away and get up to get dressed. My parents are coming today along with my sister; this is the highlight of my day. After going through my closet for five minutes, I pick my denim jacket, a white top, and my black pants. After getting dressed, I leave my hair down, not doing anything with it but fixing my bangs. They’re supposed to be here in thirty minutes or less.
I walk out of the dorms building and make my way to the yard. I pick my phone out of my pocket to m
“So,you two think I should talk to him soon?” Layan asks Lisa and me. Currently, the three of us are awake, watching a movie on Netflixwhile our backs are pressed against the wall that Lisa’s bed is gluedto, but we’re not really paying attention to it. Lisa and I are preoccupied with convincing Layan to talk to Kyle.“Yes!” Lisa and I exclaim, throwing our hands up in the air. She is so scared of talking to him and I don’t understand why. Layan has always been the one who is known for her spontanei
I watch the train as it starts moving away from the platform and once it completely departs, I walk away. I’m happy that I had the chance to spend more time with Layan but saying goodbye to her wasn’t easy. I’m never good at goodbyes. Each time I have to let go of someone I love even for a temporary time, my heart clenches and a lump constantly forms in my throat. I hate goodbyes. I hate the dull feeling and the ache they bring to my heart. I take the bus back to the dorms and when I walk into the room, I don’t find Lisa. Sighing, I take a small Tupperware box and two foil plates out of the small cabinet where we store our kitchen tools. I scoop some of the tabbouleh in the box and I put six samosas in one of the foil plates and in the other, I put man’oucheh. After covering all of them with plastic wrap, I check my appearance in the mirror.&nbs
I messed up! I terribly messed up and I don’t know how to fix what I have done. Yes, I was mad at her for barely acknowledging me during the past few days, but this wasn’t the way I should have discussed things with her. I shouldn’t have scared her like that.I should have talked with her calmly, now she’s not going to look at my face ever again.Way to go Joshua! You’ve done an amazing job at trying to win her.I succeeded in scaring her away at the time in which I’m dying to keep her close to me. I don’t know what I can do to show her that I’m sorry.She left three hours
This Wednesday is one hell of an exhausting day. After attending two lectures, I’d stillhave a shift at the restaurant. To add moretomy plate, my body is aching with unbearable pain. The doctor told me it’s all because of stress and he prescribed some medications for my nerves, but they’re not really doing a good job.I swallow the two pink pills with water then I put the small bottle back in my backpack, wishing they’d lessen the pain even for a little bit. One more lecture left.
After Owen called and told me that Taleen didn’t mind me talking to her, I didn’t waste any minute. I got dressed to meet her; I want to appear decent in front of her. I also want her to know how sorry I am, I want her to know that I can get a grip on my anger issues. I want her to be sure that even if we fought again, I wouldn’t lash out at her like that; I learned from my mistake. Since Owen told me that she had a shift, I decide to use the time I have to buy her a gift; I’m not trying to buy her forgiveness because she doesn’t seem to be materialistic, but I just want to show her in every possible way that I truly appreciate her. I really don’t know what I should buy her. I want the gift to be meaningful, but I now realise that I don’t know her well enough to know what means a lot to her besides art. After roa
After a lot of time spent searching for a suitable car, I ended up buying a burgundy2017 Chevrolet Tax LS. I practically did none of the talking, Josh handled it all. He held a good price negotiation with the owner, and I ended up saving around two thousand dollars from the money I had saved for the car; the car was also cheaper than my budget. I have been saving since I was fifteen and now, I’m finally driving a decent car.My mind iscrammedwith billions of thoughts and they’re giving me a strong headache.
After two hours, I’m finally parking in my home’s driveway. I can’t see either of my parents’ cars in the driveway which means that they’re still at work. The road trip wasreally funas we jammed to the music happily.Onthe road, I learned that Josh was fluent in Spanish.This wasa surprisetome. The guy could literally sing most of the Spanish songs in my playlist.We all jump out of t
“Do you need help with anything?” Layan asks me as I make sure I’mnotleaving anything behind. We’re going backtoPortland in an hour or less. I wanted to stay for a little while longer with my family, but Ihave togo back.I’m more than grateful for the short distance between college and my hometown; if stress got the best of me at any time, I could easily come back home.